Well, 5 calls last nite. Had a feeling that I am the only one working last nite...-_-" Proceed twice once the ambulance reached station.
Last case for the duty is a standby again. Patient was hit on the head by a pallet from a height. Patient's BP quite high (no history of hypertension), drowsy c/o nausea and giddy. Called for standby recalling the call I had with the ICP patient. Can't risk it again. Did you notice sometimes when you just put down your matra for a standby case and the patient miraclerously turned for the better?? That happens to me... from GCS of 10, it became 14 right after I called for standby.... duh?? Well, I guess most is kana scolding from hospital, but at least I make sure my patient is taken care of. :p
Had a lonely Christmas this year..... I am still stuck in my search for a purpose. Well, hope I will get greater insight next year bah..*wink*
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Monday, December 26, 2005
Merry Christmas!
Yoyo, just finished a TV prog. Its Christams! Too bad I am at home watching tv. Woud have prefer to go out and join the crowd... :)
Still sick and coughing...
Finished my 1st official solo block duty. Someone left a note in Joan's blog that you won't forget your first call and can you believe it? I can't recall what was mine!!!*rolleyes* Well, what I can rem is I got my first standby case on my 2nd duty..... -_-"
Case of a heart patient just underwent ballooning ops and feeling drowsy. She was actually hypoglycemic. Called for standby and infused Dextrose for her, condition improve slightly after the 1st 100ml. Phew! I shot, 1 kill for my IV *yeah* It has been a long time since I last done a IV on a patient... :) Missed out some details but nothing serious, just have to learn to be more zai for my future calls bah.....how's that for my Christmas present?? ;p
Listening to Christmas songs on my laptop now....
Wishing all a Merry and Peaceful Christmas!! Cheers....... *wink*
Still sick and coughing...
Finished my 1st official solo block duty. Someone left a note in Joan's blog that you won't forget your first call and can you believe it? I can't recall what was mine!!!*rolleyes* Well, what I can rem is I got my first standby case on my 2nd duty..... -_-"
Case of a heart patient just underwent ballooning ops and feeling drowsy. She was actually hypoglycemic. Called for standby and infused Dextrose for her, condition improve slightly after the 1st 100ml. Phew! I shot, 1 kill for my IV *yeah* It has been a long time since I last done a IV on a patient... :) Missed out some details but nothing serious, just have to learn to be more zai for my future calls bah.....how's that for my Christmas present?? ;p
Listening to Christmas songs on my laptop now....
Wishing all a Merry and Peaceful Christmas!! Cheers....... *wink*
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Kenneth's Wedding
Well, just came back from Kenneth's wedding and met up with a lot of batch boys. Haa... missed their rubbish and crap. Had a good laugh over the dinner tonite. :)
Strange to say lor (actually not tt strange considering that I have always been around guys) I still feel more comfortable with guys *shrug* I dun care if they crap in front of me or talk abt obsene topics or treat me as 1 of their brothers... I can take all. Hahahaa.... maybe I really have more male genes than I dare to admit. As for ger's company, I dun mind Yenli and some of them cos I guess I know their style and their capabilities.
Hearing the guys talk abt their work in Navy really makes me miss the SAF. Sorta regret my decision. Why leh? Cos I think SAF is more suitable for me bah. The lifestyle and the job scope, of cos I would have prefered combat than service. Not to say I dun like my present job, but..... there is a difference between fighting for the country and saving the civilians lor......
Somemore, think over Navy more possibilities of finding a mate bah....hahahaha....
Anyway, almost all of them commented that I've grown very thin hmmmm.... think I gotta beef up myself le..
okie, working solo starting tomorrow le.. gotta sleep now. Nite!!
Strange to say lor (actually not tt strange considering that I have always been around guys) I still feel more comfortable with guys *shrug* I dun care if they crap in front of me or talk abt obsene topics or treat me as 1 of their brothers... I can take all. Hahahaa.... maybe I really have more male genes than I dare to admit. As for ger's company, I dun mind Yenli and some of them cos I guess I know their style and their capabilities.
Hearing the guys talk abt their work in Navy really makes me miss the SAF. Sorta regret my decision. Why leh? Cos I think SAF is more suitable for me bah. The lifestyle and the job scope, of cos I would have prefered combat than service. Not to say I dun like my present job, but..... there is a difference between fighting for the country and saving the civilians lor......
Somemore, think over Navy more possibilities of finding a mate bah....hahahaha....
Anyway, almost all of them commented that I've grown very thin hmmmm.... think I gotta beef up myself le..
okie, working solo starting tomorrow le.. gotta sleep now. Nite!!
Friday, December 23, 2005
Half-Blooded Prince
Finally finished reading the lastest book of Harry Potter. So far a lot of ppl have died. Sirius Black and Dumbledore's dead too. Haizz.... would you want to lead a normal and peaceful life or a dangerous and purposeful one if you were in that kinda 兵荒马乱的时期? Fight or flight? Be a commoner or a hero? What would you do? Guess I won't take it lying down and just wait for things to happen bah. Would I be determine enough to overcome all adversities and braved on? I will like to think so.
My head is above the clouds again...... come down, come down, come down... :p
I like Harry Potter!!!
My head is above the clouds again...... come down, come down, come down... :p
I like Harry Potter!!!
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Alive but sick
Yoyo, haven been updating much have I? Hmm.... I am sick ever since I posted that I was sick and tt was how many days liao?? Think getting worse... now coughing like a TB patient... :(
Feel lazy to go out recently. Think must be my cough. But managed to finish "Harry Potter & the Order of Phoenix" in 1 day... V^_^ Really cannot put the book down once you started. Nice nice, was engaged in the fantasy world of wizards and witches whole of yesterday from 1pm - 2am. :p
Such a nice break from the real world.... Gotta work on the next book liao :D
Feel lazy to go out recently. Think must be my cough. But managed to finish "Harry Potter & the Order of Phoenix" in 1 day... V^_^ Really cannot put the book down once you started. Nice nice, was engaged in the fantasy world of wizards and witches whole of yesterday from 1pm - 2am. :p
Such a nice break from the real world.... Gotta work on the next book liao :D
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
On the job!
Yo, today 2nd day running as a PM. Very tiring.... 8 calls today and the last one was a nonsense patient. Sent him in anyway. Yesterday ran solo. Luckily nothing major I can't handle crops up... phew!
Okay lar, feel comfortable running on my own. But....... there is still lots and lots of room for improvment. Hope to get better as days goes by. :)
As for my new station, everything is still okay. Ppl there are okay and friendly enough. But guess we still need some time to adjust to each other bah...
Okay lar, feel comfortable running on my own. But....... there is still lots and lots of room for improvment. Hope to get better as days goes by. :)
As for my new station, everything is still okay. Ppl there are okay and friendly enough. But guess we still need some time to adjust to each other bah...
Wednesday, December 7, 2005
情绪大扫除
Spent the last half and hour deleting some private entries. Well, you do have to clear your emtions sometimes.... periodically actually. Your heart is only so big, you need to clear the unnecessary to breathe and pump better.. :p
情绪大扫除 is a must. You may think you have gotten over already but 有时候，心深处还是会有一些残留，需要多一点时间和毅力去把它清除。
情绪大扫除 is a must. You may think you have gotten over already but 有时候，心深处还是会有一些残留，需要多一点时间和毅力去把它清除。
Tuesday, December 6, 2005
Monday, December 5, 2005
幾米的讀白
男孩也好女孩也好，一起看看幾米的讀白吧......
1. 很清楚的知道她不合適自己，可是更確定的是他不會主動說分手。他只是耗著等著，直到有一天女生自己受不了忽冷忽熱、若即若離的態度，或是等到年華老去不得不下決定時，自己選擇離開。妳的主動離開，我沒有負心，反而是尊重與成全妳的決定。
2. 半年後發現，他居然可以跟一個只認識三個月的女生步入禮堂，令她晴天霹靂，才明白他不是不想結婚，不是真的不婚主義者，說穿了只是他不想跟妳結婚。八年的愛情長跑比不上三個月的感情。
3. 這位故事中的男生是我的朋友，現在也已經結婚半年。當他聽到劉若英的「後來」，居然會無法克制的流眼淚，想起的是他交往八年的前任女友。為什麼會難過，因為妻子身上有著前任女友的影子，他才明白其實他喜歡的就是這種類型的女孩。
4. 可是人往往很矛盾，喜歡她的倔強與有性格，卻受不了她的嬌縱。喜歡她的落落大方，卻受不了她的朋友一堆；你愛她的小家碧玉，就不要怪她不夠大方；你愛她的活潑大方，就不要批評她像花蝴蝶一樣。戀愛談的愈長，結婚的可能性就愈低，所以有時候戀愛的長度與結婚的可能性成反比。
5. 喜新厭舊是人性，日子久了，會結婚不是為了愛情，而是責任感的驅使。婚後的他才慢慢的發現，當時的那一段感情其實不是不愛，是時間太久了太長了，把愛情給磨掉了，再遇到另一個女孩點燃了愛情的火苗，星星之火足以遼源，把枯竭已久的愛情給予生命，所以倉促的決定結婚。等到真的結婚後，愛情降了溫，才慢慢的發現其實妻子的身上有著許多前任女友的影子，他比較愛的人其實還是前任女友，可是他娶的卻不是她。這樣的情節不知道是不是也在別處同樣上演著？
6. 學生時代的愛情很單純，出社會以後總想等工作穩定以後再結婚，工作穩定以後又想等有一點積蓄買車子、買房子以後再結婚，等著等著，等到愛情被時光給消磨，等到第三者介入點燃了對方心中激情的火苗，乾柴烈火不可收拾以後，曾經在年少一起織夢的理想全都抵擋不了新鮮感的激情，所以琵琶別抱，到最後步入禮堂的都不是在一起同甘共苦、共同經歷過寒、暑假，等當兵的人。
7. 所以奉勸各位女孩子，如果對方真的是你想結婚的對象，不要想著有房子有車子有金子，有了一切再結婚。現實是，等他有了一切，他的身價暴漲是有價值的單身貴族，他必需要面臨的是更多的誘惑，妳長久以來的等待與年輕時許下的山盟海誓都難以抵擋誘惑排山倒海的來。
就像我現在若不嫁他，非得等到他有車子有房子還有存款時再結婚，那時新娘有極高的可能不是我。因為要等到什麼都有還要幾年？有能力的男人就像酒愈久愈香醇，女人則像麵包一樣有賞味期限，青春是女人的天敵。如果我是他，等到我三十五歲，什麼都有是個有上千萬身價的黃金單身漢，我並不需要一個很有能力而年過三十的女人來幫襯我，我寧可選個如花似玉，年輕貌美的女生，也許沒有什麼工作能力，至少發揮了賞心悅目的功能，一個真正有能力的男人，不會在乎一個女人是否能在他的財富上加乘。
遇上對的人，莫等待莫蹉跎，也許沒有房子沒有車子，只要他認真上進，他就是張有潛力的積優股，早點進場獲利更高。
8. 也提醒各位男士，如果對方真的是你想好好疼愛的女人，別讓她等太久，有她一起陪你奮鬥應該是很美好的一件事除非你心中有其他的想法，否則別讓愛情等太久，把真愛都磨掉了！雖然聽起來很殘忍,但身邊的家人朋友都有類似的例子。真愛，就不要等，除非是不想結婚......
