青春游走

Was watching this prog yesterday. Wow! Its showing the youngsters and how they achieved their dreams... how I envy them.

There was this girl who likes music very much, she can play the erhu, guitar, piano, violin... wah... and she's got character. Sweet-looking, long hair, looks feminine. Dream ger eh?

Then they were showcasing this other ger who is so full of character. She do arts. Did an exhibition of her works in her own room. The whole exhibition includes visual, audio, abstact... she is really brave to go onto the artistic journey...

青春就是本钱....

Coming to 30 liao, still exploring myself. Should have a character by now. Guess I do have the basic principles, but hope to be more open-minded and forgiving. Wiser will be nice and being more mature and alluring bah.... but I will always be my jovial self..... ;)

To Say, Not to Say

To say, not to say? To say, not to say? To say, not to say? To say, not to say? To say, not to say? To say, not to say?

From 城市灵魂

Hmmm.... wanted to share what one of my poetic frend wrote..

虚报佳音的激遇，掏空感情的积蓄，有如流星的痕迹
如此短暂而美丽，留下的痛何时醒，那个世纪才忘记
想要忘记得失意，杏花村酒也难替
让我忘记你的名字，你的脸孔，你的谜
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跨别两年的回忆，盖满尘埃抽屉里
以为心疼已免疫，仍然锁眉想哭泣
天空突然一阵雨，难道上天也放弃
街边积水照身影，映出隐藏的孤寂
不想守着这秘密，用心诉说谁又明 ?

(compliments of 城市灵魂)

*Psss...changed some of your words hor... :p

Finally finished my Assignment liao!!

Wah... long time no update le. Have been very busy with my assignment. So many things to update but no time. Now dun have the "mood" liao. Nevermind, will try to write when the inspiration comes back. :p

Think I have to improve my language skills le. Haizzz, my grammar is just terrible! Got back my first assignment, 40 outta 50. Eh... a bit disappointed :( Hope I can score better this time round.

Trying to install a chinese input software since I've changed my laptop. But NJstar is not helping me!! *sob sob* I wanna get my software up fast so that I can start writing in chinese again. I am a chinese helicopter....heeh v^_^

Kay lar, gotta go back to installing my software le. Update again bah.

Baby and Assignment

Baby Jovan has been keeping us very busy, especially my mum. Have to look after both mother and baby. Luckily I was trained to look after babies since young as I am the oldest and my mum had been a babysitter for a long time. My skills for handling babies, changing diapers, feeding milk are still there, its just a bit rusty. Heh :p

Last nite tutorial was on intelligence. Just nice was talking about babies' brain development. Hmm.... nuture really plays an important part in a child's development. The importance of patience, love and stimulants cannot be emphasise enough. Told my sis and bro-in-law must really love their kid and give him a healthy environment for growing up. Children once born is your life-long responsibility le...

Haizzz, haven finished my assignment *sob sob*. Cannot be distracted anymore, must really focus and finish it!! I must!! >:(

Her husband is still a virgin

Newly-wed girl told mom her husband is still a virgin.
Mom: How do you know?
Girl: Last night when we made love, his cock was still in plastic cover.

Bangladesh Worker : Sir, me no come to work, me sick.
Boss : When I am sick, I have sex with my wife - try it.
2 hours later, Bangladesh Worker : Boss! It worked! Me ok now. You got nice house.

After sex, Thai girl kept fondling man's cock.
Man : Why? Want to have sex again?
Thai Girl : No lah, just admiring your cock. I used to have one before.

Women's lives are hard.
Morning - wash clothes.
Noon - hang clothes.
Evening - keep clothes.
Night - iron clothes.
Midnight - take off clothes.
After midnight - find clothes.

To make it straight, she pulls it.
To make it stand, she rubs it.
To make it stiff, she licks it.
To let it in, she pushes it. True?
Threading a needle is not easy.

A Sad story.
A woman's husband died & she had him cremated. She then blew his ashes into the ocean and said : Sweetheart, this is my last blowjob for you.

Girl : Mom, what is a penis?
Mom : When you become a good girl, you will get one.
Girl : But mom, wha t if I am not a good girl?
Mom : Then you will get many!

A lawyer who was confused in his mathematics asked his secretary: If I give you $3 million less 17.5%, how much would you take off?
Secretary : Everything sir! Dress, Bra and Panties.

Schoolgirl : I do not want to take the sex Education class.
Teacher : Why?
School girl : Someone told me that the final exam will be Oral.

Two sperms talking on mobile.
Ist : I'm somewhere between the fallopian tube and uterus. Are you close by?
2nd : No boy, I am taking a different route. I am just crossing the tonsils.

Scientists have discovered that the lightest thing in the world is a PENIS.
This is because it can be lifted up even by a simple thought.

Muahahahah....

Accepting

If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music he hears, however measure or far away.

- Henry David Thoreau

I am doing that and still going strong..... :D

From the net -> papers -> net

Growing old is mandatory.
Growing up is optional.

Teach a child to be polite at home and he'll never be able to merge his car onto a highway when he grows up.

The shampoo promised me extra body and I gained 3 kilos

One nice thing abt egotists is that they dun talk abt other people

My weight is perfect for my height - which varies

If swimming is good for your figure, how do you explain whales?

Show me a man woth both feet firmly on the ground, and I show you a man who can't get his pants off

Is it my imagination or do buffalo wings taste like chicken?

