If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music he hears, however measure or far away.
- Henry David Thoreau
I am doing that and still going strong..... :D
Monday, March 20, 2006
From the net -> papers -> net
Growing old is mandatory.
Growing up is optional.
Teach a child to be polite at home and he'll never be able to merge his car onto a highway when he grows up.
The shampoo promised me extra body and I gained 3 kilos
One nice thing abt egotists is that they dun talk abt other people
My weight is perfect for my height - which varies
If swimming is good for your figure, how do you explain whales?
Show me a man woth both feet firmly on the ground, and I show you a man who can't get his pants off
Is it my imagination or do buffalo wings taste like chicken?
LOL
Growing up is optional.
Teach a child to be polite at home and he'll never be able to merge his car onto a highway when he grows up.
The shampoo promised me extra body and I gained 3 kilos
One nice thing abt egotists is that they dun talk abt other people
My weight is perfect for my height - which varies
If swimming is good for your figure, how do you explain whales?
Show me a man woth both feet firmly on the ground, and I show you a man who can't get his pants off
Is it my imagination or do buffalo wings taste like chicken?
LOL
War
I was at firepost last nite. Ch5 was showing Pearl Habour. I was thinking please do not have war. You won't want to know how ugly a war can be.... 1 plane you took down, tt's 1 life lost. I've also seen how greedy and manupilative a leader can be in order to attain his objective. Ugly facts? We've gotta face it.
人间险恶，这道理我明白。However, you can choose how you wanna go about making the best outta it. You can only say you choose your path when you have the assesibility to all the other choices. I have already stated I wanna be true to myself and I will take the risks that comes with it. It okay how you choose to live your life and how you wanna face the outside world, you just need to know what you are doing and dun complain about the outcomes. Hahaha.... yea, I know, I do grumble sometimes. But deep down, I know the facts and am willing to face it. :)
I am sick and I wanna be outta this world......
人间险恶，这道理我明白。However, you can choose how you wanna go about making the best outta it. You can only say you choose your path when you have the assesibility to all the other choices. I have already stated I wanna be true to myself and I will take the risks that comes with it. It okay how you choose to live your life and how you wanna face the outside world, you just need to know what you are doing and dun complain about the outcomes. Hahaha.... yea, I know, I do grumble sometimes. But deep down, I know the facts and am willing to face it. :)
I am sick and I wanna be outta this world......
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Memory
Lecture for today is on Memory. One of the most important function of our brain. Not only your acedemic results depend on it, your conditioning depends on it, your emotions depends on it. Haha... must design a memory retention technique to study my Anatomy & Physiology liao.... *evil grin*
Coming to that, I have yet to do the left & right brain excercise. :p OMG, better start doing something liao..
Have decided on the COA (course of action). I will have the courage to carry out. No matter the consequence...heh. V^_^. Quote 1 of my frend's words, If you wanna see if you have changed, you have to be in that situation. I should be able to pick up and try again.. *Sings Guo Mei Mei's Bu Pa, Bu Pa*
Coming to that, I have yet to do the left & right brain excercise. :p OMG, better start doing something liao..
Have decided on the COA (course of action). I will have the courage to carry out. No matter the consequence...heh. V^_^. Quote 1 of my frend's words, If you wanna see if you have changed, you have to be in that situation. I should be able to pick up and try again.. *Sings Guo Mei Mei's Bu Pa, Bu Pa*
Monday, March 13, 2006
Achieving what I want
Hmm.... actually I know all along what I want, what are my decisions. Just tt I lack the courage to act on it.... :(
Someone once said, the older you get, the more cowardly you are. True. I really do wish to have those heckcare attitude like when I was young. Rush, impulsive, but also simple and sincere. However, that is not the case as you grow older. Responsibilities, social acceptance, consequence management all come into place. Sometimes really feel like just go ahead and be impulsive, but...... still can't get past myself on all those considerations I stated above. Haizzz..