So true.... that was what me and a frend discussed before, cos he was also a victim of long-term patohing. Its really no use waiting too long to get married...
1. 很清楚的知道她不合適自己，可是更確定的是他不會主動說分手。他只是耗著等著，直到有一天女生自己受不了忽冷忽熱、若即若離的態度，或是等到年華老去不得不下決定時，自己選擇離開。妳的主動離開，我沒有負心，反而是尊重與成全妳的決定。
2. 半年後發現，他居然可以跟一個只認識三個月的女生步入禮堂，令她晴天霹靂，才明白他不是不想結婚，不是真的不婚主義者，說穿了只是他不想跟妳結婚。八年的愛情長跑比不上三個月的感情。
3. 這位故事中的男生是我的朋友，現在也已經結婚半年。當他聽到劉若英的「後來」，居然會無法克制的流眼淚，想起的是他交往八年的前任女友。為什麼會難過，因為妻子身上有著前任女友的影子，他才明白其實他喜歡的就是這種類型的女孩。
4. 可是人往往很矛盾，喜歡她的倔強與有性格，卻受不了她的嬌縱。喜歡她的落落大方，卻受不了她的朋友一堆；你愛她的小家碧玉，就不要怪她不夠大方；你愛她的活潑大方，就不要批評她像花蝴蝶一樣。戀愛談的愈長，結婚的可能性就愈低，所以有時候戀愛的長度與結婚的可能性成反比。
5. 喜新厭舊是人性，日子久了，會結婚不是為了愛情，而是責任感的驅使。婚後的他才慢慢的發現，當時的那一段感情其實不是不愛，是時間太久了太長了，把愛情給磨掉了，再遇到另一個女孩點燃了愛情的火苗，星星之火足以遼源，把枯竭已久的愛情給予生命，所以倉促的決定結婚。等到真的結婚後，愛情降了溫，才慢慢的發現其實妻子的身上有著許多前任女友的影子，他比較愛的人其實還是前任女友，可是他娶的卻不是她。這樣的情節不知道是不是也在別處同樣上演著？
6. 學生時代的愛情很單純，出社會以後總想等工作穩定以後再結婚，工作穩定以後又想等有一點積蓄買車子、買房子以後再結婚，等著等著，等到愛情被時光給消磨，等到第三者介入點燃了對方心中激情的火苗，乾柴烈火不可收拾以後，曾經在年少一起織夢的理想全都抵擋不了新鮮感的激情，所以琵琶別抱，到最後步入禮堂的都不是在一起同甘共苦、共同經歷過寒、暑假，等當兵的人。
7. 所以奉勸各位女孩子，如果對方真的是你想結婚的對象，不要想著有房子有車子有金子，有了一切再結婚。現實是，等他有了一切，他的身價暴漲是有價值的單身貴族，他必需要面臨的是更多的誘惑，妳長久以來的等待與年輕時許下的山盟海誓都難以抵擋誘惑排山倒海的來。
就像我現在若不嫁他，非得等到他有車子有房子還有存款時再結婚，那時新娘有極高的可能不是我。因為要等到什麼都有還要幾年？有能力的男人就像酒愈久愈香醇，女人則像麵包一樣有賞味期限，青春是女人的天敵。如果我是他，等到我三十五歲，什麼都有是個有上千萬身價的黃金單身漢，我並不需要一個很有能力而年過三十的女人來幫襯我，我寧可選個如花似玉，年輕貌美的女生，也許沒有什麼工作能力，至少發揮了賞心悅目的功能，一個真正有能力的男人，不會在乎一個女人是否能在他的財富上加乘。
遇上對的人，莫等待莫蹉跎，也許沒有房子沒有車子，只要他認真上進，他就是張有潛力的積優股，早點進場獲利更高。
8. 也提醒各位男士，如果對方真的是你想好好疼愛的女人，別讓她等太久，有她一起陪你奮鬥應該是很美好的一件事除非你心中有其他的想法，否則別讓愛情等太久，把真愛都磨掉了！雖然聽起來很殘忍,但身邊的家人朋友都有類似的例子。真愛，就不要等，除非是不想結婚......
So true.... that was what me and a frend discussed before, cos he was also a victim of long-term patohing. Its really no use waiting too long to get married...
White Ribbon Campaign
Mum just passed me a brochure from the letterbox . White Ribbon Campaign (WRC). Heard of this before? Its the largest international effort of men working to end mens' violence against women. The WRC in Singapore is organised by the Male Chapter of the AWARE. Focus this year is on family violence including the impact and effect on children who are the silent witness of domestic violence.
Had to say something abt domestic violence. Very sad to say even today, domestic violence is still an issue in Sinagpore. Not only the men hitting the wives, but also wives hitting the husband (how come nothing is being done for husband abuse?? *scratch head*). Not forgetting children if not the indirect victims of domestic violence, are the victims themselves. Know why? Cos most of the parents only know how to discipline kids using violence. Maybe not so for the kids nowadays as young parents are adequately educated to use alternative methods in teaching and disciplining the kids.
But I believe most of my generation were victims ourselves of domestic violence. Firstly, most of our parents are not so well educated, and as a known fact, violence begets violence. Our parents grew up in a environment when it was the standard to use violence as means of discipline. They were treated that way and they used it on their kids. Not because they wanted to, but that was the only way they were exposed to. Children of domestic violence might gorw up feeling insecure, depressed, withdrawn and ultimately practising this on their own kids or other people and the vicious cycle continues.....
Me too was a victim of child abuse. No, my mum did not use iron or cigarette buds to burn me... but the things she done to me was considered as child abuse. I told her once jokingly that what she did to me is consider as child abuse and she agreed. Guess most of our parents knew it, but they were helpless as they did not know any other methods then. Hmmm.... tt explains my streak of violence sometimes?? *raise eyebrows* :p
Of cos there are cases whereby some kids are being abused not because of discipline, but just pure anger vent for their parents... poor things. Do parents know the importance of being a parent? Do they know that they are responsible for all their kids actions and their growth? The kind of people that they turn out to be? Do they know whatever small things they do intentionally or not will still affect the kids? You just never know how that small thing might change their lives. So if you no money, dun fuck so much and have so many kids. Hate those parents that treat their children like rubbish, anger venting avenues. Why the fuck have so many kids when you know you have no means to give them happiness??? They are not toys or pets that you can dump them aside once trouble crops up or when you get tired of them. Dun commit if you have doubts about keeping your promise.........
Had to say something abt domestic violence. Very sad to say even today, domestic violence is still an issue in Sinagpore. Not only the men hitting the wives, but also wives hitting the husband (how come nothing is being done for husband abuse?? *scratch head*). Not forgetting children if not the indirect victims of domestic violence, are the victims themselves. Know why? Cos most of the parents only know how to discipline kids using violence. Maybe not so for the kids nowadays as young parents are adequately educated to use alternative methods in teaching and disciplining the kids.
But I believe most of my generation were victims ourselves of domestic violence. Firstly, most of our parents are not so well educated, and as a known fact, violence begets violence. Our parents grew up in a environment when it was the standard to use violence as means of discipline. They were treated that way and they used it on their kids. Not because they wanted to, but that was the only way they were exposed to. Children of domestic violence might gorw up feeling insecure, depressed, withdrawn and ultimately practising this on their own kids or other people and the vicious cycle continues.....
Me too was a victim of child abuse. No, my mum did not use iron or cigarette buds to burn me... but the things she done to me was considered as child abuse. I told her once jokingly that what she did to me is consider as child abuse and she agreed. Guess most of our parents knew it, but they were helpless as they did not know any other methods then. Hmmm.... tt explains my streak of violence sometimes?? *raise eyebrows* :p
Of cos there are cases whereby some kids are being abused not because of discipline, but just pure anger vent for their parents... poor things. Do parents know the importance of being a parent? Do they know that they are responsible for all their kids actions and their growth? The kind of people that they turn out to be? Do they know whatever small things they do intentionally or not will still affect the kids? You just never know how that small thing might change their lives. So if you no money, dun fuck so much and have so many kids. Hate those parents that treat their children like rubbish, anger venting avenues. Why the fuck have so many kids when you know you have no means to give them happiness??? They are not toys or pets that you can dump them aside once trouble crops up or when you get tired of them. Dun commit if you have doubts about keeping your promise.........
