矛盾

"人嚮往的東西是一回事，適合自己的，又是另一回事。" - 张小娴

为何那么矛盾呢？唉....

The Secret

Hear, hear.... got inspired by the DVD from Ben on The Secret
.

"The Law of Attraction", "The Law of Universe".

You will attract what you think and channel your energy to....

Here are my wishes:

1) I am young and beautiful
- great legs
- great skin
- slim figure

2) Happy and healthy relationship

3) Bonus money every year

"My wish is your command"

Random

Went to Kwan Yin temple to pray today.
Took some random pics on my iPhone.

And of cos my handsome devil :)

Gloomy Sunday

s z o m o r ú v a s á r n a p

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r e z s ő s e r e s s l y r i c s

Ősz van és peregnek a sárgult levelek
Meghalt a földön az emberi szeretet
Bánatos könnyekkel zokog az öszi szél
Szívem már új tavaszt nem vár és nem remél
Hiába sírok és hiába szenvedek
Szívtelen rosszak és kapzsik az emberek...

Meghalt a szeretet!

Vége a világnak, vége a reménynek
Városok pusztulnak, srapnelek zenélnek
Emberek vérétől piros a tarka rét
Halottak fekszenek az úton szerteszét
Még egyszer elmondom csendben az imámat:
Uram, az emberek gyarlók és hibáznak...

Vége a világnak!

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LITERAL ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

It is autumn and the leaves are falling
All love has died on earth
The wind is weeping with sorrowful tears
My heart will never hope for a new spring again
My tears and my sorrows are all in vain
People are heartless, greedy and wicked...

Love has died!

The world has come to its end, hope has ceased to have a meaning
Cities are being wiped out, shrapnel is making music
Meadows are coloured red with human blood
There are dead people on the streets everywhere
I will say another quiet prayer:
People are sinners, Lord, they make mistakes...

The world has ended!

Such sad lyrics and melody.... no wonder its called the Hungarian suicide-song.....

羽云

无题

I was reading the profiles on my facebook. Make me miss my Navy days. Makes me realised I need to do some things. Need to find a hobby, need to go ahead with my life. Instead of just sleeping and sitting in front of the comp....

寻觅童年足迹

Had this urge to capture the memories of my childhood for quite sometime already.
I think I really need to find a day to realise this 心愿 (what is this in "england"? :p) of mine.

“抓不住时间的冲击，唯能留住贩黄的回忆”

留鳥。過境鳥

我們到底要做幾回過境鳥，才肯安定下來，成為某個人的留鳥？

我們又要遇過多少過境鳥，才會遇到命定的留鳥？

愛情永遠是曖昧不明的時候最甜蜜，然後是熱戀。後來的後來，就像過去的每段戀情一樣，終歸要落入尋常生活，要被時間消磨。唯一不同的只是對象而已。但是，人卻不可能為了追逐曖昧不明和熱戀時期的快樂而不斷去戀愛。

愛情一直也有它的周期，就像人生，無可避免要經歷生老病死。

有沒有不死的人？你微笑搖頭，說不出的傷感。

我們都是彼此生命中的過境鳥，我們也曾是留鳥。

留鳥

No updates

haiz....normal days. Nothing exciting happened.

Miss those days when I am more 诗情画意..... :(

Talk Rock

Wah!! My fav blogger is back! Finally after 1.5 years.....

Click on the title to check him out!

可不可以不要牽掛一個人？

愛情，就是彼此永不止息的思念，是永遠放不下的牽掛，是心甘情願的牽絆。

你問：「可不可以不要牽掛一個人？那種滋味太苦了。」

苦的，不是牽掛，而是沒有應答的牽掛。當你牽掛他的時候，他並沒有牽掛你。他從來不像你牽掛他那樣牽掛著你。

面对恐惧与不安

心好痛，好痛。明明知道答案了为何这么耿耿于怀？我好怕要面对这一天。我应该先开口吗？

恐惧。不安。畏怯

Breadou

Got this cute little bun as wrist rest for Christmas.... ^^

2009

Yelow, 2009!

Hmm... was pretty busy yesterday nite with all the drunkard calls and fighting and disputes. :(

I found that I am getting lazier and lazier on my NY resolution. I used to be very enthusiastic and optimistic at the end of the year as I ticked off things I've done and planing for the following year.
This year however seems like a normal day to me. Not much excitement that i felt.

I guess the main thing I wanna do in 2009 is to live life fully. Really gotta join the dance class which I have been talking about for 2 years... :p

As for the rest... we will just see how things goes.

