Overcoming fear and rejections

Have embarked on a new journey and adventure of Direct salea marketing. Been there before but not successful. I saw the viability this time round and I will make sure I do great!

Finally my dream of being financially free in 10 years time is no longer a dream. Really is a case of 想就有。 Ahhh...the beauty of The Secret and The Law of Attraction. I am still practising it and not giving it up. I know when I master the Secret of Mind, nothing will be in my way.

But first challenge is still overcoming the fear of rejection. I should look forward towards my goal and not be distracted. Your true friends will stick by you no matter what. Yes! I will not look back but only have my eyes at the end of the tunnel.

Go ger, this is another chance to prove what you are make up of!

Life

Who would have thought that I will get inspiration from washing hair?

I was having my hair washed yesterday when it strike me the purpose of life again.
At least in metropolitan cities like ours, what we are concern is consumerism. The purpose you are working, wanting to earn more is all for spending...no?

So you study, you work, you spend and I guess that is what is all abt.
Of cos there are cases whereby you return good to the society and find other fulfillment but essentially, you are still earning money to spend.

Is that all there is in life? Spending time with your love ones.... you also need bread on the table to make sure they are not starving.. you can't live on love alone.

Hiaz... maybe the true meaning of life is to find and challenge yourself. To push yourself to the edge and see what you can accomplish. At least to me, this is what life is about.... of cos with the money too... :p

Another Birthday

Yeah...I'm 34 today! Haven been visiting this blog for a long time.
But I'll be posting more when I get my new camera... watch this space!

Here's a pic of my Bday cake....

 

Another year of small cake...lol

Simple ice cream.....

Happy 34th Birthday to me! :)

After a long long time

Haven been writing much since my last post in Feb. Read through my resolutions... haha , dun think I even did 1of them! :p

Will remember to monitor closely for the rest for the year... 

Some updates.. I'm married in Mar to a wonderful man. A man who truly loves and treasure me. Lucky bitch me.. :)

It's been a while since I last got in touch with my inner self.

该是重出江湖的时候了！

^^

Black Swan

Black Swan

A psychological thriller set in the world of New York City ballet, BLACK SWAN stars Natalie Portman as Nina, a featured dancer who finds herself locked in a web of competitive intrigue with a new rival at the company (Mila Kunis). A Fox Searchlight Pictures release by visionary director Darren Aronofsky (THE WRESTLER), BLACK SWAN takes a thrilling and at times terrifying journey through the psyche of a young ballerina whose starring role as the duplicitous swan queen turns out to be a part for which she becomes frighteningly perfect. BLACK SWAN follows the story of Nina (Portman), a ballerina in a New York City ballet company whose life, like all those in her profession, is completely consumed with dance. She lives with her retired ballerina mother Erica (Barbara Hershey) who zealously supports her daughter,s professional ambition. When artistic director Thomas Leroy (Vincent Cassel) decides to replace prima ballerina Beth MacIntyre (Winona Ryder) for the opening production of their new season, Swan Lake, Nina is his first choice. But Nina has competition: a new dancer, Lily (Kunis), who impresses Leroy as well. Swan Lake requires a dancer who can play both the White Swan with innocence and grace, and the Black Swan, who represents guile and sensuality. Nina fits the White Swan role perfectly but Lily is the personification of the Black Swan. As the two young dancers expand their rivalry into a twisted friendship, Nina begins to get more in touch with her dark side with a recklessness that threatens to destroy her.

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Thumbs up for this show! 

It was a bit draggy in the beginning but it had me tearing at the very end...

I guess those pursuing the perfection in their art forms will relate to Nina. Her quest to immersed herself into the role to achieve and portray the best for the audience as well as herself. Maybe that is why we see most artist as emotionally vulnerable people. They have to be open in order to experience what the role is. That is why we see so many actors or artiest embroiled in emotion turmoil and unable to withdraw themselves out of the character. Maybe it will only take a perfectionist to understand what Nina is going thru...

I totally feel her and applaud the crew and cast for brining us this great work.. 

期待

看到和自己一样bridal saloon 的新人的婚纱照，好期待21号的到来。 好兴奋哦！:p

謊言和真實

很久很久以前
謊言和真實在河邊洗澡
謊言先洗好 穿了真實的衣服走
真實卻不肯穿謊言的衣服  

後來
人們的眼裡只有穿著真實衣服的謊言
卻很難接受赤裸裸的真實.