Sunday, December 4, 2005
我的祷词
我的祷词 (梁文福)
不要给我太多的聪明去向不够的人索取，
给我一颗原宥的心，去享有不怨的权利。
不要给我美丽的名姓去欺骗平凡的自己，
给我一颗渺小的心，满载了欣喜，装不下妒嫉。
不要给我太好的记性去计算曾经的怜悯，
给我一颗善忘的心，忘记了曾经的接受，就忘记了过去的施予。
不要给我太多的时间去陪伴自己的忧虑，
给我一颗炽热的心去包容酷冷的真理。
不要给我唇齿的伶俐去说太多堂皇的道理，
给我一颗转注的心，让我先懂得仔细的聆听。
不要给我永远的顺利，我不想在幸福中忘了同情。
给我一颗感激的心，让我在未失去时就懂得珍惜。
不要给我太多的聪明去向不够的人索取，
给我一颗原宥的心，去享有不怨的权利。
不要给我美丽的名姓去欺骗平凡的自己，
给我一颗渺小的心，满载了欣喜，装不下妒嫉。
不要给我太好的记性去计算曾经的怜悯，
给我一颗善忘的心，忘记了曾经的接受，就忘记了过去的施予。
不要给我太多的时间去陪伴自己的忧虑，
给我一颗炽热的心去包容酷冷的真理。
不要给我唇齿的伶俐去说太多堂皇的道理，
给我一颗转注的心，让我先懂得仔细的聆听。
不要给我永远的顺利，我不想在幸福中忘了同情。
给我一颗感激的心，让我在未失去时就懂得珍惜。
The Perfect Present: Using Your Five Senses to Liv
"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift - that is why we call it the present." Author unknown
How much of your life is lost either dwelling on the past or worrying about the future? When your thoughts are imprisoned by the past or fearful of the future, you can miss out on one of life's greatest gifts: that which is happening today and indeed this very moment.
The reality is that when you are yearning for yesterday and either tempted or terrified by tomorrow, your ability to move forward will be confined by your inability to make the most of today. The key to throwing off your shackles is to put your effort into the present moment. Not only will you reap the rewards of enjoying a new awareness of everything around you, but also you will have a healthy and positive place from which to move forward in a constructive and fulfilling way.
Utilizing the five senses, here a few simple examples of how you can practice "being present" or "living in the moment":
1. Touch
As you go about your daily activities, be mindful of the texture, temperature and feel of things. Start with your clothing. Are you wearing a pressed cotton shirt, velour jogging suit or rugged denim jeans? What about your work environment? Is your desk made of slick, smooth laminate or rough wood?
2. Taste
When you eat your meals today, chew slowly and savor each bite. What different flavors do you encounter? What feelings, associations and memories arise from the various tastes? Do you have enough variety or are the tastes almost bland because of their familiarity? Which taste is your favorite one of today?
3. See
Actively notice things in your environment. As you drive to work or are out on errands, do you see anything new? Perhaps a new shop has opened or flowers are in bloom along the highway. Investigate the range of colors. Instead of thinking that something is "blue", narrow it down. Is it a deep navy blue or a tropical turquoise?
4. Smell
Aside from the obvious things you normally smell like your food or the perfume/cologne you wear, try to observe the scent of other things. And no, not just the roses! If you are mowing the lawn, really take in the scent of the fresh cut grass or the earthy soil. If you are washing the dishes, notice the smell of the dishwashing liquid. Do you like it or is it time for something different?
5. Hear
When you are interacting with others today, give them your undivided attention: don't interrupt and listen attentively before you speak. Listen also to the background noise of your life. Can you hear birdsong? How many types can you make out? When you step outside, do you hear the children playing next door or the dog barking down the street? How do you feel when you hear these sounds? What is the most pleasant sound of the day?
Awareness of the present moment will make you feel in control of your life. Of course, learning from our mistakes, reminiscing over the past or planning for the future all have their places but after you've done so, let these thoughts go. Today is what really matters, irrespective of how imperfect it might seem and it is your attitude towards today which counts. You may have little control over things today but one thing is certain. you can choose and control your attitude towards today.
Enjoy the present moment then without dwelling on earlier or later, yesterday or tomorrow, past or future. Be mindful of the gathering storm of your thoughts if they carry you away to another time frame under a cloud of pessimism. Quell the storm by reining in your mind and your actions back to the "perfect present" and the world will open up to you with all of today's wonderful opportunities.
Copyright 2005 Vivian Banta
About the Author:
Vivian Banta is a life coach who works with people in pursuit of their passion who want to fully engage in their lives. Are you ready to plant your heart in the garden of your dreams? Find out how by visiting her website at http://gardenofsenses.com or e-mail her at coach@gardenofsenses.com to schedule a free, 30-minute personal coaching session.
How much of your life is lost either dwelling on the past or worrying about the future? When your thoughts are imprisoned by the past or fearful of the future, you can miss out on one of life's greatest gifts: that which is happening today and indeed this very moment.
The reality is that when you are yearning for yesterday and either tempted or terrified by tomorrow, your ability to move forward will be confined by your inability to make the most of today. The key to throwing off your shackles is to put your effort into the present moment. Not only will you reap the rewards of enjoying a new awareness of everything around you, but also you will have a healthy and positive place from which to move forward in a constructive and fulfilling way.
Utilizing the five senses, here a few simple examples of how you can practice "being present" or "living in the moment":
1. Touch
As you go about your daily activities, be mindful of the texture, temperature and feel of things. Start with your clothing. Are you wearing a pressed cotton shirt, velour jogging suit or rugged denim jeans? What about your work environment? Is your desk made of slick, smooth laminate or rough wood?
2. Taste
When you eat your meals today, chew slowly and savor each bite. What different flavors do you encounter? What feelings, associations and memories arise from the various tastes? Do you have enough variety or are the tastes almost bland because of their familiarity? Which taste is your favorite one of today?
3. See
Actively notice things in your environment. As you drive to work or are out on errands, do you see anything new? Perhaps a new shop has opened or flowers are in bloom along the highway. Investigate the range of colors. Instead of thinking that something is "blue", narrow it down. Is it a deep navy blue or a tropical turquoise?
4. Smell
Aside from the obvious things you normally smell like your food or the perfume/cologne you wear, try to observe the scent of other things. And no, not just the roses! If you are mowing the lawn, really take in the scent of the fresh cut grass or the earthy soil. If you are washing the dishes, notice the smell of the dishwashing liquid. Do you like it or is it time for something different?
5. Hear
When you are interacting with others today, give them your undivided attention: don't interrupt and listen attentively before you speak. Listen also to the background noise of your life. Can you hear birdsong? How many types can you make out? When you step outside, do you hear the children playing next door or the dog barking down the street? How do you feel when you hear these sounds? What is the most pleasant sound of the day?
Awareness of the present moment will make you feel in control of your life. Of course, learning from our mistakes, reminiscing over the past or planning for the future all have their places but after you've done so, let these thoughts go. Today is what really matters, irrespective of how imperfect it might seem and it is your attitude towards today which counts. You may have little control over things today but one thing is certain. you can choose and control your attitude towards today.
Enjoy the present moment then without dwelling on earlier or later, yesterday or tomorrow, past or future. Be mindful of the gathering storm of your thoughts if they carry you away to another time frame under a cloud of pessimism. Quell the storm by reining in your mind and your actions back to the "perfect present" and the world will open up to you with all of today's wonderful opportunities.
Copyright 2005 Vivian Banta
About the Author:
Vivian Banta is a life coach who works with people in pursuit of their passion who want to fully engage in their lives. Are you ready to plant your heart in the garden of your dreams? Find out how by visiting her website at http://gardenofsenses.com or e-mail her at coach@gardenofsenses.com to schedule a free, 30-minute personal coaching session.
Things happen for a reason
Okie, love department still a bit of a mess, but make my decision liao, give up the guy I interested in cos I finally see clearly that he is not interested in me. :p
However, I always believe things happen for a reason. Maybe like 1 of my frend who commented, me being interested in that guy might be a lesson for me and agreed. Reflecting on it, it makes me think about my contribution in a r/s. It makes me want to treasure my partner more and to be more accomodating to him. Maybe I will even have children with him if I really love him that much (but for that department, still much to be debated). It makes me rethink on how I will want to make my partner happy and that it takes a lot of effort to maintain the fire in a r/s.
Like I always say, I never regreted any of the r/s that i have been thru (though they took up the best of my shelf life :p) cos I learnt a lot from each of them. Something good will come out of whatever bullshit you encounter. Its just how you view the situation... maintain a positive attitude and stay happy... YEAH!
However, I always believe things happen for a reason. Maybe like 1 of my frend who commented, me being interested in that guy might be a lesson for me and agreed. Reflecting on it, it makes me think about my contribution in a r/s. It makes me want to treasure my partner more and to be more accomodating to him. Maybe I will even have children with him if I really love him that much (but for that department, still much to be debated). It makes me rethink on how I will want to make my partner happy and that it takes a lot of effort to maintain the fire in a r/s.
Like I always say, I never regreted any of the r/s that i have been thru (though they took up the best of my shelf life :p) cos I learnt a lot from each of them. Something good will come out of whatever bullshit you encounter. Its just how you view the situation... maintain a positive attitude and stay happy... YEAH!
Review of 2005 Resolution
Haha.... guess what? Today is 3 Dec 2005.... another year coming to an end.
Took account of my resolutions achieved since beginning of the year.
Lets see....
1. Work hard, improve and pass my Lvl 3.
Done
2. Settle family matters and support mum n siblings
Done
3. Give more time to mum
Did talk and communicate more with her
4. Monitor expenses and go for LASIK ops
Done
5. Maintain healthy lifestyle, go gym
Okie lar, a bit lazy towards the end... :p
6. Let nature take its course in my Love department
Mist clear, can see better.... still lots of room for improvement. But hey, at least I got 1 thing outta my mind k?
Wah!! Think this is the first time, I managed to achieve all my New Year resolution!!
*a round of applause pleases* :p
Good, good, think after the course from TCC, I can focus and work towards the objectives set. Shall continue to have The Courage to Create.... V^_^
Took account of my resolutions achieved since beginning of the year.
Lets see....
1. Work hard, improve and pass my Lvl 3.
Done
2. Settle family matters and support mum n siblings
Done
3. Give more time to mum
Did talk and communicate more with her
4. Monitor expenses and go for LASIK ops
Done
5. Maintain healthy lifestyle, go gym
Okie lar, a bit lazy towards the end... :p
6. Let nature take its course in my Love department
Mist clear, can see better.... still lots of room for improvement. But hey, at least I got 1 thing outta my mind k?
Wah!! Think this is the first time, I managed to achieve all my New Year resolution!!
*a round of applause pleases* :p
Good, good, think after the course from TCC, I can focus and work towards the objectives set. Shall continue to have The Courage to Create.... V^_^
Friday, December 2, 2005
The 5 people you meet in heaven
Finished reading the book in 3 hours...now I dun know what books to read liao -_-"....
