Rainny nite

Its a good nite. Its currently raining heavily outside and I love it. Have always loved rainny days or nights (especially heavy rain) for that matter. Loved the wind, the breeze, the sound of rain pattering ard me..... :) Not fogetting the redden sky at nite and the greyish sky by day. Have you ever noticed how beautiful the sky is when it is totally grey in color?? I like that feeling and sight....够诗情画意 :p

Maybe not so much if I was caught in it lar....hahahaha...

A very good time to smuggle up my bed and read a book... mmmmmm....

And I am feeling lazy to prep my uniform and boots for tml's drill... -_-"

Hang on little tomato

A very nice song by Pink Martini..... an inspirating song when you are feeling down.... :)

Hang on Little Tomato

The sun has left and forgotten me
Its dark, I cannot see
Why does this rain pour downI m gonna drown
In a sea
Of deep confusion

Somebody told me, I dont know who
Whenever you are sad and blue
And you are feeling all alone and left behind
Just take a look inside and you will find

You gotta hold on, hold on through the night
Hang on, things will be all right
Even when its dark
And not a bit of sparkling
Sing-song sunshine from above
Spreading rays of sunny love

Just hang on, hang on to the vine
Stay on, soon you will be divine
If you start to cry, look up to the sky
Somethings coming up ahead
To turn your tears to dew instead

And so I hold on to his advice
When change is hard and not so nice
You listen to your heart the whole night through
Your sunny someday will come one day soon to you

http://hd3.15150.com/banzou/2005_11_21/16924_13225952.mp3

I dun like to be misunderstood

Went back to stn to say farewell to Rota 1 & 4. Knew Enick Ivan is on duty today (coincide with Rota 1 & 4) so went there especially to see him. He was asking why din see me ard for so long and when I left, he sms me that he is gonna miss me.... so sweet of him... :) Guess he is quite fond of me, I am fond of him too. He was like a uncle figure to me and I respect him.

Waited for Sam and my mentor too. Too bad Syukri (medic) was on leave, can't eat my chocolates... :p Talked a bit with my mentor. Think he gonna miss me too...heee. Asked me to walk with him for the last time to the bus-stop "Since I posted here, nobody walked with me except you.." Although he is not a very popular person, he is good to me. I still keep the consoling SMS he sent me when I told him I failed my practical *Gam Dong*. Maybe as Syukri said before, we are both very funni and strange ppl that is why we can be mentor and mentee....hahahaha.

Maybe..... like I said, not a lot of ppl can accept me, only a few can really understand me and accept me for what I am. I never harm anyone, I never gossip or stab ppl behind their back. Maybe I did without me knowing, but it was never intentional. That has been always the way this world work doesn't it? I hate being misunderstood. My communication problem? The way I put my thots across? I never meant anything bad in my comments or questions. Hahaha... it takes Charlie a good 2 - 3 years before he can accept my lingo or what I am trying to say, but when things get hot, he will forget too. Perhaps I should not speak so much and just keep quiet (which was what I did when I wanted acceptance from my platoon mates) even extending to those whom are considered as frends but dun understand me. Maybe that is the reason why I never have a lot of frends. My problem.... maybe I was too sensitive towards how ppl view me? That is a very good consolation. Ha. Maybe all the while I have been a self-centered bitch who never really put in her efforts to nuture frendships. But you dun just find any Tom, Dick or Harry rite? At least there must be chemistry.... but sometimes you think there is, the other party think otherwise. *shrug*

Looking for acceptance..... looking for acceptance, ger, its time you let it go and embrace your true self. If not, it is just gonna be a viscious cycle that you cannot run away from. Have the courage to face it alone.... if you have to.

PS. Went to temple to pray today and got a good lot for my yin yuan. Stated sunshine after the rain, things will get better as I got to see more clearly after the hazy period. Real zhun wor....give up liao.... heee

Graduation Speech

Okie, to prevent any misunderstanding, the following was an extract from our best trainee, Joan's webbie.

"Sometime this morning i was given instructions to write a speech for the best
trainee.