Someone once said, the older you get, the more cowardly you are. True. I really do wish to have those heckcare attitude like when I was young. Rush, impulsive, but also simple and sincere. However, that is not the case as you grow older. Responsibilities, social acceptance, consequence management all come into place. Sometimes really feel like just go ahead and be impulsive, but...... still can't get past myself on all those considerations I stated above. Haizzz..
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Busy & Tired
Hmm..... today is a tiring and busy day. 9 calls! The level 3s are having their ambulance evaluation at my stn for the next 1 week. Come to think of it..... it was just my turn a few months ago! wahahaha....
But sure a lot of calls for my stn today man. Non-stop. And arn't my back and shoulders ache.... tired.
Wanted to write more but think I too exhausted le, plus I haven been sleeping well these few days..... think I will be a good baby and turn in early for tonite. *yawnzz*
But sure a lot of calls for my stn today man. Non-stop. And arn't my back and shoulders ache.... tired.
Wanted to write more but think I too exhausted le, plus I haven been sleeping well these few days..... think I will be a good baby and turn in early for tonite. *yawnzz*
Tuesday, March 7, 2006
Partners and Marriage
By Eduardo Jose E. Calasanz
I have never met a man who didn't want to be loved. But I have seldom met a man who didn't fear marriage. Something about the closure seems constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our lives.
When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and petty in their dealings with each other. I looked at older couples and saw, at be! st, mutual toleration of each other. I imagined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering days and could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate.
And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not just dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles.
It was an astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked myself, can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the others habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?
The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed. It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early stages.
Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side.
This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others deny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other apart from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.
The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other's laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept up into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.
This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much you will enjoy each others company over the long term.
If your laughter together is good and healthy, and not at the expense of others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep the world around you new.
Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your relationship can become based on being critical together.
After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can't accept, you will inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not respect each other.
Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance does not become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and misunderstood.
There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny. If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find yourselves growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where you share the business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied with their mates.
So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in your hearts. I pick my words carefully when I speak of a miracle. But I think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in marriage. It is called transformation. Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. We never question these, because we see them around us every day. To us they are not miracles, though if we did not know them they would be impossible to believe.
Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come. If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be flawed.
We are quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in a marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified of the bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger. It never occurred to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshness and bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first heat of love could be transformed into something positive that was actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All I could believe in was the power of this passion and the fear that when it cooled I would be left with something lesser and bitter.
But there is positive transformation as well. Like negative transformation, it results from a slow accretion of little things. But instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches of love. Two histories intermingle. Two separate beings, two separate presence, two separate consciousness come together and share a view of life that passes before them. They remain separate, but they also become one. There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a constriction, as I had once feared. This is not to say that there is not tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are part of every choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers. Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that the road not taken somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the richness that it alone contains.
But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by the knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared company, but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that deepens that experience into something richer and more complex.
So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation. If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time comes, a thousand flowers will bloom...endlessly.
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Why are we waiting.... why are we waiting..... must wait till when leh?
I have never met a man who didn't want to be loved. But I have seldom met a man who didn't fear marriage. Something about the closure seems constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our lives.
When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and petty in their dealings with each other. I looked at older couples and saw, at be! st, mutual toleration of each other. I imagined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering days and could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate.
And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not just dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles.
It was an astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked myself, can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the others habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?
The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed. It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early stages.
Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side.
This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others deny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other apart from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.
The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other's laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept up into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.
This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much you will enjoy each others company over the long term.
If your laughter together is good and healthy, and not at the expense of others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep the world around you new.
Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your relationship can become based on being critical together.
After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can't accept, you will inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not respect each other.
Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance does not become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and misunderstood.
There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny. If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find yourselves growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where you share the business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied with their mates.
So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in your hearts. I pick my words carefully when I speak of a miracle. But I think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in marriage. It is called transformation. Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. We never question these, because we see them around us every day. To us they are not miracles, though if we did not know them they would be impossible to believe.
Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come. If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be flawed.