 Something from 洛客国度

Welcome 2011

Yo friends, 


A blink and its the last day of 2010. I'm so very happy and heartening to see my friends writing and planning for the coming year in their facebook or blog entries.


Before I begin let me just write down some adventures I had just now, the last day of the year.

I'm in the mood to dress up and do some reflection and planning in a cafe or maybe some wine some finger food. But it had to rain when I arrived location and got myself drenched in the process... so much for being chic and class...hahaha. Worse thing was that I got to know the restaurant I wanna go has been taken over and it will only open at 4pm (its 3.30 when t'm there)

Still not too bad, since I'm already half wet, might as well go over to Clarke Quay and see what I can have. Now in a Spanish restaurant eating tapas and having some wine. Not yet in the mood to do what I am supposed to do. Maybe I will later once I change my seat to along the river.... haha. k...back to my food first.... :p

Cont'd

Now at TCC with a cuppa. Hopefully can start what I wanted to do initially...haha.

A bit tipsy, but the feeling is wonderful...

Above taken from the notes of my FB. :p


Kk, my time to review now. Lets review what I've written at the beginning of the year.


2010 New Year Resolution

1. Sign up for my Spanish dance class.. (3 years liao leh, haven even fulfilled all these years :( )
Done! Successfully signed up and going strong. :)

2. Go for volunteering events to contribute back to the society
Erm... failed :( In fact I did not do anything ..... shall make it a point in 2011.

3. To start my Forex acct and start trading to make some real money V^^
Failed. Kept giving excuses. Shall not procrastinate in 2011

4. To look out for good opportunities for property investment
Pass! Bought silver and did some other investment. Got an oversea investment too! Things gonna be better in 2011.


5. To accumulate wealth
Good market, loses came back for most. Will keep it going in 2011

6. To drink more water and eat healthier
Reduced weight, yes. Drink more water...no :( Will continue the strive next year!

7. To be grateful for all that I have and to live my life as I wanted it
Yes! Finally getting married soon. And I'm grateful for all I have :)

8. Go HK/Japan/Korea/Spain/Rome etc etc
Went Bkk... counted? Hahaha. Will be going Jap and HK next year! Yeah!!


Not too much of my resolution fulfilled have I? :(
But I think I got the most impt thing in my life this year. I got myself a husband who truly loves me and is so sweet... :)


I'm now coming 34 and I'm almost half of my productive years. 
I will make sure I stick to this year's resolutions strictly.
Bring it on!

2011 Resolutions

Career

1. Revise and read up more to improve my knowledge and skills

2. To be more gentle and truly feel for the patients in distress.

Wealth

1. To start planning for biz ventures after wedding and house.

2. To continue to accumulate and have abundance through my investments.

3. To look for creative ways to increase my revenue

4. To start on forex

Hobbies

1. To do 1 hobby eg. read a book, make a decoupage, laze and dream once a month.

2. To continue to improve my Flamenco skills

3. To go for a musical or dance performance 

Health

1. To drink more water and to maintain a slim silhouette 

Family

1. To be more sensitive to mum's wishes and needs

2. To maintain a harmonious family life with Darling 

3. To spend time with people I love and important to me

Self-improvement

1. Finished reading all self-improvement books on hand.

2. Practice and put to use all these skills from 7 habits and The Secret.

3. To continue to feel bless and grateful for all wonderful things that happened to me

More good years ahead of me!
Wishing all a very fruitful and wonderful new year!
Welcome 2011! 
YEAH!

Christmas 2010

Yo all, its Christmas again for year 2010. Its gonna be a brand new year soon!
一年的回顾，明年的计划。。是时候了。
愿朋友们圣诞节快乐～ Merry Christmas 2010!!

回忆

每每听到某些往日的歌曲，思绪也不由自主的回到过去。是件好事吗？我不能回答。我太怀旧了。每当我听到哪一首往日的歌，我就会想到曾经那段感情。

我觉得我不该有太多的回忆，它会让我留恋从前......那段回不去的光阴。

My first Silver Eagle

Got my first 3 tubes of silver eagles. Hmm what Peter said is true, when you start, you tend to keep collecting more and more... hahaha.