For keepsakes:

Good afternoon... blah and blah...this day would
not have been possible without the combined and dedicated efforts of our
instructors and course commander.

To our mentors, who nurtured us through these trying times.

You have been a brother, a sister, a leader, a teacher and a friend. Classroom lessons are never enough by themselves.

You are the ones who took our skills from our classrooms to the streets. Every ambulance call was a learning experience, with each call we steadily gained confidence and professionalism, arming ourselves with indispensable skills that would serve us well in the future.

To our instructors,

you took us from MOPs to AEDs, from oral airways to LMAs. We know many a times we have made your blood boil, with our incessant questioning and exasperating mistakes. But your patience finally prevailed. We are here today, grateful to you, unselfishly sharing with us your invaluable experience and knowledge. You taught us what it is to be a leader, a buddy and a friend to those in need.

During our stressful times through this one and a half years, we have been through many regrets and achievements and you have been there, pillars of strength to see us through.

To our loved ones,

for their unwavering support. All these would not have been possible without
you.

We stand here before you today, eager and ready to face the trails and
tribulations that stand in our way. This Christmas, as church goers and carol
singers fill the streets of Singapore, there will be a new bunch of us, zipping
through the streets, sirens blasting and lights ablaze, so that those that need
us can live to see another Christmas.

Through our hard work and determination, we have earned oursevles a name that we are proud of. A name that is synonymous with life saving - Paramedics."

I cried when she was delivering it....especially the last 2 para....*sob sob*

Yeah, it was a long way for us......

Pass final hurdle liao!!

YEAH!!!! Finally after 18 mths of training...... I am a paramedic liao!! *beaming* Passed my retest.... :p

The training part of the career has ended, but the real challange has just begun. Now I am all on my own liao.... challanging, challanging... >:(

But really glad I passed by training..... finally can sleep soundly after 2 mths of metal stress. Gotta rest properly. 休息是要走更长的路...... a new pharse of my career.

The terrible truth

Hmm.... complaint to a frend yesterday abt some things but it ended up being I was the culprit! He told me instances and a few situations that he find funni and irritated by me. So it seems like I shan't be complaining and should reflect upon myself instead.

I also know I have been acting weirdly recently..... and I know the reason why. What I dun realise is that how annoying I was. That explain some of the reactions ppl have towards me recently. *shrug* Well, sometimes humans are so 泛贱, need to do and learn it the hard way.... I do that. You know your faults but it takes a lot of discipline to change that. You won't do it unless something happens lor...

A good nite to reflect on it. I hope it is not too late to savage the situation. I am learning to improve myself...... V^_^

Back to SMM

Aha! Last day of attachment to Alexandra Hospital le. Hmm.. learnt quite a lot especially during the tour of A&E department. Did IM (intermuscular) injection.... V^_^. We were also attached to the wards to learn more about the aftercare and the presentations of the patients for various conditions.

Not forgetting the cute male nurse.... hur hur hur... :p

Anyway, we will be going back to SMM for the last few days of our course. Finally finished my case study report for handing up and presenting after 2 nites of "drive nite car" -_-"...

Let's see what we will be doing, we still have the AED (shocking of patient) protocol to learn and to be tested. My medical retest will be on Friday, and presentation of our case study. Then next Monday will be our finals and if we pass, graduation will be on Tuesday!!!!

That's all for now folks... gotta catch some beauty sleep now....

Paramedic

Today was the second day for my EV. Ridzwan took the first call for his evaluation and there I was sitting in the station kaypoing in front of the cubicon system (a system that records all our ambulance calls). Scrolling, scrolling thru and saw a lot of cases, mostly fall and injured, complaint of very sick etc. My station ambulance got a collapsed case... haizzz.. life of a paramedic...

Saw the incident text for a mass casualties case (the tampines playground on fire case) and the one of the Red Rhino and taxi..... its a sad case.. tsk tsk..