We are quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in a marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified of the bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger. It never occurred to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshness and bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first heat of love could be transformed into something positive that was actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All I could believe in was the power of this passion and the fear that when it cooled I would be left with something lesser and bitter.
But there is positive transformation as well. Like negative transformation, it results from a slow accretion of little things. But instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches of love. Two histories intermingle. Two separate beings, two separate presence, two separate consciousness come together and share a view of life that passes before them. They remain separate, but they also become one. There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a constriction, as I had once feared. This is not to say that there is not tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are part of every choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers. Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that the road not taken somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the richness that it alone contains.
But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by the knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared company, but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that deepens that experience into something richer and more complex.
So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation. If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time comes, a thousand flowers will bloom...endlessly.
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Why are we waiting.... why are we waiting..... must wait till when leh?
Saturday, March 4, 2006
Why Man call their spouse Darling
A fellow was invited to the home of some old friends for dinner.
His buddy preceded every request to his wife by endearing terms, calling her Honey, My Love, Darling, Sweetheart, Pumpkin, etc.
The guest was impressed since the couple had been married almost 70 years, and while the wife was off in the kitchen he said to his friend,"I think it's wonderful that after all the years you've been married, you still call your wife those lovely names."
The old guy hung his head. "To tell you the truth, I forgot her name about ten years ago."
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Kns rite??? Hahaha....
His buddy preceded every request to his wife by endearing terms, calling her Honey, My Love, Darling, Sweetheart, Pumpkin, etc.
The guest was impressed since the couple had been married almost 70 years, and while the wife was off in the kitchen he said to his friend,"I think it's wonderful that after all the years you've been married, you still call your wife those lovely names."
The old guy hung his head. "To tell you the truth, I forgot her name about ten years ago."
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Kns rite??? Hahaha....
Friday, March 3, 2006
Accidentally in Love?
Aye, cases for my last nite duty were all nonsensical, stomach pain lar, headache lar etc etc.
Time to go for a haircut? See my mood first bah. Shall reserve it when I am in really bad mood.. :)
海鸟跟鱼相爱，只是一场意外..... possible that 2 very different characters fell in love with each other? Well, I must admit there are successful cases ard...
Hmmm...... why should I write this entry and why should I ask this qn leh??
Pls dun mind me, just one of those nonsensical days.....hahahah...
Time to go for a haircut? See my mood first bah. Shall reserve it when I am in really bad mood.. :)
海鸟跟鱼相爱，只是一场意外..... possible that 2 very different characters fell in love with each other? Well, I must admit there are successful cases ard...
Hmmm...... why should I write this entry and why should I ask this qn leh??
Pls dun mind me, just one of those nonsensical days.....hahahah...
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Bad mood
Was feeling real bad last nite. My medic commented I looked pale while attending to a patient. So I scared him, "Yeah, I will collapse soon, see how you handle 2 patients bah!" Haha.
Felt like drinking, so in the end got a long-time frend to drive me out at nite. It was good, its great to have a shoulder to cry on and someone to hold you when you are feeling down. Just need to be wildful and sa jiao a bit >_<. Got some things sorted out too. Thanks Alex! Really appreciate tt.... :)
Felt like drinking, so in the end got a long-time frend to drive me out at nite. It was good, its great to have a shoulder to cry on and someone to hold you when you are feeling down. Just need to be wildful and sa jiao a bit >_<. Got some things sorted out too. Thanks Alex! Really appreciate tt.... :)
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
What do you do when you get 2 broken hearts?
Got me thinking abt this topic this afternoon. There are a lot of singles ard me. My frends, myself etc. The reason we are single? See my prev post on "Confession of 300 unmarried man". So what if some of us are longing for that part of life? Is it really by choice that we choose to stay single? The main reason I heard from frends is that they have no faith in love/relationship, that, including myself. Some have been hurt before, some find it too troublesome, some haven found The One, some just stopped looking and let love find them.