A very good book. But is it till after death then you know your purpose in living and doing the things you do all your life? I do believe things happen for a reason. Its just whether you got the meaning earlier or later. Guess life is a journey of self exploration. There are so many things to discover about yourself and how to overcome and make sense of all things happening ard you.
Able to be at peace with oneself is so difficult. 空亦是色，色亦是空。看破红尘，我功力还不够深 .....
A very good book. But is it till after death then you know your purpose in living and doing the things you do all your life? I do believe things happen for a reason. Its just whether you got the meaning earlier or later. Guess life is a journey of self exploration. There are so many things to discover about yourself and how to overcome and make sense of all things happening ard you.
Able to be at peace with oneself is so difficult. 空亦是色，色亦是空。看破红尘，我功力还不够深 .....
Thursday, December 1, 2005
Hotel New World
Duh.... can you imagine I just spent 5 hours (over 2 days) reading Night Fall by Nelson Demille and what a GREAT disapointment it was!! :( Story with no ending...... no wonder its selling at half price when its published date was 2004....
Wasted my eyesight and time.... hummp.
Okie, back to what I really wanted to write today. Saw the episode of True Courage Hotel New World when having our Emergency Behaviour lecture. It happened in 1986 and that was the first time a building collapsed in Singapore. It really was a mind-shattering accident and left very deep impression in our nation man untill today. We can see how the nation bend together, helping in what small ways we can, with the rescue work and some aunties cooking and bringing food for the rescue workers. It was a tragedy. What was most heart-wrenching was the ger named Angela Chew.... she was only 2 meters away from the rescuers when the make-shift tunnel dug by the MRT experts (most of them expats but risk their lives to dug the tunnels to the surviours) collapsed. 10 hours were wasted because of the collapse and the next time they came into contact with her, she had already bleed to death..... I can really empathise with the rescuers and doctors .. a life had slipped out of their hands when they were so near yet so far away from her. She was only 20. Can you imagine the surviours had to endure whatever torment they had physically and mentally for as long as 82 hours for some? Guess people perform miracles in times of adversity.... you never really know your limit or the best/ worse in you unless you are thrown into that situation.
I was only 9 years old then. I can still remember my tots at that time... I was thinking, why aren't I older, I would have lended my hands to the rescue work back then. Maybe that unconsciously geared me into choosing my present career. Somemore I still had the ambition of being a nurse at that point of time. Did I ever mentioned my ambition was to be a nurse when I was like in Pri 1?? I carried that all the way into my secondary school days untill my mum managed to brainwashed me... :p But as fate would have it.... I am back in the medical line and got a even better deal, a mixture of medical and adventure.. YEAH!!;)
Frankly I just realised regardless whether I don a uniform or not... I am still sticking to an organisation....... no prize for guessing rite.... with uniform. Dun ask me why this fetish with uniforms..... I can't answer you.. :p I need action, I need gung-ho-ness. Can't live without it.... perhaps due to the deduction that I was a man in my previous life?? Hahahhaa.... I am more suited to be a man -_-".
Anyway, done with this disappointing Demille book. Shall get started on "5 people you meet in heaven" which I borrowed from Joan.....
*like writing blogs cos there are so much feelings and issues I wanna talk about. You know, some times you can't keep harping to your audience... they will need ear plugs cos I know I have this bad habit of repeating the same thing over and over again to get it out of my system, be it good or bad.... :p
Wasted my eyesight and time.... hummp.
Okie, back to what I really wanted to write today. Saw the episode of True Courage Hotel New World when having our Emergency Behaviour lecture. It happened in 1986 and that was the first time a building collapsed in Singapore. It really was a mind-shattering accident and left very deep impression in our nation man untill today. We can see how the nation bend together, helping in what small ways we can, with the rescue work and some aunties cooking and bringing food for the rescue workers. It was a tragedy. What was most heart-wrenching was the ger named Angela Chew.... she was only 2 meters away from the rescuers when the make-shift tunnel dug by the MRT experts (most of them expats but risk their lives to dug the tunnels to the surviours) collapsed. 10 hours were wasted because of the collapse and the next time they came into contact with her, she had already bleed to death..... I can really empathise with the rescuers and doctors .. a life had slipped out of their hands when they were so near yet so far away from her. She was only 20. Can you imagine the surviours had to endure whatever torment they had physically and mentally for as long as 82 hours for some? Guess people perform miracles in times of adversity.... you never really know your limit or the best/ worse in you unless you are thrown into that situation.
I was only 9 years old then. I can still remember my tots at that time... I was thinking, why aren't I older, I would have lended my hands to the rescue work back then. Maybe that unconsciously geared me into choosing my present career. Somemore I still had the ambition of being a nurse at that point of time. Did I ever mentioned my ambition was to be a nurse when I was like in Pri 1?? I carried that all the way into my secondary school days untill my mum managed to brainwashed me... :p But as fate would have it.... I am back in the medical line and got a even better deal, a mixture of medical and adventure.. YEAH!!;)
Frankly I just realised regardless whether I don a uniform or not... I am still sticking to an organisation....... no prize for guessing rite.... with uniform. Dun ask me why this fetish with uniforms..... I can't answer you.. :p I need action, I need gung-ho-ness. Can't live without it.... perhaps due to the deduction that I was a man in my previous life?? Hahahhaa.... I am more suited to be a man -_-".
Anyway, done with this disappointing Demille book. Shall get started on "5 people you meet in heaven" which I borrowed from Joan.....
*like writing blogs cos there are so much feelings and issues I wanna talk about. You know, some times you can't keep harping to your audience... they will need ear plugs cos I know I have this bad habit of repeating the same thing over and over again to get it out of my system, be it good or bad.... :p
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Rainny nite
Its a good nite. Its currently raining heavily outside and I love it. Have always loved rainny days or nights (especially heavy rain) for that matter. Loved the wind, the breeze, the sound of rain pattering ard me..... :) Not fogetting the redden sky at nite and the greyish sky by day. Have you ever noticed how beautiful the sky is when it is totally grey in color?? I like that feeling and sight....够诗情画意 :p
Maybe not so much if I was caught in it lar....hahahaha...
A very good time to smuggle up my bed and read a book... mmmmmm....
And I am feeling lazy to prep my uniform and boots for tml's drill... -_-"
Monday, November 28, 2005
Hang on little tomato
A very nice song by Pink Martini..... an inspirating song when you are feeling down.... :)
Hang on Little Tomato
The sun has left and forgotten me
Its dark, I cannot see
Why does this rain pour downI m gonna drown
In a sea
Of deep confusion
Somebody told me, I dont know who
Whenever you are sad and blue
And you are feeling all alone and left behind
Just take a look inside and you will find
You gotta hold on, hold on through the night
Hang on, things will be all right
Even when its dark
And not a bit of sparkling
Sing-song sunshine from above
Spreading rays of sunny love
Just hang on, hang on to the vine
Stay on, soon you will be divine
If you start to cry, look up to the sky
Somethings coming up ahead
To turn your tears to dew instead
And so I hold on to his advice
When change is hard and not so nice
You listen to your heart the whole night through
Your sunny someday will come one day soon to you
http://hd3.15150.com/banzou/2005_11_21/16924_13225952.mp3
Hang on Little Tomato
The sun has left and forgotten me
Its dark, I cannot see
Why does this rain pour downI m gonna drown
In a sea
Of deep confusion
Somebody told me, I dont know who
Whenever you are sad and blue
And you are feeling all alone and left behind
Just take a look inside and you will find
You gotta hold on, hold on through the night
Hang on, things will be all right
Even when its dark
And not a bit of sparkling
Sing-song sunshine from above
Spreading rays of sunny love
Just hang on, hang on to the vine
Stay on, soon you will be divine
If you start to cry, look up to the sky
Somethings coming up ahead
To turn your tears to dew instead
And so I hold on to his advice
When change is hard and not so nice
You listen to your heart the whole night through
Your sunny someday will come one day soon to you
http://hd3.15150.com/banzou/2005_11_21/16924_13225952.mp3
Sunday, November 27, 2005
I dun like to be misunderstood
Went back to stn to say farewell to Rota 1 & 4. Knew Enick Ivan is on duty today (coincide with Rota 1 & 4) so went there especially to see him. He was asking why din see me ard for so long and when I left, he sms me that he is gonna miss me.... so sweet of him... :) Guess he is quite fond of me, I am fond of him too. He was like a uncle figure to me and I respect him.
Waited for Sam and my mentor too. Too bad Syukri (medic) was on leave, can't eat my chocolates... :p Talked a bit with my mentor. Think he gonna miss me too...heee. Asked me to walk with him for the last time to the bus-stop "Since I posted here, nobody walked with me except you.." Although he is not a very popular person, he is good to me. I still keep the consoling SMS he sent me when I told him I failed my practical *Gam Dong*. Maybe as Syukri said before, we are both very funni and strange ppl that is why we can be mentor and mentee....hahahaha.
Maybe..... like I said, not a lot of ppl can accept me, only a few can really understand me and accept me for what I am. I never harm anyone, I never gossip or stab ppl behind their back. Maybe I did without me knowing, but it was never intentional. That has been always the way this world work doesn't it? I hate being misunderstood. My communication problem? The way I put my thots across? I never meant anything bad in my comments or questions. Hahaha... it takes Charlie a good 2 - 3 years before he can accept my lingo or what I am trying to say, but when things get hot, he will forget too. Perhaps I should not speak so much and just keep quiet (which was what I did when I wanted acceptance from my platoon mates) even extending to those whom are considered as frends but dun understand me. Maybe that is the reason why I never have a lot of frends. My problem.... maybe I was too sensitive towards how ppl view me? That is a very good consolation. Ha. Maybe all the while I have been a self-centered bitch who never really put in her efforts to nuture frendships. But you dun just find any Tom, Dick or Harry rite? At least there must be chemistry.... but sometimes you think there is, the other party think otherwise. *shrug*
Looking for acceptance..... looking for acceptance, ger, its time you let it go and embrace your true self. If not, it is just gonna be a viscious cycle that you cannot run away from. Have the courage to face it alone.... if you have to.