Come to think of it, life as a paramedic is really a challenging job. Timely and correct treatment, decisive in decision making, command & control of the situation, patient management,all these with a 3-man crew. Not forgetting to throw in PR skills (we are dealing with public here) in providing good customer service. If not, will tio complaint letter, which is the better of the other evil of direct write-in to newspaper... -_-"

It re-enforced in me the pressure of being a EAS on the road. Always expect the unexpected while on the road, do not believe in what the call text state.. the caller might say its a case of fainted, but its a collapse case when you reached the scene. Also, you must master the art of "keeping" your "treasure" if you are in toilet halfway when the alarm sound for an ambulance call.... haha. Many a times your packet of lunch will take you 2-3 hours before you can finished the food, that is if you are unlucky and got proceed to another call.

Frankly, we do understand the fustration and anxiety of the public when sometime happens, but there are situations which are beyond our control, eg. traffic congestion or no nearest ambulance is available. Much as we wanted to get to the patient as fast as we can, somtimes, situations dun allow us. Please do not think we take our own sweet time to attend to our patients, we know more than anybody how crucial time is to our patient. Which is why public education is VERY VERY important on using of the EAS. By abusing the EAS, people are depriving of real emergency cases that genuinely require more of the service...... and not forgetting to give way to ambulance that has the siren and becon lights blasting away. We dun turn them on for laughter, peace and joy.....

After all these bubblish... I am still looking forward to being a crew leader of an ambulance. The REAL challenge has just begun.....

Final EV almost over!!

K... got to go for a few calls before being assessed for my EV. 2 unconcious calls for hypoglycemia (low blood sugar level) first thing in the morning. 1st case was a stable case, patient regained conscious after given some sugar water by passerby. 2nd one was a standby case, hypocount was 1.2 mmol and we couldn't get the vein to set in the glucose!! Cos the patient was obese and we couldn't see the veins.... -_-"

Anyway, no calls for the rest of the afternoon, was thinking that I might not be able to do my EV today afterall. Then came the call at 1915hrs. Case of RTA (road traffic accident), pedestrain hit by a lorry, did my spinal and such... but dun think I did very well for this call. I din managed to get the IV (drip) in.... :(

Just as we were abt to return to the station, we were called to proceed to another case of chest discomfort. And the most incredible thing is..... that was the same COPD patient that Joan had for her EV last Friday!!! Can you beat that?? 2 buddies got the same patient for their EVs... hahahaha.. then for this case, okay lar..... not too impressive but also not too bad, so so lor...

Hmm.... a bit tired liao... now left the medical retest and final theory and practical.
Jia you, Jia you!!! >:(

九种爱情的感觉

当你爱上对方时，应该会有这九种情感，才能算是一个真实的爱情，最起码，你应该扪心自问，将来是否有可 能培养出这样的情感来，才能确保你拥有一个真的爱情。

一、生理上的性冲动： 　　
当我们对一位异性产生兴趣或爱上某个异性时，希望彼此有身体上的接触。在真实的爱情生活里，这种欲望是 永远存在的。性冲动并不单单只是行为，它还包含了许多其它亲密的身体上接触，譬如牵手、拥抱等等，这种情感 会永远都存在爱人的心里。

二、美丽的感觉： 　　
在有爱情的时候，我们会觉得对方最好看，即使有别的异性比你所爱的对象好看，但对你而言，他（她）才是 最好看的，而且是别人无法相比的。

三、亲爱的感觉： 　　
当你真正爱上一个人，你会有一种很亲切的感觉，他让你觉的很舒服，你可以信任他、依靠他。他像是一个亲 密的家人，甚至可以说，比一个家人更亲密，这是亲密加上一种温馨的感觉，就是亲爱的感觉。在这爱情国度里， 他不会挑剔你的瑕疵，因为他愿意包容你所有的缺点。

四、羡慕及尊敬的感觉： 　　
一个健康的爱情关系，应当有以对方为荣的感觉，我们会去欣赏对方内在和外在的条件和优点。而且对方也处 处以我们为荣。如果我们能有这种感觉，不论他是成功或失败，都会使我们欣赏他的才华。

