Expectations

Went for the complimantry Personal Training session with a PT at CFC. Did the body content check, eh, I need to get rid of the excess fats ard my tummy.. heh. The rest of my body is just to build up muscle mass. Wah, my ideal weight is supposed to be 53.4kg leh. Of cos, mostly of muscle. So gotta push myself forward for better stamina, toner body and my ideal PR of < 70! Then gotta strengthen my knee muscle also cos of my injury. *Sob sob* how come I can increase 3kg without me knowing leh? Duh.....

While training and in steam bath, me got thinking again. Men used to (or still secretly hoping) that women will be sweet, loving, understanding, know when to be demure and when to be independent. When to come and offer co. or went to leave them alone. To share the burden of supporting the family, to take care of them like their mother (minus the nagging), take good care of the kids (plus the parents) and last but not least, able to satisfy them in the bedroom. Thank God that men finally came to realise their wives are not wonderwoman or freaks with numerous tentacles...-_-" and so they lowered their expectations (anyone not doing will be labled as MCP...hahaha) and even help ard the house. However, it seems like women nowadays are the ones having higher expectations. We expect our men to help with the housework and kids. Bring back the dough and to still have energy to show us T.L.C. Of cos not forgetting always getting them into the fix of guessing what is the real thing or action we want from them. Expecting them to read our minds.... Is that too much to ask for?

I guess each couple will have to find their comfortable and balancing point in order for the partnership to work. Communication is very very important. Do tell your partner what is that you need, what is that you feel and how he/she can make you feel better. If your partner loves you, they will definately make concessions and address your concerns. Marriage and relationship has to be build o mutual trust and respect and not taking each other for granted. Easily said, but how many of use fall into the trap ourselves? I dun know, by giving and not expecting anything in return... is this true love or unhealthy love? *shrug* I guess depends if you are with the old school of thoughts or the "instant glorification" generation bah.... think abt it. Where do you fall in? *wink*

HORROR!!! Its mid year already! Damn.... time really flies man....

Moodles 涂画库

干杯

红色的魅…
香醇珍贵…
保存那年那日，过往的美。
滴滴流逝，品尝时光的韵味。
时间雕琢青涩的心扉，
渐渐酝酿成熟的思维。
就慢慢把人生体会，看透醉人的酒杯。





哈啰!长夜

良药不需要太苦，梦境或许会变模糊。
微笑就在不远处，向我挥手打招呼。
没哈欠、挺郁闷、待入眠。
又见月光划破长空的一幕，悠悠等待清晨的脚步。
没故事、挺怀念、盼催眠。
睡美人得到了幸福，夜猫子陆续归途。
我还徘徊在那灯火阑珊处



禁止搁浅

悲伤不应该聚集。
美丽和谁在一起？
冷却的心躺卧在温热的沙粒。
大浪冲掉心潮的泪迹, 小浪泡出温柔的图形。
日落时快回去。
回到最初的自己。




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Communication

Haiz, got into another "discussion" with Y. Well, something about toking without thinking and sensitivity issue. Story went someone overheard some comments we made about another person/group of people (not good ones, of cos) and guess Y heard abt it from this someone too. Well, I admit we were insensitive abt the situation and the person then. Haiz, but tt's what happen, and I can't blame anyone if the story was added with seasoning and most likely will reach the person ears. I too am guilty of these kinda things lar, like you tot someone said something or do something whose real intention might not even be what you percieve it as and relay the news or the injustice you've just came to know about. Human nature lar huh....

I always have prob communicating with others. Maybe its the way I put across, maybe I just dun care if they misunderstand me. I mean I always believe "说者无心，听者有意" some people are just more sensitive than others and might think more into the words than its intented menaing so I can't stop ppl from thinking what they are thinking. Unless they are people I'm very close to, then I will make sure my real intention gets across. Sometimes my choice of words is also the culprit. 用词不当。Sometimes I just wanna irritate the hell out of people... hahaha. A bit pervert lor..:p I speak my mind abt what I think, even if its harsh. Most of the time I just speak my mind. So tiring to edit, filtrate before putting it across....*rolleyes* so I dun expect ppl to know what I mean everytime. But of cos I will be responsible for the things I've said and if the person confront me, I will apologise if I was wrong. I did reflect on my reactions if the same actions were done on me and I came to this conclusion. I will be angry, i will be upset, I will whine and complain, but unless it is something I really care about (in this case, I will confront the person), I'll just brush it off.

Frankly lar, I dun mind ppl say if my promotion was not due to my capability but because I am "due". It is a fact what. I din perform superbly well as compared to some others. I know, those working with me knows, my bosses know, cannot run one mah how I handle and go about my work. Whether I deserve it or not. People can say all they want lar, I can't be bothered, and I dun care. "Those who matters dun mind and those who mind dun matters". If ppl decided to have certain perceptions about me based on the few things they know or hear or percieve, nothing much I can do. You never really know a person unless you increase interactions with the person. Those who knows me will know what kinda person I am and they can form their own opinions about me. Humans like to think they know everything mah.....Whoever say the world is fair?

