心情

今天的心情

有些纳闷
有些空虚
有些无奈
有些寂寞
有些无聊

他，已经再次踏上旅程了。你，应该可以放心继续单人行了。

Went for a swim just now, think the endorphins released are not enough.... lolzz

披着羊皮的狼

我小心翼翼的接近
怕你在梦中惊醒
我只是想轻轻的吻吻你你别担心

我知道想要和你在一起并不容易
我们来自不同的天和地
你总是感觉和我一起是漫无边际阴冷的恐惧

我真的好爱你我愿意改变自己
我愿意为你流浪在戈壁
只求你不要拒绝
不要离别不要给我风雪

我真的好爱你我愿意改变自己
我愿意为你背负一身羊皮
只求你让我靠近
让我爱你相偎相依

我确定我就是那一只披羊皮的狼
而你是我的猎物是我嘴里的羔羊
我抛却同伴独自流浪
就是不愿别人把你分享

我确定这一辈子都会在你身旁
带火热的心随你到任何地方
你让我痴,让我狂
爱你的嚎叫还在山谷回荡

我确定你就是那我心中如花的羔羊
你是我的天使是我的梦想
我搂你在怀里,装进我的身体
让你我的血液交融在一起

你确定看到我为你披上那温柔的羊皮
是一男人无法表露的脆弱感情
我有多爱你,就有多少柔情
我相信这柔情定能感动天地.

http://zmht.com/jinqu/piz.mp3

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好凄美感人，可你会让一只狼恋着吗？LOLzz.....

What is fate?

What is fate? We have been talking abt "let fate decide" especially when it comes to affairs of the heart and in particular, singles around my age... hee. But how do you define if "fate" makes you fall for a particular person, or if you guys even know each other at all in the first place?

Do you call fate only in the situation when you like him and he likes you? Do you wait for something to happen before you decided you are fated to be together? Do you think if you are meant to be together, you will be together without you doing anything? I dun know. *shrug*

Here is one scenario, you see this guy across the room, your eyes met, he is an acquaintence of a frend. You 2 felt the attraction. Now you can do 2 things, either, you make an active effort to know more abt the guy, or you can say, "if its meant to be, we will meet again or get acquainted somehow." What will you do? Does having the urge to do something active in achieving your potential happiness count as "fate"? If its not, then how come you dun have the same urge with other people? And the fact that you did act on your action, does it points to fate too? That it is fate you overcome your fears and decided to do the chasing? *shrug* Am I making sense?

So how do you define fate? Does fate means that you need not do anything and the thing just happen? Or does it mean at that point of time, you decided to do something to give chase?

Fate, what a good excuse....haaa....


Afternote: Just saw what my frend posted on his MSN, 所谓的“随缘”，只是在为自己的行为与过错找个借口！Wahahahaa..... *clap clap*

Poseidon & Sick

Went to see Poseidon the other day. Not bad, but preferred Titanic. Not because of the love story, but of the fact that the director really potrayed the agony of leaving your loved ones behind and the struggle to survive. Think I will go buy the DVD of Titanic. Its a classic.

As for the aftermath of watching Poseidon, it reminded me of my Navy days, and that I had better revise my notes (if I have the time and motivation) :p and time to hit the pool again. Haven been swimming for the past 1 year!!! Can you imagine tt?!?! It also made me think of my hardy personality. How would I have reacted if the same situation hits me? Will I be as calm, as witty and quick thinking? Will I be lazy and leave the thinking to others and just be a follower? Will I be focused enough and have the will to live and find a way out? Sometimes you just need this kinda inspiration or motivation to get some things going.... :) And yes, dun forget to tell those you love how you really feel just in case...... Do live your life as you like and dun regret. Always be true to your feelings, you live only once....

