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Ah Cheng's reply to my MSN tagline of " 明明已经知道答案了，到何时才放得下？" is " 明白与舍得还是有一段差距的 , 离开需要勇气...... 忘记却是难题.... ."

I have a lot of courage, as for the rest, haaa...

Short and sharp ghost stories

1、我一个人要乘出租车，司机问我：你们两个要去哪里？


2、一人从车祸的现场走开，迎面有人拦住他：hei !你的一只手还在车上呢！


3、车开得飞快，一个老太婆趴在窗外看著我。


4、开摩托车接女朋友下班，后半夜有点凉，女友温柔的张开双手搂住我。忽然她摸我脸：“冷吗？”刚想接口
忽然发现腰际女友的双手一直没离开，啊！


5、昨夜上网，朋友突然来敲我家窗户叫我出去玩~！正准备开窗说不去，
才突然想起自己搬家了，从1楼搬到10楼~~ 那是谁啊？？


6、午夜里，由噩梦中惊醒的我，看到哥哥坐在床边，轻轻地问我：“怎么了？”
我说：梦见一群抱着自己脑袋的鬼追我！是不是这样的？说着，哥哥把他的头摘下来了。


7、办公室的高层电梯只停15-30楼，在30楼工作的小F，一天加班到深夜后独自坐电梯下楼
电梯每层都停下开门，门外没人，最后，停在了14楼
门外一白衣女子说：好挤哟，我也要进来......

8、有个人看完此帖，没回，第二天就再也没醒来

*faint* lolzzz

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The latest book from 张小娴 . She never disappoints me.... :)

Nice read, almost makes you think there is love so sweet as in the novel. Haaa...



明明已经知道答案了，到何时才放得下？忐忑不定的心.....

Not a good nite

Haizzz, did not have a good nite. Although only 2 calls, both are RTAs and involving more than 1 casualty for each call. Knocked myself on the side-mirror of the ambulance when I was too eager to get to my patients and sustained a laceration on my lips. Luckily never broke my nose.... -_-". That case was bloody.

Did not sleep well (though you can hardly sleep well when you on duty). Had a nightmare. Was walking in this room with lots of cupboards and what was in these cupboards were actually body parts! Can't actually rem the whole thing, only think I rem is a guy holding my hand escorting me thru the room..... -_-". Aftermath of that bloody RTA??

Went for the 1st Asian Update in Resuscitation in CGH yesterday. We were updated on the new ratio between compressions and breaths for CPR. Will have to relearn everything again.....

Loss

Just came back from Jane's wake. A lot of TD members were there. My eyes were red when I saw her for the last time. Though we were not very close, I do feel a sense of loss somehow. It really is different if it is someone you know personally. Her accident happened in the early morning of 1st June. According to the family, she was pronounced dead at the scene. I dun know how I would feel if I was the one attended the call.

I remembered how sad and bothered 1 of my colleague was when his frend, also a paramedic lost his life. And of cos, I remembered Charlie's reaction to the news that his batch boy, Poh Chuan, one of the guy who was being murdered in Aus. He told me he needed to do some night driving. I was at a loss of how to comfort him.....

"Live the moment", something we should all learn to do. Appreciate the every second that you are in and savour the pure essence of just living in that moment. Be present. I think only then, will we be able to leave this world without regrets.