Frankly speaking, ppl at my age dun view love relationship as simple as "I love you, You love me". We know things are more complicated than that and so...... we usually tread the path of love with extreme caution. Things to take into consideration are families, frends, values, personality, compatability. "can this person take me for what I am?", "can I be myself when I am with him/her?", "Will he/she able to take my nonsense in the long run? If can, how long before he/she will blow up and can't take it anymore?", " Will our feelings for each other change with time?", "Can I accept him/her everything, warts & all?", "Am I prepared to put in effort and sacrifice for this person?", "Change some of myself to make this person happy" . So many uncertainties..... so many fears....
I have this morbid thought, "If you are going to lose it, might as well not have it in the first place". Maybe we have seen too many bad examples ard us. So, how do you put 2 fragile hearts together? Both are so scared of getting hurt, none wanted to break the comfort level they are enjoying now. Its easy for us to say, aiyah, just try lor, dun try you never know.... but how many of us are really brave enough to take that first step? Not many I guess, not even me... Untill then, I think our govt still have much to convince us the benefit and joy of starting a family....
Frankly speaking, ppl at my age dun view love relationship as simple as "I love you, You love me". We know things are more complicated than that and so...... we usually tread the path of love with extreme caution. Things to take into consideration are families, frends, values, personality, compatability. "can this person take me for what I am?", "can I be myself when I am with him/her?", "Will he/she able to take my nonsense in the long run? If can, how long before he/she will blow up and can't take it anymore?", " Will our feelings for each other change with time?", "Can I accept him/her everything, warts & all?", "Am I prepared to put in effort and sacrifice for this person?", "Change some of myself to make this person happy" . So many uncertainties..... so many fears....
I have this morbid thought, "If you are going to lose it, might as well not have it in the first place". Maybe we have seen too many bad examples ard us. So, how do you put 2 fragile hearts together? Both are so scared of getting hurt, none wanted to break the comfort level they are enjoying now. Its easy for us to say, aiyah, just try lor, dun try you never know.... but how many of us are really brave enough to take that first step? Not many I guess, not even me... Untill then, I think our govt still have much to convince us the benefit and joy of starting a family....
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Brain & Behaviour
Well, went for my 2nd lecture today.... talked abt brain and how it affects human behaviour. The frontal lobes of the cerebral cortex are responsible for our emotions, our personality etc and if it suffers some damaged or some changes, that may alter an indiviual's personality and his perception. So.... maybe I shan't be too persistant in retaining my personality. Maybe just like the teachings of 佛学
(extract of The Heart Sutra ) -
色不异空 空不异色色即是空
空即是色受想行识 亦复如是
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.
.
.
.
不生不灭不垢不净
不增不减是故空中无色
无受想行识无眼耳鼻舌身意
无色声香味触法
无眼界 乃至无意识界
无无明 亦无无明尽
乃至无老死 亦无老死尽
无苦集灭道 无智亦无得 以无所得故
Nothing is really there...... However, it really really is difficult to practise it... :(
Enough of the spritual thingy.... back to hard science facts. Hmmm.... I'm gonna develop more interaction b/w my 2 hemispheres of brain. Used to be a very right-brained person, but after loads of practise, think I'm a much more balanced person now (I hope) Maybe that might change the way I do and percieve things. Am I ready for it?? Its the "identity crisis" again........ duhhhh
(extract of The Heart Sutra ) -
色不异空 空不异色色即是空
空即是色受想行识 亦复如是
.
.
.
.
.
不生不灭不垢不净
不增不减是故空中无色
无受想行识无眼耳鼻舌身意
无色声香味触法
无眼界 乃至无意识界
无无明 亦无无明尽
乃至无老死 亦无老死尽
无苦集灭道 无智亦无得 以无所得故
Nothing is really there...... However, it really really is difficult to practise it... :(
Enough of the spritual thingy.... back to hard science facts. Hmmm.... I'm gonna develop more interaction b/w my 2 hemispheres of brain. Used to be a very right-brained person, but after loads of practise, think I'm a much more balanced person now (I hope) Maybe that might change the way I do and percieve things. Am I ready for it?? Its the "identity crisis" again........ duhhhh
Friday, February 17, 2006
Confession of 300 Unmarried Man
Went to watch this local production by Action Theater. Its supposed to show insights or reasons of unmarried man in Singapore. Some reasons are already well-known but what really intrigue me was that they are actually loney ppl, shy and are little boys at heart (so cute) They long to have a companion too....