Looking forward to more silver collection :)

Trauma Paramedic Conversion Course

Just came back from the conversion course. So that means after this course we will be deployed alongside with the rescuers to the ruins to stabilize trapped victims.


New tab to show the difference...but I hate the color....

Birthday 2010

Went to JB for a short getaway this year on my birthday. Blur Darling missed the opportunity to proposed to me AGAIN... *roll eyes*

Only managed to get these 3 small cakes plus a candle.... :(

Happy 33rd Birthday!

Inception (2010)

 

Dom Cobb is a skilled thief, the absolute best in the dangerous art of extraction, stealing valuable secrets from deep within the subconscious during the dream state, when the mind is at its most vulnerable. Cobb's rare ability has made him a coveted player in this treacherous new world of corporate espionage, but it has also made him an international fugitive and cost him everything he has ever loved. Now Cobb is being offered a chance at redemption. One last job could give him his life back but only if he can accomplish the impossible-inception. Instead of the perfect heist, Cobb and his team of specialists have to pull off the reverse: their task is not to steal an idea but to plant one. If they succeed, it could be the perfect crime. But no amount of careful planning or expertise can prepare the team for the dangerous enemy that seems to predict their every move. An enemy that only Cobb could have seen coming.

Cool show. Dreams within dreams. 2 messages for me....

1. A thought is like a seed planted into your brain. It will grow and feed like virus... 

Cobb: [from trailer] What's the most resilient parasite? An Idea. A single idea from the human mind can build cities. An idea can transform the world and rewrite all the rules.

Remember The Secret

2. Humans tend to stay in the planes that coincide most with their dreams and wishes. That is why we have so many disillusioned patients  in mental hospitals that dun wanna come out of their trace and back to the reality. I find the part whereby the people sleep to be "awake" into their reality most disturbing. But who are we to judge? Anyone can stay at the place they are happiest in..... we have the choice and only we can make that choice.


I like intriguing stories...bring it on!

Politics and such

Haiz, it is so demoralizing and sad whenever I head anything abt the MIW in recent years. How strong those grievances we true blue Singaporeans are throwing up. I used to support the MIW also when I was younger. I am proud to be a Singaporean and that my government is corruption free and far-sighted enough to bring us to a higher plane.

However, as reality sinks in (or maybe I am older and wiser), I started to see things differently. There is no denial that MIW had brought us to great heights in such a short time but you start to see differences in behaviors as our leaders changes.

Like I always maintained, humans are greedy by nature. You give them a penny, they will want a pound. Our leaders have totally forgotten their mission and responsibilities and is concerned only about how to make their pockets fatter. Yes, we are being run like a corporation. "Better, faster, cheaper" so can our million dollars ministers walk the talk? Can they make themselves better, faster and cheaper? No.. it is different for them, they deserved their million dollar salaries. I guess we all have to face the hard facts that we are just cows working for their benefit.

I am so sad and disappointed in life....  
Fuck the hell.... why do we even exist?

武林秘籍

 

 

 

Interesting find.... notebooks. :)

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惜福

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深夜，寺里一人一佛，佛坐人站。

人：圣明的佛，我是一个已婚之人，我现在狂热地爱上了另

一个 女人，我真的不知道该怎幺办。

佛：你能确写你现在爱上的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最后一 个女人吗？

人：是的。

佛：你离婚，然后娶她。

人：可是我现在的爱人温柔，善良，贤惠，我这样做是否有一点 残忍，有一点不道德。

佛：在婚姻中没有爱才是残忍和不道德的，你现在爱上了别人已 不爱她了，你这样做是正确的。

人：可是我爱人很爱我，真的很爱我。

佛：那她就是幸福的。

人：我要与她离婚后另娶她人，她应该是很痛苦的又怎幺会是幸 福的呢？

佛：在婚姻里她还拥有她对你的爱，而你在婚姻中已失去对她 的爱， 因为你爱上了别人，正谓拥有的就是幸福的，失去的才是痛苦 的，所以痛苦的人是你。

人：可是我要和她离婚后另娶她人，应该是她失去了我，她应该 才是痛苦的。

佛：你错了，你只是她婚姻中真爱的一个具体，当你这个具体 不存在的时候，她的真爱会延续到另一个具体，因为她在婚 姻中的真爱从没有失去过。所以她才是幸福的而你才是痛苦的。