PS. Went to temple to pray today and got a good lot for my yin yuan. Stated sunshine after the rain, things will get better as I got to see more clearly after the hazy period. Real zhun wor....give up liao.... heee
Waited for Sam and my mentor too. Too bad Syukri (medic) was on leave, can't eat my chocolates... :p Talked a bit with my mentor. Think he gonna miss me too...heee. Asked me to walk with him for the last time to the bus-stop "Since I posted here, nobody walked with me except you.." Although he is not a very popular person, he is good to me. I still keep the consoling SMS he sent me when I told him I failed my practical *Gam Dong*. Maybe as Syukri said before, we are both very funni and strange ppl that is why we can be mentor and mentee....hahahaha.
Maybe..... like I said, not a lot of ppl can accept me, only a few can really understand me and accept me for what I am. I never harm anyone, I never gossip or stab ppl behind their back. Maybe I did without me knowing, but it was never intentional. That has been always the way this world work doesn't it? I hate being misunderstood. My communication problem? The way I put my thots across? I never meant anything bad in my comments or questions. Hahaha... it takes Charlie a good 2 - 3 years before he can accept my lingo or what I am trying to say, but when things get hot, he will forget too. Perhaps I should not speak so much and just keep quiet (which was what I did when I wanted acceptance from my platoon mates) even extending to those whom are considered as frends but dun understand me. Maybe that is the reason why I never have a lot of frends. My problem.... maybe I was too sensitive towards how ppl view me? That is a very good consolation. Ha. Maybe all the while I have been a self-centered bitch who never really put in her efforts to nuture frendships. But you dun just find any Tom, Dick or Harry rite? At least there must be chemistry.... but sometimes you think there is, the other party think otherwise. *shrug*
Looking for acceptance..... looking for acceptance, ger, its time you let it go and embrace your true self. If not, it is just gonna be a viscious cycle that you cannot run away from. Have the courage to face it alone.... if you have to.
PS. Went to temple to pray today and got a good lot for my yin yuan. Stated sunshine after the rain, things will get better as I got to see more clearly after the hazy period. Real zhun wor....give up liao.... heee
Friday, November 25, 2005
Graduation Speech
Okie, to prevent any misunderstanding, the following was an extract from our best trainee, Joan's webbie.
"Sometime this morning i was given instructions to write a speech for the best
trainee.For keepsakes:
Good afternoon... blah and blah...this day would
not have been possible without the combined and dedicated efforts of our
instructors and course commander.To our mentors, who nurtured us through these trying times.
You have been a brother, a sister, a leader, a teacher and a friend. Classroom lessons are never enough by themselves.
You are the ones who took our skills from our classrooms to the streets. Every ambulance call was a learning experience, with each call we steadily gained confidence and professionalism, arming ourselves with indispensable skills that would serve us well in the future.
To our instructors,
you took us from MOPs to AEDs, from oral airways to LMAs. We know many a times we have made your blood boil, with our incessant questioning and exasperating mistakes. But your patience finally prevailed. We are here today, grateful to you, unselfishly sharing with us your invaluable experience and knowledge. You taught us what it is to be a leader, a buddy and a friend to those in need.
During our stressful times through this one and a half years, we have been through many regrets and achievements and you have been there, pillars of strength to see us through.
To our loved ones,
for their unwavering support. All these would not have been possible without
you.
We stand here before you today, eager and ready to face the trails and
tribulations that stand in our way. This Christmas, as church goers and carol
singers fill the streets of Singapore, there will be a new bunch of us, zipping
through the streets, sirens blasting and lights ablaze, so that those that need
us can live to see another Christmas.Through our hard work and determination, we have earned oursevles a name that we are proud of. A name that is synonymous with life saving - Paramedics."
I cried when she was delivering it....especially the last 2 para....*sob sob*
Yeah, it was a long way for us......
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Pass final hurdle liao!!
YEAH!!!! Finally after 18 mths of training...... I am a paramedic liao!! *beaming* Passed my retest.... :p
The training part of the career has ended, but the real challange has just begun. Now I am all on my own liao.... challanging, challanging... >:(
But really glad I passed by training..... finally can sleep soundly after 2 mths of metal stress. Gotta rest properly. 休息是要走更长的路...... a new pharse of my career.
The training part of the career has ended, but the real challange has just begun. Now I am all on my own liao.... challanging, challanging... >:(
But really glad I passed by training..... finally can sleep soundly after 2 mths of metal stress. Gotta rest properly. 休息是要走更长的路...... a new pharse of my career.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
The terrible truth
Hmm.... complaint to a frend yesterday abt some things but it ended up being I was the culprit! He told me instances and a few situations that he find funni and irritated by me. So it seems like I shan't be complaining and should reflect upon myself instead.
I also know I have been acting weirdly recently..... and I know the reason why. What I dun realise is that how annoying I was. That explain some of the reactions ppl have towards me recently. *shrug* Well, sometimes humans are so 泛贱, need to do and learn it the hard way.... I do that. You know your faults but it takes a lot of discipline to change that. You won't do it unless something happens lor...
A good nite to reflect on it. I hope it is not too late to savage the situation. I am learning to improve myself...... V^_^
I also know I have been acting weirdly recently..... and I know the reason why. What I dun realise is that how annoying I was. That explain some of the reactions ppl have towards me recently. *shrug* Well, sometimes humans are so 泛贱, need to do and learn it the hard way.... I do that. You know your faults but it takes a lot of discipline to change that. You won't do it unless something happens lor...
A good nite to reflect on it. I hope it is not too late to savage the situation. I am learning to improve myself...... V^_^
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Back to SMM
Aha! Last day of attachment to Alexandra Hospital le. Hmm.. learnt quite a lot especially during the tour of A&E department. Did IM (intermuscular) injection.... V^_^. We were also attached to the wards to learn more about the aftercare and the presentations of the patients for various conditions.
Not forgetting the cute male nurse.... hur hur hur... :p
Anyway, we will be going back to SMM for the last few days of our course. Finally finished my case study report for handing up and presenting after 2 nites of "drive nite car" -_-"...
Let's see what we will be doing, we still have the AED (shocking of patient) protocol to learn and to be tested. My medical retest will be on Friday, and presentation of our case study. Then next Monday will be our finals and if we pass, graduation will be on Tuesday!!!!
That's all for now folks... gotta catch some beauty sleep now....
Not forgetting the cute male nurse.... hur hur hur... :p
Anyway, we will be going back to SMM for the last few days of our course. Finally finished my case study report for handing up and presenting after 2 nites of "drive nite car" -_-"...
Let's see what we will be doing, we still have the AED (shocking of patient) protocol to learn and to be tested. My medical retest will be on Friday, and presentation of our case study. Then next Monday will be our finals and if we pass, graduation will be on Tuesday!!!!
That's all for now folks... gotta catch some beauty sleep now....
Tuesday, November 8, 2005
Paramedic
Today was the second day for my EV. Ridzwan took the first call for his evaluation and there I was sitting in the station kaypoing in front of the cubicon system (a system that records all our ambulance calls). Scrolling, scrolling thru and saw a lot of cases, mostly fall and injured, complaint of very sick etc. My station ambulance got a collapsed case... haizzz.. life of a paramedic...
Saw the incident text for a mass casualties case (the tampines playground on fire case) and the one of the Red Rhino and taxi..... its a sad case.. tsk tsk..
Come to think of it, life as a paramedic is really a challenging job. Timely and correct treatment, decisive in decision making, command & control of the situation, patient management,all these with a 3-man crew. Not forgetting to throw in PR skills (we are dealing with public here) in providing good customer service. If not, will tio complaint letter, which is the better of the other evil of direct write-in to newspaper... -_-"
It re-enforced in me the pressure of being a EAS on the road. Always expect the unexpected while on the road, do not believe in what the call text state.. the caller might say its a case of fainted, but its a collapse case when you reached the scene. Also, you must master the art of "keeping" your "treasure" if you are in toilet halfway when the alarm sound for an ambulance call.... haha. Many a times your packet of lunch will take you 2-3 hours before you can finished the food, that is if you are unlucky and got proceed to another call.
Frankly, we do understand the fustration and anxiety of the public when sometime happens, but there are situations which are beyond our control, eg. traffic congestion or no nearest ambulance is available. Much as we wanted to get to the patient as fast as we can, somtimes, situations dun allow us. Please do not think we take our own sweet time to attend to our patients, we know more than anybody how crucial time is to our patient. Which is why public education is VERY VERY important on using of the EAS. By abusing the EAS, people are depriving of real emergency cases that genuinely require more of the service...... and not forgetting to give way to ambulance that has the siren and becon lights blasting away. We dun turn them on for laughter, peace and joy.....
After all these bubblish... I am still looking forward to being a crew leader of an ambulance. The REAL challenge has just begun.....
Saw the incident text for a mass casualties case (the tampines playground on fire case) and the one of the Red Rhino and taxi..... its a sad case.. tsk tsk..
Come to think of it, life as a paramedic is really a challenging job. Timely and correct treatment, decisive in decision making, command & control of the situation, patient management,all these with a 3-man crew. Not forgetting to throw in PR skills (we are dealing with public here) in providing good customer service. If not, will tio complaint letter, which is the better of the other evil of direct write-in to newspaper... -_-"
It re-enforced in me the pressure of being a EAS on the road. Always expect the unexpected while on the road, do not believe in what the call text state.. the caller might say its a case of fainted, but its a collapse case when you reached the scene. Also, you must master the art of "keeping" your "treasure" if you are in toilet halfway when the alarm sound for an ambulance call.... haha. Many a times your packet of lunch will take you 2-3 hours before you can finished the food, that is if you are unlucky and got proceed to another call.
Frankly, we do understand the fustration and anxiety of the public when sometime happens, but there are situations which are beyond our control, eg. traffic congestion or no nearest ambulance is available. Much as we wanted to get to the patient as fast as we can, somtimes, situations dun allow us. Please do not think we take our own sweet time to attend to our patients, we know more than anybody how crucial time is to our patient. Which is why public education is VERY VERY important on using of the EAS. By abusing the EAS, people are depriving of real emergency cases that genuinely require more of the service...... and not forgetting to give way to ambulance that has the siren and becon lights blasting away. We dun turn them on for laughter, peace and joy.....