My stand is pretty clear, ppl can say anything about you but it is up to you how you take it. If I choose to be angry and upset or bothered by it, then it is up to me how I deal with my emotions. And I half expect others to be the same. If you cannot take it, it is your biz (exceptions for love ones untill they piss me off :p). Individualistic way of thinking I know. However, no man's an island. I've learnt to bend my rules and factor in elements of social interactions. Can't expect everybody to behave like me ya? And humans being humans.... well, I dun want to go to tt again. So.....I've learnt to be more sensitive to other people which is better for me too...I dun wanna become the public enemy also lar. I've also learnt to hold my tougue...sometimes too much. Too lazy to comment since everyone is entitled to their unique characteristics. Of cos me being a human, there are also instances when I just let go without much tots. Anyway, my stand is... I will try to be more sensitive with regards to what I say but the bottom line is, it is still up to them how they wanna handle it. It all depends on how you wanna face your life....Understand what I've written? Lolzz....

Raining very heavily...I love it. Time to sleep...hmmmm... Zzzzzz

Life's a struggle

Check this out....

Life's a struggle

A rap by this guy 宋岳庭. This song was inspired by his own life story. Have always like the lyrics. 刻画了人对人心寒，与人性坏的一面. So true......

Whatever...Anything...You decide

Whatever

Men: What to have for dinner?
Women: Whatever..
Men: Why not we have steamboat?
Women: Don't want, eat steamboat later got pimples on my face
Men: Alright, why not we have Si Chuan cuisine
Women: Yesterday ate Si Chuan, today eat again?
Men: Hmm..... I suggest we have seafood
Women: Seafood not good also, later I might got diarrhea
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women : Whatever..


Anything

Men: So what should we do now?
Women: Anything
Men: How about watching movie? Long time we didn't watch movie
Women: Watching movie not good, waste time only
Men: How about we play bowling, do some exercises?
Women: Exercise in such hot day? Don芒鈧劉t u feel tired?
Men: Then we find a caf脙漏 and have drink
Women: Drink coffee will affect my sleep
Men: So, what you suggest then?
Women: Anything!!!


You decide

Men: Then we just go home lo
Women: You decide
Men: Let's take a bus, I will accompany you
Women: Bus is dirty and crowded. Don't want la
Men: Ok we will take Taxi
Women: Not worth it la... for such a short distance
Men: Alright, then we walk lo. Take a slow walk
Women: So hungry, empty stomach how to walk?
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: You decide
Men: Let's have dinner first
Women: Whatever...
Men: Eat what?
Women: Anything

(Look around....if no one is there, just kill her...)


Wahahahaa

Challenges

Eh, recieved a call from school to notified that I will need to repeat the failed module. WTF! I mean I only never finished my exam mah, all my TMAs I scored leh. Somemore already sent in my MC for the exam panel. Sent an email to them regarding this. If there is no compromise, then I shall stop my degree le. I mean why waste another semester and money to repeat? You dun need a degree to suceed. So, I am okay. If can appeal for just an exam resit, I will continue, if not, then tt's it lor. At least I have more savings to spend....heeee

Okie, this isn't so bad. I'm worrying abt another issue. There is this mole at my chest area that seems to be growing darker and bigger in size. Then I see another one coming up too. Hmm... what are they leh? Are they any indication of an ailment... namely cancer? Read from some reports that changing in color or size of a mole may be an indication that something is changing in your body. Well, think I better go see a doc first before jumping to any conclusion. Heh, even if it really is cancer, I dun think I am afraid of death bah. Somemore I already got myself covered for the critical illness. Just have to make sure I have enough to cover for my living days. Of cos I will continue working if I can lar... Maybe tt is the good thing abt being single, at least there is not much worries that you need to leave behind. Heee.... shall see how bah.

Went to Kuan Yin temple today. Got 2 lots, a good one for my health and a medium one for my love life. Something like I will have to fight for my rights? *scratch* Anyway...

Did I mention my weight is now 51kg!!! OMG, went to measure at the gym the other day and today. Tot the scales malfunction the first day..-_-". Damn! Increase by 4 kg leh.... what did I do? Nvm, I shall work it back... though need lot of self discipline lar...haiz. But for the sake of my figure...I must endure!! Haaa.. the things women do for beauty..:p

Wanted to change my blogskin... shall do it my next off day.

MRT pledge

Something from an email....


you've heard of the Singapore pledge. The following is the MRT pledge:

We, the passengers of MRT,
poised ourselves as one kan cheong people,
regardless of old folks, kids or pregnant women,
to rush for unoccupied seats,
based on pushing and shoving,
so as to achieve rest. slumber and sleep for our comfort.

Hahahha

Possessive

Yeah, I know I am actually a possessive ger and I am right. Although I gave alot of freedom to my bfs (including time out with their female frends), I will still be jealous if they spend time with their friends more than me! I will also get jealous if they talk a lot about a new female friend that they just met. I am only human.I already know I can't share, I should have known.....