梁文福

如果要笑
＊＊＊＊

如果要笑就得让星星听到
要笑得那几颗嵌不牢的欲坠晃摇

如果有泪且任泪如倾
且温湿我即将寂寞的肩
且模糊彼此的容颜
成记忆里不锈的镜面

如果是青春结着它干嘛
让发夹去夹它的忧郁
让飞扬的风里飞扬

如果是别离就种下它吧
待他日各自走在归路上
也有一片成林的等待便于张望




昔日
＊＊

一条长路水泥新铺

快乐踩过去 忧愁也追过去

时间凝固后

哪个是哪个的足印

再也分不清




愁
＊

风景换季节的新衣在你窗外

你窗上的风铃叮叮催熟我的忧郁

望成窗的我的眼守着秋天的走过

走过的你踩响黄叶的如踩着我的叹息


＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊

载走旅人的火车在远山下托一种

叫做烟的愁

窗边正愁的人抬头看着无聊的风

有一下没一下搓捏一团团

叫做云的梦


＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊

月台上这一端是黄昏

另一端是黑夜

下了车的归人以鞋声测量小站的寂寞

月台上记忆般挂着的钟

依然是时针停着等待

粉针指向离别

心情

今天的心情

有些纳闷
有些空虚
有些无奈
有些寂寞
有些无聊

他，已经再次踏上旅程了。你，应该可以放心继续单人行了。

Went for a swim just now, think the endorphins released are not enough.... lolzz

披着羊皮的狼

我小心翼翼的接近
怕你在梦中惊醒
我只是想轻轻的吻吻你你别担心

我知道想要和你在一起并不容易
我们来自不同的天和地
你总是感觉和我一起是漫无边际阴冷的恐惧

我真的好爱你我愿意改变自己
我愿意为你流浪在戈壁
只求你不要拒绝
不要离别不要给我风雪

我真的好爱你我愿意改变自己
我愿意为你背负一身羊皮
只求你让我靠近
让我爱你相偎相依

我确定我就是那一只披羊皮的狼
而你是我的猎物是我嘴里的羔羊
我抛却同伴独自流浪
就是不愿别人把你分享

我确定这一辈子都会在你身旁
带火热的心随你到任何地方
你让我痴,让我狂
爱你的嚎叫还在山谷回荡

我确定你就是那我心中如花的羔羊
你是我的天使是我的梦想
我搂你在怀里,装进我的身体
让你我的血液交融在一起

你确定看到我为你披上那温柔的羊皮
是一男人无法表露的脆弱感情
我有多爱你,就有多少柔情
我相信这柔情定能感动天地.

http://zmht.com/jinqu/piz.mp3

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好凄美感人，可你会让一只狼恋着吗？LOLzz.....

What is fate?

What is fate? We have been talking abt "let fate decide" especially when it comes to affairs of the heart and in particular, singles around my age... hee. But how do you define if "fate" makes you fall for a particular person, or if you guys even know each other at all in the first place?

Do you call fate only in the situation when you like him and he likes you? Do you wait for something to happen before you decided you are fated to be together? Do you think if you are meant to be together, you will be together without you doing anything? I dun know. *shrug*

Here is one scenario, you see this guy across the room, your eyes met, he is an acquaintence of a frend. You 2 felt the attraction. Now you can do 2 things, either, you make an active effort to know more abt the guy, or you can say, "if its meant to be, we will meet again or get acquainted somehow." What will you do? Does having the urge to do something active in achieving your potential happiness count as "fate"? If its not, then how come you dun have the same urge with other people? And the fact that you did act on your action, does it points to fate too? That it is fate you overcome your fears and decided to do the chasing? *shrug* Am I making sense?

So how do you define fate? Does fate means that you need not do anything and the thing just happen? Or does it mean at that point of time, you decided to do something to give chase?

Fate, what a good excuse....haaa....


Afternote: Just saw what my frend posted on his MSN, 所谓的“随缘”，只是在为自己的行为与过错找个借口！Wahahahaa..... *clap clap*

Poseidon & Sick

Went to see Poseidon the other day. Not bad, but preferred Titanic. Not because of the love story, but of the fact that the director really potrayed the agony of leaving your loved ones behind and the struggle to survive. Think I will go buy the DVD of Titanic. Its a classic.