After all these bubblish... I am still looking forward to being a crew leader of an ambulance. The REAL challenge has just begun.....
Final EV almost over!!
K... got to go for a few calls before being assessed for my EV. 2 unconcious calls for hypoglycemia (low blood sugar level) first thing in the morning. 1st case was a stable case, patient regained conscious after given some sugar water by passerby. 2nd one was a standby case, hypocount was 1.2 mmol and we couldn't get the vein to set in the glucose!! Cos the patient was obese and we couldn't see the veins.... -_-"
Anyway, no calls for the rest of the afternoon, was thinking that I might not be able to do my EV today afterall. Then came the call at 1915hrs. Case of RTA (road traffic accident), pedestrain hit by a lorry, did my spinal and such... but dun think I did very well for this call. I din managed to get the IV (drip) in.... :(
Just as we were abt to return to the station, we were called to proceed to another case of chest discomfort. And the most incredible thing is..... that was the same COPD patient that Joan had for her EV last Friday!!! Can you beat that?? 2 buddies got the same patient for their EVs... hahahaha.. then for this case, okay lar..... not too impressive but also not too bad, so so lor...
Hmm.... a bit tired liao... now left the medical retest and final theory and practical.
Jia you, Jia you!!! >:(
Anyway, no calls for the rest of the afternoon, was thinking that I might not be able to do my EV today afterall. Then came the call at 1915hrs. Case of RTA (road traffic accident), pedestrain hit by a lorry, did my spinal and such... but dun think I did very well for this call. I din managed to get the IV (drip) in.... :(
Just as we were abt to return to the station, we were called to proceed to another case of chest discomfort. And the most incredible thing is..... that was the same COPD patient that Joan had for her EV last Friday!!! Can you beat that?? 2 buddies got the same patient for their EVs... hahahaha.. then for this case, okay lar..... not too impressive but also not too bad, so so lor...
Hmm.... a bit tired liao... now left the medical retest and final theory and practical.
Jia you, Jia you!!! >:(
Sunday, November 6, 2005
九种爱情的感觉
当你爱上对方时，应该会有这九种情感，才能算是一个真实的爱情，最起码，你应该扪心自问，将来是否有可 能培养出这样的情感来，才能确保你拥有一个真的爱情。
一、生理上的性冲动：
当我们对一位异性产生兴趣或爱上某个异性时，希望彼此有身体上的接触。在真实的爱情生活里，这种欲望是 永远存在的。性冲动并不单单只是行为，它还包含了许多其它亲密的身体上接触，譬如牵手、拥抱等等，这种情感 会永远都存在爱人的心里。
二、美丽的感觉：
在有爱情的时候，我们会觉得对方最好看，即使有别的异性比你所爱的对象好看，但对你而言，他（她）才是 最好看的，而且是别人无法相比的。
三、亲爱的感觉：
当你真正爱上一个人，你会有一种很亲切的感觉，他让你觉的很舒服，你可以信任他、依靠他。他像是一个亲 密的家人，甚至可以说，比一个家人更亲密，这是亲密加上一种温馨的感觉，就是亲爱的感觉。在这爱情国度里， 他不会挑剔你的瑕疵，因为他愿意包容你所有的缺点。
四、羡慕及尊敬的感觉：
一个健康的爱情关系，应当有以对方为荣的感觉，我们会去欣赏对方内在和外在的条件和优点。而且对方也处 处以我们为荣。如果我们能有这种感觉，不论他是成功或失败，都会使我们欣赏他的才华。
五、赞许的爱情：
当相爱的时候，我们喜欢夸奖对方，而且不仅是欣赏而已，还喜欢对他人夸奖对方，从夸奖对方的热诚之中， 我们可以因此感到无比的快乐。
六、受到尊重的自尊：
一个健康的爱情关系，可以提高一个人的自尊心。让对感觉到活得更有价值，因为爱情使你觉得你有无人可比 的独特性，虽然你有优点也有缺点，但是你的独特性使你受到无比的尊重，生命因此而有了价值。
七、占有欲：
爱情是绝对独占的，不能与人分享亲密的男女关系。所以需要以结婚来持续一份爱情，在结婚时彼此相约相许 。因此在真实爱情里，互相许诺忠诚是必要的。
八、行动自由：
如果个人有正当的理由，他行动的自由一定要受到尊重，才不会破坏两人之间的爱情关系。
九、深重的同情心：
我们对深爱的人常会有怜惜的感情，经常会为对方考虑，如果对方受到挫折，我们会非常愿意与他分担痛苦和 挫折，把对方的苦当作自己的苦难一样，或者更胜于自己的苦难，因为我们愿意为对方而牺牲自己的 利益
一、生理上的性冲动：
当我们对一位异性产生兴趣或爱上某个异性时，希望彼此有身体上的接触。在真实的爱情生活里，这种欲望是 永远存在的。性冲动并不单单只是行为，它还包含了许多其它亲密的身体上接触，譬如牵手、拥抱等等，这种情感 会永远都存在爱人的心里。
二、美丽的感觉：
在有爱情的时候，我们会觉得对方最好看，即使有别的异性比你所爱的对象好看，但对你而言，他（她）才是 最好看的，而且是别人无法相比的。
三、亲爱的感觉：
当你真正爱上一个人，你会有一种很亲切的感觉，他让你觉的很舒服，你可以信任他、依靠他。他像是一个亲 密的家人，甚至可以说，比一个家人更亲密，这是亲密加上一种温馨的感觉，就是亲爱的感觉。在这爱情国度里， 他不会挑剔你的瑕疵，因为他愿意包容你所有的缺点。
四、羡慕及尊敬的感觉：
一个健康的爱情关系，应当有以对方为荣的感觉，我们会去欣赏对方内在和外在的条件和优点。而且对方也处 处以我们为荣。如果我们能有这种感觉，不论他是成功或失败，都会使我们欣赏他的才华。
五、赞许的爱情：
当相爱的时候，我们喜欢夸奖对方，而且不仅是欣赏而已，还喜欢对他人夸奖对方，从夸奖对方的热诚之中， 我们可以因此感到无比的快乐。
六、受到尊重的自尊：
一个健康的爱情关系，可以提高一个人的自尊心。让对感觉到活得更有价值，因为爱情使你觉得你有无人可比 的独特性，虽然你有优点也有缺点，但是你的独特性使你受到无比的尊重，生命因此而有了价值。
七、占有欲：
爱情是绝对独占的，不能与人分享亲密的男女关系。所以需要以结婚来持续一份爱情，在结婚时彼此相约相许 。因此在真实爱情里，互相许诺忠诚是必要的。
八、行动自由：
如果个人有正当的理由，他行动的自由一定要受到尊重，才不会破坏两人之间的爱情关系。
九、深重的同情心：
我们对深爱的人常会有怜惜的感情，经常会为对方考虑，如果对方受到挫折，我们会非常愿意与他分担痛苦和 挫折，把对方的苦当作自己的苦难一样，或者更胜于自己的苦难，因为我们愿意为对方而牺牲自己的 利益
Friday, November 4, 2005
Quotes About Life
A bit X-rated.... but funni. Hahaha....
01) Confucius said, "Squirrel who run up woman's leg surely won't find nuts.
02) When I was born, I got a choice - a big dick or a good memory. I can't remember which one I chose...
03) Your birth certificate is an apology letter from the condom factory.
04) My wife is a sex object. Everytime I ask for sex, she objects.
05) Impotence: Nature's way of saying "No hard feelings".
06) There are only two four letter words that are offensive to men - don't and stop ... unless they are used together.
07) Panties are not the best thing on earth; they're next to the best thing on earth.
08) There are three stages to sex in a person's life: Tri Weekly, Try Weekly, and Try Weakly.
09) Virginity can be cured.
10) Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner,you'd better have a good hand.
11) I tried phone sex once, but the holes in the dialer were too small.
12) Do infants enjoy infancy as much as adults enjoy adultery?
13) Marriage is the only war where you get to sleep with the enemy.
14) Of course you've heard about the Viagra computer virus, it turns your 31/2 inch floppy into a hard disk.
15) Despite the old saying, "Don't take your troubles to bed", many menstill sleep with their wives !!!
16) Q: What's an Australian kiss?
A: The same thing as a French kiss, only down under.
17) A couple just married were happy with the whole thing. He was happy with the Hole and She was happy with the Thing......
18) Q: What are the three biggest tragedies in a man's life?
A: Life sucks, job sucks and the wife doesn't.
19) Q: What's the difference between a bitch and a whore?
A: A whore sleeps with everyone at the party and a bitch sleeps witheveryone except you.
01) Confucius said, "Squirrel who run up woman's leg surely won't find nuts.
02) When I was born, I got a choice - a big dick or a good memory. I can't remember which one I chose...
03) Your birth certificate is an apology letter from the condom factory.
04) My wife is a sex object. Everytime I ask for sex, she objects.
05) Impotence: Nature's way of saying "No hard feelings".
06) There are only two four letter words that are offensive to men - don't and stop ... unless they are used together.
07) Panties are not the best thing on earth; they're next to the best thing on earth.
08) There are three stages to sex in a person's life: Tri Weekly, Try Weekly, and Try Weakly.
09) Virginity can be cured.
10) Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner,you'd better have a good hand.
11) I tried phone sex once, but the holes in the dialer were too small.
12) Do infants enjoy infancy as much as adults enjoy adultery?
13) Marriage is the only war where you get to sleep with the enemy.
14) Of course you've heard about the Viagra computer virus, it turns your 31/2 inch floppy into a hard disk.
15) Despite the old saying, "Don't take your troubles to bed", many menstill sleep with their wives !!!
16) Q: What's an Australian kiss?
A: The same thing as a French kiss, only down under.
17) A couple just married were happy with the whole thing. He was happy with the Hole and She was happy with the Thing......
18) Q: What are the three biggest tragedies in a man's life?
A: Life sucks, job sucks and the wife doesn't.
19) Q: What's the difference between a bitch and a whore?
A: A whore sleeps with everyone at the party and a bitch sleeps witheveryone except you.