Confession of 300 unmarried man
-shy
-inferior especially those blue-collared workers (very few women would marrying down)
-dun want to drag ppl down (inferior complexity)
-can only love once
-bad experience from parents
-dun like commitment
-too comfortable to give up bachelor life
-gf's frends dun like me
-afraid of rejection
-waited too long for HDB
There are many more, but all boils down to these few core reasons.
Especially liked a segment where the actors used Conveyor belt sushi as analogy...
Love is like a conveyer belt of sushi, you picked up what attracts you and eat it. If its not your taste, put it back on the belt (yucks, dun think anyone would be tt uncivilized bah). There are so many variety to choose from, plates and plates that come right in front of you. You might not pick the first plate that comes your way cos you wanna wait and see if there is a bigger and fresher plate that will come by later. And if it doesn't, you will think of getting back the first plate. But if the first plate really comes back, you will think that it isn't as fresh as before and the uncertainty if anyone else had touched it!! (Ouch) And there will be this nudging question at the back of the mind, "Is there anything wrong with these sushi that are still on the belt? Why haven they been chosen yet?" and you wonder if other ppl are thinking the same thing as you. Ha... But maybe you haven't realised, you aren't tt fresh anymore too! Wahahaha...Up to you to interpret and digest bah. :p
This part has nothing to do with unmarried man (or maybe it does) Someone commented I dun look local when I was on my way back, he said that not only because of my dressing. I think its the same guy who commented on my bag the previous time. Hmmmm.... and he seems to know a lot of ppl ard the area. Am I looking at him thru colored lens too.... tt he is a weirdo? But sometimes you just have to protect yourself cos you never know what tt person's motive might be. *Shug* So sad..... :(
Confession of 300 unmarried man
-shy
-inferior especially those blue-collared workers (very few women would marrying down)
-dun want to drag ppl down (inferior complexity)
-can only love once
-bad experience from parents
-dun like commitment
-too comfortable to give up bachelor life
-gf's frends dun like me
-afraid of rejection
-waited too long for HDB
There are many more, but all boils down to these few core reasons.
Especially liked a segment where the actors used Conveyor belt sushi as analogy...
Love is like a conveyer belt of sushi, you picked up what attracts you and eat it. If its not your taste, put it back on the belt (yucks, dun think anyone would be tt uncivilized bah). There are so many variety to choose from, plates and plates that come right in front of you. You might not pick the first plate that comes your way cos you wanna wait and see if there is a bigger and fresher plate that will come by later. And if it doesn't, you will think of getting back the first plate. But if the first plate really comes back, you will think that it isn't as fresh as before and the uncertainty if anyone else had touched it!! (Ouch) And there will be this nudging question at the back of the mind, "Is there anything wrong with these sushi that are still on the belt? Why haven they been chosen yet?" and you wonder if other ppl are thinking the same thing as you. Ha... But maybe you haven't realised, you aren't tt fresh anymore too! Wahahaha...Up to you to interpret and digest bah. :p
This part has nothing to do with unmarried man (or maybe it does) Someone commented I dun look local when I was on my way back, he said that not only because of my dressing. I think its the same guy who commented on my bag the previous time. Hmmmm.... and he seems to know a lot of ppl ard the area. Am I looking at him thru colored lens too.... tt he is a weirdo? But sometimes you just have to protect yourself cos you never know what tt person's motive might be. *Shug* So sad..... :(
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Quotes found from net
"Men are very confident people. My husband is so confident that when he watches sports on television, he thinks that, if he concentrates, he can help his team. If the team is in trouble, he coaches the players from our living room, and, if they're really in trouble, I have to get off the phone in case they call him."- Unknown
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.- The Serenity Prayer (Reinhold Niebuhr)
Just trust yourself, then you will know how to live.- Goethe
They say men like cars and women like clothes. I definitely agree. I mean, as long as I stay in my car, what the heck do I need clothes for?- The Covert Comic
I smile! Because I don't know what the hell is going on.- Happy
No one dies a virgin, Life screws us all. - Michael J. Trent
http://www.boardofwisdom.com/
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.- The Serenity Prayer (Reinhold Niebuhr)
Just trust yourself, then you will know how to live.- Goethe
They say men like cars and women like clothes. I definitely agree. I mean, as long as I stay in my car, what the heck do I need clothes for?- The Covert Comic
I smile! Because I don't know what the hell is going on.- Happy
No one dies a virgin, Life screws us all. - Michael J. Trent
http://www.boardofwisdom.com/
So this is Valentine's Day
Well, over midnight liao, but.... who cares?? :p Hmm... spend my V Day with patients today. Got my first DOA case.....