Okie, just watched True Courage on the box. This guy Takidah, really, have to hand it to him. He was a promising young man, met with an accident with only 1% chance of survival. Although he made it, but he was in a coma and it took 14 days before he came to. He suffered amnesia due to his brain damage and underwent 19 operations for his injuries and comestic surgeries. He lost his previous memories, behaved like a 3-year old kid before he regained his ability as an adult. He broke off with his long-timed gerfrend so that she could carry-on with her life. He applied to NIE, and gone into teaching. He was determined to relearn everything and achieved what he has today. *Clap clap* Tt, is true courage. How many of us can do that if we were in his shoes?

We have to always relearn, re-organised our piorties in life. How we can live better and be useful in this lifetime. Time for me to reflect and think about things too.... I will need constant reminding cos I am human and a forgetful one too... :)

Kaoz, having flu for the past few days liao. Will see doc tml and rest before going for flu jab on Monday... Zzzzzz

Crash

Went to Mr Chia's house for a visit with the gers yesterday. Haaa.... and as usual, we picked his collections of movies to enjoy. He then recommended "Crash". The Oscar "Best Picture" Award, that won over "Broke back Mountain". Wow! Me and Qingying both watch the latter, but did not have a chance to watched the award show.

It was real good, both of us would choose Crash over Broke back moutain, hands down.

Several stories interweave during two days in Los Angeles involving a collection of inter-related characters, a black police detective with a drugged out mother and a thieving younger brother, two car thieves who are constantly theorizing on society and race, the distracted district attorney and his irritated and pampered wife, a racist veteran cop (caring for a sick father at home) who disgusts his more idealistic younger partner, a successful black Hollywood director and his wife who must deal with racist cop, a Persian-immigrant father who buys a gun to protect his shop, a Hispanic locksmith and his young daughter who is afraid of bullets, and more.

For two days in Los Angeles, a racially and economically diverse group of people pursue lives that collide with one another in unexpected ways. These interactions are always interesting, and sometimes quite unsettling. The film explores and challenges your ability to judge books by their covers.

Oh, I love this show. Really arouses my feelings. The racisitism that America is facing, the relationships between parents and children and couples. How very unexpected things can happen, how involved and interweave humans can be. Go catch it.

Take the Lead

Just watched the movie this afternoon. Wow! I love it!

Pierre Dulaine is a Manhattan ballroom teacher and competitor who volunteers his time to teach ballroom dancing to a group of New York inner city high school kids. Initially forced to participate as a form of detention, the kids reject Mr. Dulaine's efforts until his unwavering commitment and dedication finally inspires them to embrace the program, infusing it with their own unique hip-hop style while subconsciously learning valuable life lessons about pride, respect, self-esteem and honor.

I teared at the part when the 2 youngsters dance the Waltz. Really, the joy of just enjoying the dance, that you are oblivious to those around you....Sigh. How can I explain that feeling? Was really happy and glad I went for the show today. Thanks Rick!

Orgh.... it makes me wanna dance social and ballroom again. But I need to find a partner first. Who's willing?? :p

I really wan to make an effort to go for a dancing class... the fire inside just called out to me.

After the show, Mdm Ng called me regarding a performace in May. Can you believe it all happen at once? And Joan jio me to watch "Burn the Floor".... hahahah... what more can I ask for except to skip to the dance floor again.. *grin*

But had a unpleasent evening after that. Some stuff about work. Spoilt my mood.. *pout*. Talk to me straight. Dun pull ranks and name. I'm not threatened.. >:(

Baby plate

Wow... just saw the orange plate I used when I was a toddler in the cupboard. That was over 20 years old!! Hmm.. mum say it was to be used by my nephew. Heee.. and I asked her "You had meant to keep it for my child rite? " I grinned. Oh well, since I am still single, shall pass it on to my nephew bah. :) But its so sweet hor, imagine your child using the very same thing you used as a child. How very thoughtful of my mum.

And talking about my nephew, he has grown so big and he is smart.... :) Cute little thing, can't get enough of him.