As for the aftermath of watching Poseidon, it reminded me of my Navy days, and that I had better revise my notes (if I have the time and motivation) :p and time to hit the pool again. Haven been swimming for the past 1 year!!! Can you imagine tt?!?! It also made me think of my hardy personality. How would I have reacted if the same situation hits me? Will I be as calm, as witty and quick thinking? Will I be lazy and leave the thinking to others and just be a follower? Will I be focused enough and have the will to live and find a way out? Sometimes you just need this kinda inspiration or motivation to get some things going.... :) And yes, dun forget to tell those you love how you really feel just in case...... Do live your life as you like and dun regret. Always be true to your feelings, you live only once....

Okie, just watched True Courage on the box. This guy Takidah, really, have to hand it to him. He was a promising young man, met with an accident with only 1% chance of survival. Although he made it, but he was in a coma and it took 14 days before he came to. He suffered amnesia due to his brain damage and underwent 19 operations for his injuries and comestic surgeries. He lost his previous memories, behaved like a 3-year old kid before he regained his ability as an adult. He broke off with his long-timed gerfrend so that she could carry-on with her life. He applied to NIE, and gone into teaching. He was determined to relearn everything and achieved what he has today. *Clap clap* Tt, is true courage. How many of us can do that if we were in his shoes?

We have to always relearn, re-organised our piorties in life. How we can live better and be useful in this lifetime. Time for me to reflect and think about things too.... I will need constant reminding cos I am human and a forgetful one too... :)

Kaoz, having flu for the past few days liao. Will see doc tml and rest before going for flu jab on Monday... Zzzzzz

Crash

Went to Mr Chia's house for a visit with the gers yesterday. Haaa.... and as usual, we picked his collections of movies to enjoy. He then recommended "Crash". The Oscar "Best Picture" Award, that won over "Broke back Mountain". Wow! Me and Qingying both watch the latter, but did not have a chance to watched the award show.

It was real good, both of us would choose Crash over Broke back moutain, hands down.

Several stories interweave during two days in Los Angeles involving a collection of inter-related characters, a black police detective with a drugged out mother and a thieving younger brother, two car thieves who are constantly theorizing on society and race, the distracted district attorney and his irritated and pampered wife, a racist veteran cop (caring for a sick father at home) who disgusts his more idealistic younger partner, a successful black Hollywood director and his wife who must deal with racist cop, a Persian-immigrant father who buys a gun to protect his shop, a Hispanic locksmith and his young daughter who is afraid of bullets, and more.

For two days in Los Angeles, a racially and economically diverse group of people pursue lives that collide with one another in unexpected ways. These interactions are always interesting, and sometimes quite unsettling. The film explores and challenges your ability to judge books by their covers.

Oh, I love this show. Really arouses my feelings. The racisitism that America is facing, the relationships between parents and children and couples. How very unexpected things can happen, how involved and interweave humans can be. Go catch it.

Take the Lead

Just watched the movie this afternoon. Wow! I love it!

Pierre Dulaine is a Manhattan ballroom teacher and competitor who volunteers his time to teach ballroom dancing to a group of New York inner city high school kids. Initially forced to participate as a form of detention, the kids reject Mr. Dulaine's efforts until his unwavering commitment and dedication finally inspires them to embrace the program, infusing it with their own unique hip-hop style while subconsciously learning valuable life lessons about pride, respect, self-esteem and honor.

I teared at the part when the 2 youngsters dance the Waltz. Really, the joy of just enjoying the dance, that you are oblivious to those around you....Sigh. How can I explain that feeling? Was really happy and glad I went for the show today. Thanks Rick!

Orgh.... it makes me wanna dance social and ballroom again. But I need to find a partner first. Who's willing?? :p

I really wan to make an effort to go for a dancing class... the fire inside just called out to me.