Got to know one of my frend was reverted back to single status today, I meant yesterday.. Hmm... what can I say? V day, makes some people happy, some sad, some nostalgic, some loney etc etc. But to break up on V day?? Hmm... a bit "shuo bu guo qu" wor. This day might make you think silly thoughts too.... hahahha.. myself included. I was trying to rem what were the progs I had with my exs.... :p Time passed, time passed.
Yawning away liao.... think I will write more tml bah... nite. And yes, Happy Belated Valentine! :)
Got to know one of my frend was reverted back to single status today, I meant yesterday.. Hmm... what can I say? V day, makes some people happy, some sad, some nostalgic, some loney etc etc. But to break up on V day?? Hmm... a bit "shuo bu guo qu" wor. This day might make you think silly thoughts too.... hahahha.. myself included. I was trying to rem what were the progs I had with my exs.... :p Time passed, time passed.
Yawning away liao.... think I will write more tml bah... nite. And yes, Happy Belated Valentine! :)
Thursday, February 9, 2006
Morning Breeze
Was walking back from work this morning. Caught a gush of morning breeze. Hmmm..... nice feeling, cool cool de and very refreshing :) I rem I used to open my front door early in the morning to wait for my dad to be home from his night shift when I was small. Loved the fresh, sweet smell hanging in the morning air. 曾几何时空中已不再弥漫着新鲜的 morning air? Its the same with after-rain freshness. Used to love the air after the rain, but now? *shrug*
I like
Morning - morning breeze, sun rise
Evening - sunset, sky
Afternoon - blue blue sky (if have) and clouds
Raining - grey/dark sky & the romantic/诗情画意 ambience
Nite - stars and moon^_^
I like
Morning - morning breeze, sun rise
Evening - sunset, sky
Afternoon - blue blue sky (if have) and clouds
Raining - grey/dark sky & the romantic/诗情画意 ambience
Nite - stars and moon^_^
Monday, February 6, 2006
Organising from the right-side of the brain
Hee.. went to borrow this book that I chanced upon in Popular Bookshop. Wahhahaha... I was chuckling while reading ( I am 1/4 done, but I just had to stop and pen this down ;p). So many things I wanna write but dun know how to organise..haha.K
, some characteristics of a Right-Brainner that I've checked are: Absentminded, Clutterer, Curious, Disorganized, Easily distracted, Emotional, Fun/playful, Impulsive, Inconsistant, Indecisive etc etc. (Guess all of us will check one or the other)
This book suggest ways that a right-brainner can organised his/her space and things in the way they are tuned to. For example, he suggested pile instead of file your papers cos filing our papers are just not what we do. In fact, I have been using this system even before reading the book. I just chuck lose papers in files or folders and shelf them according to the subjects. My room and desk are forever messy. Guess I just can't stand a clutter-free desk *shudder* It becomes sort of like a security blanket for us already. Since we are absent-minded, outta sight means outta mind, we need to see the things to remind us of their existence. My desk.... although I would like it to be clutter free, fact is I clear my desk in the morning, it will revert back to its original state in the afternoon.. -_-"
Being very emotional ppl, we tend to retain all keepsakes we had to remind us of the memories, and that = loads of rubbish. Okie, the book suggested the things to be kept in a box and when the box is full, sieve out what you dun want, and if you really want to keep a little something, keep only 1 thing of that memory/event and do away with the rest. This is what I have been doing also... V^_^
Other tips to share are breaking down the task to smaller ones that we can maximise our attention span on. So for example clearing your wardrobe, you could spend the first half of the day trying all your clothes to make sure they still fits, then clearing your desk, then back to clearing away those clothes that no longer fits etc.