PS. Kids are always cute when they are not yours.... :p

念

以为诉尽心意，已满足
以为不去思念，了牵忧
奈何满足无法填补心灵的缺口
奈何牵挂依然澎湃在心头

TMA03

Hmm... just finished my TMA02, must rush for TMA03 le. Deadline is 19 Apr. Add oil, add oil!!

This time round, its interesting. We are supposed to do a study of human behaviour through Self-reflection. We are to choose an unproductive or negative behaviour and what was the motivation for us to change it. If you can't recall, you can get another to be your subject. Good idea huh?

I've too many negative behaviour le.... hmm... shall write on my superior complexity. That was something I had but managed to find the motivation to change it. Hopefully able to come out with something bah...

Feeling bored, empty yet happy to have found back myself... duh... Must be too long never go dancing or workout le...

Ppl talk about Politics

Duh, politics and general election is what everybody'sblogging now... well, you can't find it here. :p Cos I dun wanna kana sue....wahaah

Anyway, most of us can see clearly what is before us, just that do we accept what is in front of us. There will always be contradictions in whatever things. Tt is life mah.... 人就是矛盾的动物, 政治虽不是人，但也不例外. Haizzz...(What the **** I am talking about?) :p

Do you feel cheated when you saw the heading for this entry?? wahahaha....

Dun mind me.... just my usual PMS.

Haaa.... think whatever happen, you are always back to the starting point. Just like I realised, this is the true me. I found back myself le. I've changed some, but I am fundamentally the same person as I was a few years ago. Tried to get into the main stream, but..... think I've come to terms with myself on my socialising with ppl bah. I am so very glad.... :). Answerable to yourself..... without doing harm to others. I will be a frend like how I would like to be treated as a frend.

Raining Heavily now

I like...... :D

But I pity my counterparts going for calls.... :(

Drive carefully when raining wor....

"The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four Americans is suffering from some form of mental illness. Think of your three best friends. If they are okay, then it's you." - Rita Mae Brown

LOL....

To Say, Not to Say, Say lar

Said liao le..... V^_^

Whatever will be will be..... tt was what I expected too... :)

Frankly, I haven expected an answer cos I also dun know the answer myself.... just tot of Nike's slogan, "Just do it".

Well, at least now all my problems are answered.... shouldn't have much headache liao. I am glad I am back to myself 爱恨分明. Just do it, can think about the pro and cons and problems, but once decided, go ahead liao.... dun waste time. Come whatever the consequences may be.... Just know what you are doing :)

Tt is the true me! Must be able to face my own feelings... only then I m living.... ;)

PS. Just in case you are reading, do have the peace of mind that I am easy and open-minded and mature enough to accept whatever the outcome will be, even if there isn't an outcome, just like you say, let time do the talking..... :)

关于爱情

等待是一种心情，有时候......也是一种美丽
(However, somethings cannot wait too long one..... :p)

我和自己争论了许久，究竟是爱还是被爱幸福?
最好的是彼此相爱，如果没这么幸运，如今的我是会选择爱人....

为什么你总是若即若离，让我一颗心苦苦猜疑
难道是我自作多情，难道是我会错意
还是你不敢面对你对我的情意
而让一段情缘就此随风而去

The one?

也许前世注定这份缘，也许今生来相聚。

Show me some signal please......

青春游走

Was watching this prog yesterday. Wow! Its showing the youngsters and how they achieved their dreams... how I envy them.

There was this girl who likes music very much, she can play the erhu, guitar, piano, violin... wah... and she's got character. Sweet-looking, long hair, looks feminine. Dream ger eh?

Then they were showcasing this other ger who is so full of character. She do arts. Did an exhibition of her works in her own room. The whole exhibition includes visual, audio, abstact... she is really brave to go onto the artistic journey...

青春就是本钱....

Coming to 30 liao, still exploring myself. Should have a character by now. Guess I do have the basic principles, but hope to be more open-minded and forgiving. Wiser will be nice and being more mature and alluring bah.... but I will always be my jovial self..... ;)

To Say, Not to Say

To say, not to say? To say, not to say? To say, not to say? To say, not to say? To say, not to say? To say, not to say?

