Was listening to songs on my mp3 for my last duty. Songs that span of past 3-4 years. Come to think of it... I have been thru quite an emotion rollercoster. Felt very emotional and that I've missed alot of chances. Will the ending for the stories be different if I have been more initative and forthcoming? The events and feelings just felt like yesterday..... so close, so familiar yet so far away.
Feeling empty recently. Suddenly I seems to understand why ppl put all their effort into material gains to try to make themselves happy. Ya, felt like going on a shopping spree, a retail theraphy, wanna buy branded clothes, branded bags, drive car.... just feel like spending money to buy happiness...even if it was just for a short while. Maybe I should really engage and start my Spanish Dancing and find more hobbies and activities to fill up my life.
Maybe I am a failure when it comes to friendship. I seems to have trouble connecting with gers and have those girly bondings. Maybe I am too competitive, maybe I am not lucky to find my buddy yet. Yet I cannot always get company from my guy friends as I believe there is no real platonic friendship b/w the 2 genders. I want to have a relationship but I am with my emotion baggage....
Felt that life is very fragile, we need to enjoy life and dun sweat over small things. This comes from the few recent cases that I've attended. You really do not know when you are living this world. Really should spend more time with mum......
Went to a social event by WOW-Her. It was a gaming session with the board game TABOO. Its main objective is to bring single men and women to mingle and expand their circle of friends -> in turn up their chances od getting hitch. :p There are ard 30 ppl there. We have the nerd, the shy and the old....haha, very bad hor me :p For the gers, we have the plus-size and the shy. Age wise for female seems to be 40 as the oldest. And it seems to me that plus-size girls are the ones who really know how to have fun! Really beautiful people, no have. A few still can make it. Anyway, my aim is to know more ppl. It was quite a enjoyable night. They will circulate the email address for those who are okay with it. Most prob I will be joining more of their activities bah. And ya, 1 of them joined "Lunch Actually" and has to pay abt $700 plus for 14 dates... wah! But its members all high flyer ones lar, money is no prob to them.... Luckily I never join them...
Haiz, dun know how to feel already.... just flow with the heart bah.....
No comments:
Post a Comment