This book not only teaches you to organise, it also brought out some points to ponder on. Just as much I'll like to retain my "individuality", some of the traits of a right-brainner is not going to do me good. Ppl fear change, especially if they have to change themselves. I am. I was unwilling to change cos I fear I would lose my identity that I carried with me since young although it will be for the better. If I change, I will no longer be me! But as I grow older and see more, I began to losen up. I am still dealing with this "identity crisis" after 2 years or so. Guess this is a real hard barrier to break. :) What is heartening is that I've gown and matured and I am not so stubbon as to just do it my way. Life is a journey of self-discovery and I hope I am able to find the true meaning along the way.
PS. If you checked the above traits, you can grab this book for leisure reading, a good food for thought. :)
, some characteristics of a Right-Brainner that I've checked are: Absentminded, Clutterer, Curious, Disorganized, Easily distracted, Emotional, Fun/playful, Impulsive, Inconsistant, Indecisive etc etc. (Guess all of us will check one or the other)
This book suggest ways that a right-brainner can organised his/her space and things in the way they are tuned to. For example, he suggested pile instead of file your papers cos filing our papers are just not what we do. In fact, I have been using this system even before reading the book. I just chuck lose papers in files or folders and shelf them according to the subjects. My room and desk are forever messy. Guess I just can't stand a clutter-free desk *shudder* It becomes sort of like a security blanket for us already. Since we are absent-minded, outta sight means outta mind, we need to see the things to remind us of their existence. My desk.... although I would like it to be clutter free, fact is I clear my desk in the morning, it will revert back to its original state in the afternoon.. -_-"
Being very emotional ppl, we tend to retain all keepsakes we had to remind us of the memories, and that = loads of rubbish. Okie, the book suggested the things to be kept in a box and when the box is full, sieve out what you dun want, and if you really want to keep a little something, keep only 1 thing of that memory/event and do away with the rest. This is what I have been doing also... V^_^
Other tips to share are breaking down the task to smaller ones that we can maximise our attention span on. So for example clearing your wardrobe, you could spend the first half of the day trying all your clothes to make sure they still fits, then clearing your desk, then back to clearing away those clothes that no longer fits etc.
This book not only teaches you to organise, it also brought out some points to ponder on. Just as much I'll like to retain my "individuality", some of the traits of a right-brainner is not going to do me good. Ppl fear change, especially if they have to change themselves. I am. I was unwilling to change cos I fear I would lose my identity that I carried with me since young although it will be for the better. If I change, I will no longer be me! But as I grow older and see more, I began to losen up. I am still dealing with this "identity crisis" after 2 years or so. Guess this is a real hard barrier to break. :) What is heartening is that I've gown and matured and I am not so stubbon as to just do it my way. Life is a journey of self-discovery and I hope I am able to find the true meaning along the way.
PS. If you checked the above traits, you can grab this book for leisure reading, a good food for thought. :)
Wednesday, February 1, 2006
缘分
你相信缘分吗？真能遇到有缘人吗？有缘分就能在一起吗？果真有那种“就是你了！”感觉的人吗？若你是真命天 子，为何当初的感觉会变质呢？ Hmm... I am getting groggy from all my questioning le. -_-"
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
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