After the show, Mdm Ng called me regarding a performace in May. Can you believe it all happen at once? And Joan jio me to watch "Burn the Floor".... hahahah... what more can I ask for except to skip to the dance floor again.. *grin*

But had a unpleasent evening after that. Some stuff about work. Spoilt my mood.. *pout*. Talk to me straight. Dun pull ranks and name. I'm not threatened.. >:(

Baby plate

Wow... just saw the orange plate I used when I was a toddler in the cupboard. That was over 20 years old!! Hmm.. mum say it was to be used by my nephew. Heee.. and I asked her "You had meant to keep it for my child rite? " I grinned. Oh well, since I am still single, shall pass it on to my nephew bah. :) But its so sweet hor, imagine your child using the very same thing you used as a child. How very thoughtful of my mum.

And talking about my nephew, he has grown so big and he is smart.... :) Cute little thing, can't get enough of him.

PS. Kids are always cute when they are not yours.... :p

念

以为诉尽心意，已满足
以为不去思念，了牵忧
奈何满足无法填补心灵的缺口
奈何牵挂依然澎湃在心头

TMA03

Hmm... just finished my TMA02, must rush for TMA03 le. Deadline is 19 Apr. Add oil, add oil!!

This time round, its interesting. We are supposed to do a study of human behaviour through Self-reflection. We are to choose an unproductive or negative behaviour and what was the motivation for us to change it. If you can't recall, you can get another to be your subject. Good idea huh?

I've too many negative behaviour le.... hmm... shall write on my superior complexity. That was something I had but managed to find the motivation to change it. Hopefully able to come out with something bah...

Feeling bored, empty yet happy to have found back myself... duh... Must be too long never go dancing or workout le...

Ppl talk about Politics

Duh, politics and general election is what everybody'sblogging now... well, you can't find it here. :p Cos I dun wanna kana sue....wahaah

Anyway, most of us can see clearly what is before us, just that do we accept what is in front of us. There will always be contradictions in whatever things. Tt is life mah.... 人就是矛盾的动物, 政治虽不是人，但也不例外. Haizzz...(What the **** I am talking about?) :p

Do you feel cheated when you saw the heading for this entry?? wahahaha....

Dun mind me.... just my usual PMS.

Haaa.... think whatever happen, you are always back to the starting point. Just like I realised, this is the true me. I found back myself le. I've changed some, but I am fundamentally the same person as I was a few years ago. Tried to get into the main stream, but..... think I've come to terms with myself on my socialising with ppl bah. I am so very glad.... :). Answerable to yourself..... without doing harm to others. I will be a frend like how I would like to be treated as a frend.

Raining Heavily now

I like...... :D

But I pity my counterparts going for calls.... :(

Drive carefully when raining wor....

"The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four Americans is suffering from some form of mental illness. Think of your three best friends. If they are okay, then it's you." - Rita Mae Brown

LOL....

To Say, Not to Say, Say lar

Said liao le..... V^_^

Whatever will be will be..... tt was what I expected too... :)

Frankly, I haven expected an answer cos I also dun know the answer myself.... just tot of Nike's slogan, "Just do it".

Well, at least now all my problems are answered.... shouldn't have much headache liao. I am glad I am back to myself 爱恨分明. Just do it, can think about the pro and cons and problems, but once decided, go ahead liao.... dun waste time. Come whatever the consequences may be.... Just know what you are doing :)

Tt is the true me! Must be able to face my own feelings... only then I m living.... ;)

PS. Just in case you are reading, do have the peace of mind that I am easy and open-minded and mature enough to accept whatever the outcome will be, even if there isn't an outcome, just like you say, let time do the talking..... :)

关于爱情

等待是一种心情，有时候......也是一种美丽
(However, somethings cannot wait too long one..... :p)

我和自己争论了许久，究竟是爱还是被爱幸福?
最好的是彼此相爱，如果没这么幸运，如今的我是会选择爱人....

为什么你总是若即若离，让我一颗心苦苦猜疑
难道是我自作多情，难道是我会错意
还是你不敢面对你对我的情意
而让一段情缘就此随风而去

The one?

也许前世注定这份缘，也许今生来相聚。

Show me some signal please......