无题

往日欢笑绕耳边，昔日温柔印唇间
暗自叹息夜未眠，懊悔再也回不了....... 从前

与我遨游

解读沉默

我的沉默，
成为理所当然。
不想解释，
不要多说。

沉默是封闭也好，
是隔离也罢。
不希望你会了解。
我没对你说...
心有灵犀，
确实用不上。

解读沉默，
只会让你更难过。
阻塞的思绪，
静静在时间里躺着。

沉默者...
还是沉默。

戒爱

手中的烟烧尽，我该如何是好。
早已习惯，对你的依靠。
杯中的酒变淡，我全身发烧。
这毒瘾，把我逼进了墙角。

如烟似酒，无可救药的煎熬。
腐蚀了灵魂，已无路可逃。

如梦似幻，世界已经变老 。
沉沦已久，只剩寂寞缠绕。

戒爱，不再烦躁。
从此以后，离开思念的牢。

戒爱，时间可以慢慢治疗。
找回自己，人生的目标。

“... 或许我太个人化，爱自由，爱情变成一种牵绊。 或许我太情绪化，放纵情感，因此别惹我也罢。 或许我太理想化，眼里容不下一粒沙。 或许两性的偏差，我不了了解它。”

与我遨游

Men II

For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free. Here's an update for you: Today, 80% of women are against marriage, WHY? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage.

Men are like....

1. Men are like ...Laxatives ...... They irritate the crap out of you
2. Men are like. Bananas ....... The older they get, the less firm they are.
3. Men are like ...... Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.
4. Men are like ....... Blenders You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
5. Men are like ..... Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.
6. Men are like .... Commercials ....... You can't believe a word they say.
7. Men are like Department Stores ..... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
8. Men are like ......Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.
9. Men are like .... .Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
10. Men are like .Popcorn ..... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
11. Men are like Snowstorms .... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
12. Men are like ........Lava Lamps .... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
13. Men are like Parking Spots .......... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

Hehehehe...

Music back & what nots....

Yeah, did some changes to the HTML script for the blog. Now you guys can turn off the music if you find it a bother liao..;)

Hmm... some updates bah. There are mix comments about my new hairdo. Those older men (32 yrs and above) like my new hair.. those younger men think my hairdo is ancient! :( Well, all I can say is I have a very cheena and ancient look lar.. Think put me in chongsam, with some fan or feather.. I can easily past off as some period character...-_-" Think I will go for an SOS trim at Kr+ 2 weeks later bah. In the mean time, I will try to look as pretty as I can in this hairstyle heee.. :p

Discussed with KY and HS that there seems to be alot of Lims and Tans in S'pore and also surnames starting with "L". I mean look, the guys I am/was interested in 95% have surnames with "L". And outta this 95%, 90% are Lims.... not forgetting 99.5% of those who asked me for flings (sorry, still can't get over tt I'm always asked for flings :(...) are Lims. Surnames of my ex(s): L,C,L,C... so what comes next? So sortta pattern here? Haiz.......

They gonna increase the charges for merchants using NETS. Wtf? Dun care, if the burdun is gonna transfer to us, I'm gonna revert to paying cash. Bleah! Think the whole system going senile liao.... including my organisation..

Have been thinking a lot about everything.... BOTHER!!

The Guardian

Hmm...boring me. Watching DVDs on Sat nite by myself at home... no life hor? :( Anyway, managed to finish 2 pieces of disc. Finally got to watch "The Guardian". Hmm...... ya, we need more of these "Hallmark" movies to motivate us in our work. I almost forgot why I signed up in the first place. Ppl usually won't appreciate you untill they need you. Even if they need you, you might not be appreciated at all too *shrug*. But what I can say is tt no matter how the ppl denied and show their nonchalant, deep down they feel a sense of security in our presence when they are in need. I guess tt is what is most important, isn't it?

How do wives cope with their husbands whose jobs are always threading between life and death? I think I can understand from both sides of the story. As men with inspirations, the sense of responsibility to be out there doing their job, what their best at doing is a calling. To fully engaged in your job and responsibilities, to save ppl, to fight for the country, is very fulfilling and statisfying you know? And to a man (or a women as in my case :p) tt is very important. What about the wives then? As a woman, if I ever have a husband or family, I would never let the man I love dies. What will I do without him? without him by my side, growing old with me.... Of cos I will be selfish and hope to keep him by my side. I've asked myself before.. if my husband is going on a dangerous mission (or job, if he is in any of the forces) will I let him go? Isn't it important that you help your SO realise their wish? Isn't being supportive is what love is about? Will I let go?

Hmm.... when I was with Charlie and in the Navy, I did think abt this prob before. If the button was ever pressed.... will we leave our kids behind and fight all the way? Will we be supportive of each other to do the best, even if it means laying down our lives? Haaa.... k, at least I dun have to worry abt tt now.. :p You know what? Maybe ppl like us doing rescue work or police or soldier should stay single, and disregard life and death. Maybe these jobs are suitable for ppl who are tired of living just like me. Haha. K yeah, time to shape up and kick ass. God, I missed those hell days! I am really crazy and bo liao to be thinking of going thru it again.... haha.