Tuesday, November 1, 2005
男人要有肉
鼻头要有肉，鼻头有肉的男人既有欲也有财，衣食无忧；
嘴唇要有肉，厚嘴唇的男人为人厚道，薄嘴唇的男人通常都很薄幸；
下巴要有肉，下巴有肉，除了可以让你捏他下巴之外，他的晚年也会过得不错，可以照顾你； 耳朵要有肉，耳大肥厚，是长寿的征相，他长寿，就可以和你厮守终身，最幸福的就是可以比你爱的人先死，他那 么长寿你的愿望不难达成；
脸颊要有肉，双颊凹陷的男人不是太可怕吗？
肩膀要有肉，可以让你舒舒服服的把下巴搁上去；
背部要有肉，可以随时背你；
胸前要有肉，可以挨得住女人几拳；
手掌要有肉，手掌肥厚的男人会很富有，不用女人养他；
双腿要有肉，两条枯树枝一样的腿太没有安全感；
最重要的是屁股要有肉，屁股大而有肉的男人最顾家，小屁股的男人多半靠不住；
他那颗心，当然也要是肉造的，只有这样，他的心才容易被你打动；
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结论：找头猪准没错！
LOL.....
嘴唇要有肉，厚嘴唇的男人为人厚道，薄嘴唇的男人通常都很薄幸；
下巴要有肉，下巴有肉，除了可以让你捏他下巴之外，他的晚年也会过得不错，可以照顾你； 耳朵要有肉，耳大肥厚，是长寿的征相，他长寿，就可以和你厮守终身，最幸福的就是可以比你爱的人先死，他那 么长寿你的愿望不难达成；
脸颊要有肉，双颊凹陷的男人不是太可怕吗？
肩膀要有肉，可以让你舒舒服服的把下巴搁上去；
背部要有肉，可以随时背你；
胸前要有肉，可以挨得住女人几拳；
手掌要有肉，手掌肥厚的男人会很富有，不用女人养他；
双腿要有肉，两条枯树枝一样的腿太没有安全感；
最重要的是屁股要有肉，屁股大而有肉的男人最顾家，小屁股的男人多半靠不住；
他那颗心，当然也要是肉造的，只有这样，他的心才容易被你打动；
那么
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结论：找头猪准没错！
LOL.....
Sunday, October 16, 2005
張小嫻 的愛情
*不要愛上一個看來不會愛上你的人﹐那就不用失望。 有些失望是無可避免的﹐ 但大部份的失望﹐都是因為你高估了自己。*迷戀一個人﹐就像中了魔一樣﹐ 不由自主﹐ 再怎麼聰明的人﹐也會不惜一切掏空自己所有感情﹐一旦醒來﹐已經沒有剩餘的感情了﹐變成無情是很理所當然的事。
*有些情意﹐轉瞬即逝﹔ 有些情意﹐ 得以延續﹐ 發展成愛情﹐ 長路漫漫﹐ 最後也許會消逝﹐ 但你不會忘記﹐ 你曾在一瞬間愛上一個人﹐那是多麼浪漫的一件事。
*我們每一個人都是被有條件地愛著﹐也是有條件地愛著別人﹐ 不必心灰意冷﹐ 既然知道世上沒有無條件的愛﹐ 你應該努力使自己更具備條件去被愛﹐同時也該學習忘記一些條件去愛一個人。
*放棄一個很愛你的人並不痛苦﹔放棄一個你很愛的人﹐那才痛苦。愛上一個不愛你的人﹐ 那是同樣痛苦。
*暗戀是卑微而從來不高尚﹐美化暗戀的人只是無法愛自己多一點。
* 如果情感和歲月也能輕輕撕碎﹐ 扔到海中﹐ 那麼﹐ 我願意從此就在海底沉默... 你的言語﹐ 我愛聽﹐ 卻不懂得﹐ 我的沉默﹐ 你願見﹐ 卻不明白...
*只有一天壽命的愛情從來沒有機會變壞。
* 一生一世是那個人背叛了你﹐ 你仍然希望他回到你身邊。
* 男人總是自以為是﹐ 他們不肯離婚﹐ 還以為自己很高尚﹐ 他們以為那個女人找不到比他更好的男人﹐ 卻不明白﹐ 男人不愛一個女人﹐ 卻遲遲不肯放手﹐ 只是在剝奪她找到一個更愛她的男人的機會。
*帶給你快樂的那個人﹐ 就是也能帶給你痛苦的人。
* 愛一個人﹐ 是你必須有一點兒恨他﹐ 恨他令你無法離開他。
*越想佔有﹐ 越容易失去。 愛是儘量佔有和儘量避免失去之間的平衡。
* 嫉妒可以獨立存在﹐ 但是愛﹐ 必然和嫉妒並存﹐ 正如失望在幸福裡存在。
* 失望﹐ 有時候也是一種幸福﹐ 因為有所期待﹐ 所以才會失望﹐ 因為有愛﹐才會有期待﹐ 所以縱使失望﹐ 也是一種幸福﹐ 雖然這種幸福有點痛。
*不望著令你流淚的東西﹐ 那是唯一可以不流淚的方法。
* 男人偽裝堅強﹐ 只是害怕被女人發現他軟弱。 女人偽裝幸福﹐ 只是害怕被男人發現她傷心。
* 如果有一天﹐ 我們在路上重逢﹐ 而我告訴你﹐ 「我現在很幸福。」﹐ 我一定是偽裝的。 如果只能夠跟你重逢﹐ 而不是共同生活﹐ 那怎麼會幸福呢﹖ 告訴你我很幸福﹐ 只是不想讓你知道其實我很傷心。
*世上最遙遠的距離﹐ 不是生與死的距離﹐ 不是天各一方﹐ 而是我就站在你面前﹐ 你卻不知道我愛你.. * 我們的愛和傷痛﹐ 是因為世上只有一個他。
*世上最無法掩飾的﹐ 是你不愛一個人的時候的那種眼神。
* 如果愛情有十分﹐ 有幾多分是酸﹐ 幾多分是甜﹖ ...是十分的酸﹐ 一分的甜...沒有那十分的酸﹐ 怎見得那一分的甜有多甜﹖
* 愛情使人忘記時間﹐ 時間也使人忘記愛情。
* 喜歡一個人和不喜歡一個人都是因為同一些理由。
* 對一個女人來說﹐ 愛情和承諾是不可分開的﹐ 她愛的是男人的承諾。
* 愛一個跟自己相似的人不算偉大﹐ 愛一個跟自己不相似的人﹐ 才是偉大。
* 女人用愛佔有男人﹐ 男人用佔有來愛女人﹐ 到了後來﹐ 大家都分不出到底是愛還是佔有。
* 歲月流逝﹐ 不變的夢想﹐ 是能夠擁抱自己心愛的人﹐ 也擁抱他的微笑和哭泣
* 每個女人都認為她所愛的男人是最好的。
* 我們從分離的思念中領略相聚的幸福。 我們從被背叛的痛苦中領略忠盏碾y能可貴。 我們從失戀的悲傷中領略長相廝守的深情。
* 有些愛情只是幻像﹐ 我們以為自己不能離開那個人﹐ 後來卻發現﹐ 要離開他﹐ 並沒有想像中那麼困難。 要忘記他﹐ 也幾乎不需要花甚麼功夫。 有些愛情卻不是幻像﹐ 我們以為自己可以忘記那個人﹐ 因為愛情發生的時間只是那麼短暫。 然而﹐ 我們後來卻發現﹐ 要忘記他﹐ 比想象中困難許多。
*有些情意﹐轉瞬即逝﹔ 有些情意﹐ 得以延續﹐ 發展成愛情﹐ 長路漫漫﹐ 最後也許會消逝﹐ 但你不會忘記﹐ 你曾在一瞬間愛上一個人﹐那是多麼浪漫的一件事。
*我們每一個人都是被有條件地愛著﹐也是有條件地愛著別人﹐ 不必心灰意冷﹐ 既然知道世上沒有無條件的愛﹐ 你應該努力使自己更具備條件去被愛﹐同時也該學習忘記一些條件去愛一個人。
*放棄一個很愛你的人並不痛苦﹔放棄一個你很愛的人﹐那才痛苦。愛上一個不愛你的人﹐ 那是同樣痛苦。
*暗戀是卑微而從來不高尚﹐美化暗戀的人只是無法愛自己多一點。
* 如果情感和歲月也能輕輕撕碎﹐ 扔到海中﹐ 那麼﹐ 我願意從此就在海底沉默... 你的言語﹐ 我愛聽﹐ 卻不懂得﹐ 我的沉默﹐ 你願見﹐ 卻不明白...