人：她说过今生只爱我一个，她不会爱上别人的。

佛：这样的话你也说过吗？

人：我。我。。我。。。

佛：你现在看你面前香炉里的三根蜡烛，那根最亮。

人：我真的不知道，好象都是一样的亮。

佛：这三根蜡烛就好比是三个女人，其中一根就是你现在所爱 的那个女人，芸芸众生，女人何止千百万万，你连这三根蜡 烛那根最亮都不知道，都不能把你现在爱的人找出来，你为 什么又能确定你现在爱的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最后一个 女人呢？

人：我。我。。我。。。

佛：你现在拿一根蜡烛放在你的眼前，用心看看那根最亮

人：当然是眼前的这根最亮。

佛：你现在把它放回原处，再看看那根最亮

人：我真的还是看不出那根最亮。

佛：其实你刚拿的那根蜡烛就是好比是你现在爱的那个最后的 女人，所谓爱由心生，当你感觉你爱她时，你用心去看就觉 的它最亮，当你把它放回原处，你却找不到最亮的一点感觉， 你这种所谓的最后的唯一的爱只是镜花水月，到头来终究是一场 空。

人：哦，我懂了，你并不是要我与我的爱人离婚，你是在点化 我，

佛：看破不说破，你去吧

人：我现在真的知道我爱的是谁了，她就是我现在的爱人。

佛：阿弥陀佛，阿弥陀佛

你我曾经深爱过的某人，无非也就是芸芸众生中的一个，只是 爱由心生，自以为他/她会是今生最爱，当你感觉你爱她， 你用心去爱就觉的他/她最珍贵，当万物归原，生命仍然继续， 他/她无非也就是我们生命中的一个过客。

我们根本无法确定哪一个才是今生最爱，如果不懂得去珍惜， 你身边这个爱你的/你爱的人，在某一天，也会成为你身边的过 客。

找一个你爱的人不容易，找一个爱你的人也不容易。如果无法 确定哪一个才是你最爱的人，何不在自己成为别人的爱人的 时候珍惜这份感情？爱由心生，你告诉自己是爱他/她的，自然 就可以爱上他/她。

如果你爱的人不爱你，也请记得：爱由心生。是你太过于把目 光集中在他/她身上了，试着放开视线焦点，你会发现光亮的蜡 烛到处都有。

爱与不爱，无非也就是在一念之间。

过去的事情过去的爱情，就让它过去吧，那只是我们生命的一 部分，只是茫茫大海中的一滴水珠，只是漫漫苍弩中的一粒微 尘。没有那些过去，也不会造就现在的你我。

珍惜当前，永远胜于三心二意

Ready, Get Set, Go!

Yoz, have been felling quite restless these few days. Seems like nothing is moving. Days are just pasting by. :(

I am already 33 this year, time to get my butt up and do something in my life! Life is short, must live each day fully ^^

Fast fast realise all my dreams... I still have 10 years to reach financial freedom.
Add oil my ger, gotta bite the bullet and hang on... we are taking the fast train.

Ready, Get Set, Go!

Revamped

Changed  the skin for my blog. Haven been doing this since I last used...diaryland. :p
Anyway the point is I have been shifting house for my blog from diaryland -> ebloggy -> blogspot.
And from my archives, seems like the post is becoming lesser and lesser as time goes by.
Hmm... I started blog writing in 2003 bah. Wah, 7 years already!!

Nothing for the post...just random rantings only..haha

Friends

Hmm... quite an unfamiliar term for me. Perhaps due to my character and experience, I have only very few friends that I can trust. I tried recalling when was the time when I innocently trusted and exposed my vulnerability to my so called friend and got hurt terribly. Was it during kindergarden or Primary school? I dun think I ever recovered from those experiences.

As of now, I have only a handful of friends whom I really call friends. Dun know, maybe I'm just not comfortable with some people and we can never be real friends. Acquaintance maybe, but never real friends. Should I be bothered? Nah, just random rantings and being emo. I shall stick to my present stand and shouldn't be too bothered.