LOL

War

I was at firepost last nite. Ch5 was showing Pearl Habour. I was thinking please do not have war. You won't want to know how ugly a war can be.... 1 plane you took down, tt's 1 life lost. I've also seen how greedy and manupilative a leader can be in order to attain his objective. Ugly facts? We've gotta face it.

人间险恶，这道理我明白。However, you can choose how you wanna go about making the best outta it. You can only say you choose your path when you have the assesibility to all the other choices. I have already stated I wanna be true to myself and I will take the risks that comes with it. It okay how you choose to live your life and how you wanna face the outside world, you just need to know what you are doing and dun complain about the outcomes. Hahaha.... yea, I know, I do grumble sometimes. But deep down, I know the facts and am willing to face it. :)

I am sick and I wanna be outta this world......

Memory

Lecture for today is on Memory. One of the most important function of our brain. Not only your acedemic results depend on it, your conditioning depends on it, your emotions depends on it. Haha... must design a memory retention technique to study my Anatomy & Physiology liao.... *evil grin*

Coming to that, I have yet to do the left & right brain excercise. :p OMG, better start doing something liao..

Have decided on the COA (course of action). I will have the courage to carry out. No matter the consequence...heh. V^_^. Quote 1 of my frend's words, If you wanna see if you have changed, you have to be in that situation. I should be able to pick up and try again.. *Sings Guo Mei Mei's Bu Pa, Bu Pa*

Achieving what I want

Hmm.... actually I know all along what I want, what are my decisions. Just tt I lack the courage to act on it.... :(

Someone once said, the older you get, the more cowardly you are. True. I really do wish to have those heckcare attitude like when I was young. Rush, impulsive, but also simple and sincere. However, that is not the case as you grow older. Responsibilities, social acceptance, consequence management all come into place. Sometimes really feel like just go ahead and be impulsive, but...... still can't get past myself on all those considerations I stated above. Haizzz..

Busy & Tired

Hmm..... today is a tiring and busy day. 9 calls! The level 3s are having their ambulance evaluation at my stn for the next 1 week. Come to think of it..... it was just my turn a few months ago! wahahaha....

But sure a lot of calls for my stn today man. Non-stop. And arn't my back and shoulders ache.... tired.

Wanted to write more but think I too exhausted le, plus I haven been sleeping well these few days..... think I will be a good baby and turn in early for tonite. *yawnzz*

Partners and Marriage

By Eduardo Jose E. Calasanz

I have never met a man who didn't want to be loved. But I have seldom met a man who didn't fear marriage. Something about the closure seems constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our lives.

When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and petty in their dealings with each other. I looked at older couples and saw, at be! st, mutual toleration of each other. I imagined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering days and could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate.

And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not just dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles.

It was an astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked myself, can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the others habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?

The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed. It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early stages.

Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side.

This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others deny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other apart from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.

The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other's laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept up into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.

This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much you will enjoy each others company over the long term.

If your laughter together is good and healthy, and not at the expense of others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep the world around you new.

Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your relationship can become based on being critical together.

After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can't accept, you will inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not respect each other.

Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance does not become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and misunderstood.

There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny. If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find yourselves growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where you share the business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied with their mates.

So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in your hearts. I pick my words carefully when I speak of a miracle. But I think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in marriage. It is called transformation. Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. We never question these, because we see them around us every day. To us they are not miracles, though if we did not know them they would be impossible to believe.

Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come. If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be flawed.

We are quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in a marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified of the bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger. It never occurred to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshness and bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first heat of love could be transformed into something positive that was actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All I could believe in was the power of this passion and the fear that when it cooled I would be left with something lesser and bitter.

But there is positive transformation as well. Like negative transformation, it results from a slow accretion of little things. But instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches of love. Two histories intermingle. Two separate beings, two separate presence, two separate consciousness come together and share a view of life that passes before them. They remain separate, but they also become one. There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a constriction, as I had once feared. This is not to say that there is not tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are part of every choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers. Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that the road not taken somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the richness that it alone contains.

But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by the knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared company, but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that deepens that experience into something richer and more complex.

So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation. If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time comes, a thousand flowers will bloom...endlessly.
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Why are we waiting.... why are we waiting..... must wait till when leh?

Why Man call their spouse Darling

A fellow was invited to the home of some old friends for dinner.

His buddy preceded every request to his wife by endearing terms, calling her Honey, My Love, Darling, Sweetheart, Pumpkin, etc.

The guest was impressed since the couple had been married almost 70 years, and while the wife was off in the kitchen he said to his friend,"I think it's wonderful that after all the years you've been married, you still call your wife those lovely names."

The old guy hung his head. "To tell you the truth, I forgot her name about ten years ago."
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Kns rite??? Hahaha....

Accidentally in Love?

Aye, cases for my last nite duty were all nonsensical, stomach pain lar, headache lar etc etc.

Time to go for a haircut? See my mood first bah. Shall reserve it when I am in really bad mood.. :)

海鸟跟鱼相爱，只是一场意外..... possible that 2 very different characters fell in love with each other? Well, I must admit there are successful cases ard...

Hmmm...... why should I write this entry and why should I ask this qn leh??

Pls dun mind me, just one of those nonsensical days.....hahahah...