Hope 2009 is a good year for all.

Happy New Year 2009!!

Ambulance door left wide ajar... but where's everyone?

For more than 10 minutes, this ambulance door was left wide open, with nary a paramedic in sight, and the STOMPer who spotted it at a Woodlands car park wondered why this had happened.

The contributor had been helping a friend move and said he was unsure of the exact location of the block the ambulance was spotted at.

He MMSed STOMP on Dec 12 at 9:35 pm and said:

"An empty ambulance with nobody to look after?

"The engine and everything else was still on."

The STOMPer added that this happened for more than 10 minutes, and subsequently, he saw several medical personnel carrying an empty stretcher board the vehicle.


1 bo liao person asking to be f*** up, down, left, right, center......tsk tsk tsk

我要的

I want

1. Someone who truly loves me
2. Someone who is willing to put in effort to maintain the relationship
3. Someone who is not riding a donkey while looking for a horse

I've lost a love once and I'm not gonna lose again. That is why I will give my best to my next relationship. I will exhaust all possibilities before calling quits if it din work out.

对于错过的爱，我只能惋惜。所以我会更珍惜下一段恋情.......来弥补上一段的遗憾。

傻女人

在現在這個現實與即食的世界﹐" 夫妻本是同凌鳥﹐大難臨頭個自飛" 的例子太多了。試問我能不心寒嗎 ? 我嚮往的只是一段純真的愛情。一段沒有面具﹐沒有戒心的愛情 。就是單單純純的愛一個男人 。真正的愛是無私的吧 ? 是不求回報的吧 ? 如果你遇到了一個疼愛你的人但你覺得你不能跟他付出的一樣多﹐你會放棄嗎 ? 會覺得他應該遇到一個更珍惜他的人嗎 ? 還是會好好的享受被愛的幸福 ? 可能人都是泛賤的吧 .... 往往就是不會珍惜與享受被愛的幸福卻對那些視你于糞土的人死心塌地 。Haaa.......人可真泛賤啊 !

我也是屬於這類型的人吧﹗我祇想能全心全意的愛一個人 。能遇到一個讓我愛他多于自己的男人 。可是如果讓我遇到了﹐我往往都不會是他的最愛 。Haaa...... 真矛盾啊﹗曾有個友人說過 "In Love, either you love or you dun. You will be very selfish to one, yet you will be very generous with another. " 我覺得蠻有道理的 。張小嫻在她的一篇文章寫到

" 你相信永遠的愛情嗎 ? 世上有兩種女人 ﹐一種聰明而孤絕﹐太了解愛情的真相﹐所以不快樂。 一種天真而簡單﹐幸福的被一個男人愛着 。 你又屬於哪一種呢 ? "

我想我是屬於第一種 。但﹐ 做個簡單的女人何嘗不是種幸福呢 ? 有時﹐太過清醒並不是件好事 。如果哪天我真遇到了一個能讓我無條件愛他的人而我不是他的最愛﹐ 我寧願不要知道真相﹐就讓我相信我是他最愛的人 。有時我也想做個簡單的女人...........


Something I wrote 3 years ago.... ironic isn't it? lol

But whatever it is, I will not stick with someone who dun love me, no matter how much I love him. I've come to accept only 2-way street. I value myself.

我能付出所有，但得值得。。。。是一个真正爱我的人，和我爱的人。

Humour found on net

LIFE'S A TEST - AND YOU'RE GRADED ON A CURVE

At age 4, success is...not peeing in your pants.

At age 12, success is...having friends.

At age 16, success is...having a driver's license.

At age 20, success is...having sex.

At age 35, success is...having money.

At age 50, success is...having money.

At age 60, success is...having sex.

At age 70, success is...having a driver's license.

At age 75, success is...having friends.

At age 80, success is...not peeing in your pants.

想哭

刚读到一位部落朋友的entry. 让我鼻子一酸...... 是为我和他。

Sad day, Glad day

Went for a fall from height case. Sad.... the girl was only 6 years old. I was already getting my "ga chang" ready to scoop and go. But when I saw the girl at scene, my heart sank. It was a clear cut case of dead on arrival. What can I do? I can only tell the cruel truth to the parents and comfort them...... sad.

On the other hand, I'm so glad to have a chance to talk to Joanna, a ITE lecturer who is attached to my station for ambulance run. She is my support pillar man.... thanks to her that I felt so much better. At least I know who I can turn to when I run into r/s problem.

And Uncle and KY also lend me their arms and shoulder as punching bags....haha. Thanks to them.... I will be strong.