From 城市灵魂

Hmmm.... wanted to share what one of my poetic frend wrote..

虚报佳音的激遇，掏空感情的积蓄，有如流星的痕迹
如此短暂而美丽，留下的痛何时醒，那个世纪才忘记
想要忘记得失意，杏花村酒也难替
让我忘记你的名字，你的脸孔，你的谜
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跨别两年的回忆，盖满尘埃抽屉里
以为心疼已免疫，仍然锁眉想哭泣
天空突然一阵雨，难道上天也放弃
街边积水照身影，映出隐藏的孤寂
不想守着这秘密，用心诉说谁又明 ?

(compliments of 城市灵魂)

*Psss...changed some of your words hor... :p

Finally finished my Assignment liao!!

Wah... long time no update le. Have been very busy with my assignment. So many things to update but no time. Now dun have the "mood" liao. Nevermind, will try to write when the inspiration comes back. :p

Think I have to improve my language skills le. Haizzz, my grammar is just terrible! Got back my first assignment, 40 outta 50. Eh... a bit disappointed :( Hope I can score better this time round.

Trying to install a chinese input software since I've changed my laptop. But NJstar is not helping me!! *sob sob* I wanna get my software up fast so that I can start writing in chinese again. I am a chinese helicopter....heeh v^_^

Kay lar, gotta go back to installing my software le. Update again bah.

Baby and Assignment

Baby Jovan has been keeping us very busy, especially my mum. Have to look after both mother and baby. Luckily I was trained to look after babies since young as I am the oldest and my mum had been a babysitter for a long time. My skills for handling babies, changing diapers, feeding milk are still there, its just a bit rusty. Heh :p

Last nite tutorial was on intelligence. Just nice was talking about babies' brain development. Hmm.... nuture really plays an important part in a child's development. The importance of patience, love and stimulants cannot be emphasise enough. Told my sis and bro-in-law must really love their kid and give him a healthy environment for growing up. Children once born is your life-long responsibility le...

Haizzz, haven finished my assignment *sob sob*. Cannot be distracted anymore, must really focus and finish it!! I must!! >:(

Her husband is still a virgin

Newly-wed girl told mom her husband is still a virgin.
Mom: How do you know?
Girl: Last night when we made love, his cock was still in plastic cover.

Bangladesh Worker : Sir, me no come to work, me sick.
Boss : When I am sick, I have sex with my wife - try it.
2 hours later, Bangladesh Worker : Boss! It worked! Me ok now. You got nice house.

After sex, Thai girl kept fondling man's cock.
Man : Why? Want to have sex again?
Thai Girl : No lah, just admiring your cock. I used to have one before.

Women's lives are hard.
Morning - wash clothes.
Noon - hang clothes.
Evening - keep clothes.
Night - iron clothes.
Midnight - take off clothes.
After midnight - find clothes.

To make it straight, she pulls it.
To make it stand, she rubs it.
To make it stiff, she licks it.
To let it in, she pushes it. True?
Threading a needle is not easy.

A Sad story.
A woman's husband died & she had him cremated. She then blew his ashes into the ocean and said : Sweetheart, this is my last blowjob for you.

Girl : Mom, what is a penis?
Mom : When you become a good girl, you will get one.
Girl : But mom, wha t if I am not a good girl?
Mom : Then you will get many!

A lawyer who was confused in his mathematics asked his secretary: If I give you $3 million less 17.5%, how much would you take off?
Secretary : Everything sir! Dress, Bra and Panties.

Schoolgirl : I do not want to take the sex Education class.
Teacher : Why?
School girl : Someone told me that the final exam will be Oral.

Two sperms talking on mobile.
Ist : I'm somewhere between the fallopian tube and uterus. Are you close by?
2nd : No boy, I am taking a different route. I am just crossing the tonsils.

Scientists have discovered that the lightest thing in the world is a PENIS.
This is because it can be lifted up even by a simple thought.

Muahahahah....