五、赞许的爱情： 　　
当相爱的时候，我们喜欢夸奖对方，而且不仅是欣赏而已，还喜欢对他人夸奖对方，从夸奖对方的热诚之中， 我们可以因此感到无比的快乐。

六、受到尊重的自尊： 　　
一个健康的爱情关系，可以提高一个人的自尊心。让对感觉到活得更有价值，因为爱情使你觉得你有无人可比 的独特性，虽然你有优点也有缺点，但是你的独特性使你受到无比的尊重，生命因此而有了价值。

七、占有欲： 　　
爱情是绝对独占的，不能与人分享亲密的男女关系。所以需要以结婚来持续一份爱情，在结婚时彼此相约相许 。因此在真实爱情里，互相许诺忠诚是必要的。

八、行动自由： 　　
如果个人有正当的理由，他行动的自由一定要受到尊重，才不会破坏两人之间的爱情关系。

九、深重的同情心： 　　
我们对深爱的人常会有怜惜的感情，经常会为对方考虑，如果对方受到挫折，我们会非常愿意与他分担痛苦和 挫折，把对方的苦当作自己的苦难一样，或者更胜于自己的苦难，因为我们愿意为对方而牺牲自己的 利益

Quotes About Life

A bit X-rated.... but funni. Hahaha....

01) Confucius said, "Squirrel who run up woman's leg surely won't find nuts.
02) When I was born, I got a choice - a big dick or a good memory. I can't remember which one I chose...
03) Your birth certificate is an apology letter from the condom factory.
04) My wife is a sex object. Everytime I ask for sex, she objects.
05) Impotence: Nature's way of saying "No hard feelings".
06) There are only two four letter words that are offensive to men - don't and stop ... unless they are used together.
07) Panties are not the best thing on earth; they're next to the best thing on earth.
08) There are three stages to sex in a person's life: Tri Weekly, Try Weekly, and Try Weakly.
09) Virginity can be cured.
10) Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner,you'd better have a good hand.
11) I tried phone sex once, but the holes in the dialer were too small.
12) Do infants enjoy infancy as much as adults enjoy adultery?
13) Marriage is the only war where you get to sleep with the enemy.
14) Of course you've heard about the Viagra computer virus, it turns your 31/2 inch floppy into a hard disk.
15) Despite the old saying, "Don't take your troubles to bed", many menstill sleep with their wives !!!
16) Q: What's an Australian kiss?
A: The same thing as a French kiss, only down under.
17) A couple just married were happy with the whole thing. He was happy with the Hole and She was happy with the Thing......
18) Q: What are the three biggest tragedies in a man's life?
A: Life sucks, job sucks and the wife doesn't.
19) Q: What's the difference between a bitch and a whore?
A: A whore sleeps with everyone at the party and a bitch sleeps witheveryone except you.

男人要有肉

鼻头要有肉，鼻头有肉的男人既有欲也有财，衣食无忧；
嘴唇要有肉，厚嘴唇的男人为人厚道，薄嘴唇的男人通常都很薄幸；
下巴要有肉，下巴有肉，除了可以让你捏他下巴之外，他的晚年也会过得不错，可以照顾你； 耳朵要有肉，耳大肥厚，是长寿的征相，他长寿，就可以和你厮守终身，最幸福的就是可以比你爱的人先死，他那 么长寿你的愿望不难达成；
脸颊要有肉，双颊凹陷的男人不是太可怕吗？　　
肩膀要有肉，可以让你舒舒服服的把下巴搁上去；　　
背部要有肉，可以随时背你；　　
胸前要有肉，可以挨得住女人几拳；　　
手掌要有肉，手掌肥厚的男人会很富有，不用女人养他；
双腿要有肉，两条枯树枝一样的腿太没有安全感；　　
最重要的是屁股要有肉，屁股大而有肉的男人最顾家，小屁股的男人多半靠不住；　　
他那颗心，当然也要是肉造的，只有这样，他的心才容易被你打动；
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结论：找头猪准没错！

LOL.....