*只有一天壽命的愛情從來沒有機會變壞。
* 一生一世是那個人背叛了你﹐ 你仍然希望他回到你身邊。
* 男人總是自以為是﹐ 他們不肯離婚﹐ 還以為自己很高尚﹐ 他們以為那個女人找不到比他更好的男人﹐ 卻不明白﹐ 男人不愛一個女人﹐ 卻遲遲不肯放手﹐ 只是在剝奪她找到一個更愛她的男人的機會。
*帶給你快樂的那個人﹐ 就是也能帶給你痛苦的人。
* 愛一個人﹐ 是你必須有一點兒恨他﹐ 恨他令你無法離開他。
*越想佔有﹐ 越容易失去。 愛是儘量佔有和儘量避免失去之間的平衡。
* 嫉妒可以獨立存在﹐ 但是愛﹐ 必然和嫉妒並存﹐ 正如失望在幸福裡存在。
* 失望﹐ 有時候也是一種幸福﹐ 因為有所期待﹐ 所以才會失望﹐ 因為有愛﹐才會有期待﹐ 所以縱使失望﹐ 也是一種幸福﹐ 雖然這種幸福有點痛。
*不望著令你流淚的東西﹐ 那是唯一可以不流淚的方法。
* 男人偽裝堅強﹐ 只是害怕被女人發現他軟弱。 女人偽裝幸福﹐ 只是害怕被男人發現她傷心。
* 如果有一天﹐ 我們在路上重逢﹐ 而我告訴你﹐ 「我現在很幸福。」﹐ 我一定是偽裝的。 如果只能夠跟你重逢﹐ 而不是共同生活﹐ 那怎麼會幸福呢﹖ 告訴你我很幸福﹐ 只是不想讓你知道其實我很傷心。
*世上最遙遠的距離﹐ 不是生與死的距離﹐ 不是天各一方﹐ 而是我就站在你面前﹐ 你卻不知道我愛你.. * 我們的愛和傷痛﹐ 是因為世上只有一個他。
*世上最無法掩飾的﹐ 是你不愛一個人的時候的那種眼神。
* 如果愛情有十分﹐ 有幾多分是酸﹐ 幾多分是甜﹖ ...是十分的酸﹐ 一分的甜...沒有那十分的酸﹐ 怎見得那一分的甜有多甜﹖
* 愛情使人忘記時間﹐ 時間也使人忘記愛情。
* 喜歡一個人和不喜歡一個人都是因為同一些理由。
* 對一個女人來說﹐ 愛情和承諾是不可分開的﹐ 她愛的是男人的承諾。
* 愛一個跟自己相似的人不算偉大﹐ 愛一個跟自己不相似的人﹐ 才是偉大。
* 女人用愛佔有男人﹐ 男人用佔有來愛女人﹐ 到了後來﹐ 大家都分不出到底是愛還是佔有。
* 歲月流逝﹐ 不變的夢想﹐ 是能夠擁抱自己心愛的人﹐ 也擁抱他的微笑和哭泣
* 每個女人都認為她所愛的男人是最好的。
* 我們從分離的思念中領略相聚的幸福。 我們從被背叛的痛苦中領略忠盏碾y能可貴。 我們從失戀的悲傷中領略長相廝守的深情。
* 有些愛情只是幻像﹐ 我們以為自己不能離開那個人﹐ 後來卻發現﹐ 要離開他﹐ 並沒有想像中那麼困難。 要忘記他﹐ 也幾乎不需要花甚麼功夫。 有些愛情卻不是幻像﹐ 我們以為自己可以忘記那個人﹐ 因為愛情發生的時間只是那麼短暫。 然而﹐ 我們後來卻發現﹐ 要忘記他﹐ 比想象中困難許多。
為何未遇上另一半?
我們常常懷疑自己，明明條件不差，為什麼偏偏沒有另一半； 那些不那麼漂亮，不那麼可愛，不那麼幽默的人， 反而擁有令人羨慕的感情，為什麼呢？
我想 … 是因為 … 我們都太小心、太謹慎、太不敢去愛了吧 …。
我們將自己的感情包裝的好好的， 不讓對方發現， 為了所謂的矜持與害怕， 選擇等待 … 選擇放棄 … 選擇錯過 …為何未遇上另一半?。
偶爾我也會為獨自一人的日子感到空虛， 雖然身邊同性或異性的好朋友總是支持著自己， 卻有種模糊不清的不安全感與不確定感 … 我真的夠好嗎？有時我不禁自我懷疑 …。
面對愛情，處於被動，一向是種最安全的方式， 而且 … 輕鬆 … 於是為了寂寞，為了尋求陪伴， 我們不免會考慮起那些有勇氣對自己表白、先付出心意的人， 無論結局是好是壞 … 對自己的傷害都不那麼大。
因為「是對方追我的」， 因為「我沒有像他喜歡我那麼深。」 被愛很幸福 … 可以接受、可以拒絕、可以有面子。 於是我們總是等著人家來愛， 但是 … 當我們發現沒辦法愛上對方時呢？ 又或是我愛的人永遠都不說愛我呢？ 我該接受那段不期盼的感情， 還是勇於追求自己的幸福呢？
想著過去感情生活的空白， 我發現那時的自己， 既不敢接受愛我的人的情感， 也不肯去追求心動的對象， 只是偷偷希望對方能主動… 難怪 … 我會這麼的寂寞 …。
這是因為 … 我不給別人也不給自己 … 任何的機會 …。
「現在的男孩不是騎士，現在的女孩也不是灰姑娘。」 當我翻起自己高中時代寫的日記時， 心中突然湧起好多的感觸。 過去的傲氣消逝的同時， 有些事卻不曾改變， 現在的男孩確實不一定有勇氣追求自己喜歡的女孩， 現在的女孩也不一定需要等待白馬王子的邀約。
但是 … 在這個大家都那麼脆弱的時代， 或許男男女女都選擇了沉默。 我們在曖昧的界線中遊走，不太近、也不太遠 … 在若有若無的暗示中，期盼對方的回應 …。
我承認我是這樣的 …… 但這樣會錯失多少可能的幸福呢？ 很羨慕很佩服 … 那些勇敢坦率說出自己的心意，表現自己的情感的人。 不管是男孩對女孩，或是女孩對男孩， 他們都對自己諏嵉暮每蓯郏?
或許會為了愛情而興奮得整夜難以成眠， 或許會傷心得淚流滿面， 然而 … 比一再的遺憾 … 來得精彩吧！
我想我們都應該更勇敢些、更堅強點， 不能因為害怕傷害 … 就乾脆不去愛了 …。 喜歡一個人，何必在意先說出口， 想跟一個人牽著手一直一直走下去， 分享自己的喜怒哀愁， 這樣美麗的心情，難得一見 …。
我們都要學著更溫柔 … 對愛我們或我們愛的人 … 認真接受、認真付出， 遺憾與後悔，比什麼都讓人難過。
別讓幸福 … 又由身邊流失了 … 要 … 更珍惜所有的一切!
It is always easy to say to try again after the failures. Maybe...*shrug* Do I still have the courage to love another?
我想 … 是因為 … 我們都太小心、太謹慎、太不敢去愛了吧 …。
我們將自己的感情包裝的好好的， 不讓對方發現， 為了所謂的矜持與害怕， 選擇等待 … 選擇放棄 … 選擇錯過 …為何未遇上另一半?。
偶爾我也會為獨自一人的日子感到空虛， 雖然身邊同性或異性的好朋友總是支持著自己， 卻有種模糊不清的不安全感與不確定感 … 我真的夠好嗎？有時我不禁自我懷疑 …。
面對愛情，處於被動，一向是種最安全的方式， 而且 … 輕鬆 … 於是為了寂寞，為了尋求陪伴， 我們不免會考慮起那些有勇氣對自己表白、先付出心意的人， 無論結局是好是壞 … 對自己的傷害都不那麼大。
因為「是對方追我的」， 因為「我沒有像他喜歡我那麼深。」 被愛很幸福 … 可以接受、可以拒絕、可以有面子。 於是我們總是等著人家來愛， 但是 … 當我們發現沒辦法愛上對方時呢？ 又或是我愛的人永遠都不說愛我呢？ 我該接受那段不期盼的感情， 還是勇於追求自己的幸福呢？
想著過去感情生活的空白， 我發現那時的自己， 既不敢接受愛我的人的情感， 也不肯去追求心動的對象， 只是偷偷希望對方能主動… 難怪 … 我會這麼的寂寞 …。
這是因為 … 我不給別人也不給自己 … 任何的機會 …。
「現在的男孩不是騎士，現在的女孩也不是灰姑娘。」 當我翻起自己高中時代寫的日記時， 心中突然湧起好多的感觸。 過去的傲氣消逝的同時， 有些事卻不曾改變， 現在的男孩確實不一定有勇氣追求自己喜歡的女孩， 現在的女孩也不一定需要等待白馬王子的邀約。
但是 … 在這個大家都那麼脆弱的時代， 或許男男女女都選擇了沉默。 我們在曖昧的界線中遊走，不太近、也不太遠 … 在若有若無的暗示中，期盼對方的回應 …。
我承認我是這樣的 …… 但這樣會錯失多少可能的幸福呢？ 很羨慕很佩服 … 那些勇敢坦率說出自己的心意，表現自己的情感的人。 不管是男孩對女孩，或是女孩對男孩， 他們都對自己諏嵉暮每蓯郏?
或許會為了愛情而興奮得整夜難以成眠， 或許會傷心得淚流滿面， 然而 … 比一再的遺憾 … 來得精彩吧！
我想我們都應該更勇敢些、更堅強點， 不能因為害怕傷害 … 就乾脆不去愛了 …。 喜歡一個人，何必在意先說出口， 想跟一個人牽著手一直一直走下去， 分享自己的喜怒哀愁， 這樣美麗的心情，難得一見 …。
我們都要學著更溫柔 … 對愛我們或我們愛的人 … 認真接受、認真付出， 遺憾與後悔，比什麼都讓人難過。
別讓幸福 … 又由身邊流失了 … 要 … 更珍惜所有的一切!
It is always easy to say to try again after the failures. Maybe...*shrug* Do I still have the courage to love another?
Monday, October 3, 2005
高价收买人性
Was watching a drama yesterday nite about an agent, looking for distressed people to sell their moral. So the story goes whereby a ger who is very kind but in desprate state of financial difficulty. One nite, she was approached by this mysterious man who asked her if she is willing to sell her moral for money. Thinking this was a joke, she was evaluated by a machine of how much her morals were worth. To make the story short, she was tempted by the money and she kept selling bits of her moral like kindness, honesty, integrity, pride, principle whereby a price was tagged to all these attributes. what saved her was her refusal to sell off her family ties which was worth the most. That makes me think..... would anyone sell their moral for money??
Sunday, October 2, 2005
《雾锁南洋》
人世间曾有多少离合悲欢
生命中曾有几许无奈沧桑
雾起在南方 雾落在南方
朝阳可曾藏心坎
过去的记忆你是否已经遗忘
祖先的流离可曾使你惆怅
雾起在南方 雾落在南方
重重迷雾锁南洋
望远方天水茫茫
浓雾中何处是家乡
向远方冲过险滩
浓雾散见我新家乡
过去的记忆世代不可遗忘
祖先的流离使我生命更坚强
雾起在南方 雾落在南方
重重迷雾锁南洋
带希望努力垦荒
带理想开拓新家乡
用希望换取希望
用理想创造新理想
充满信心向前望 不必迷惘
黑暗到了尽头 就会出现曙光
雾起在南方 雾落在南方
朝阳一出迷雾消
Okie, listen to this song again... got a bit of feeling to write liao. This was the main theme of a chinese drama from Singapore, protraying how our forefathers came to this little island, undergoing the WWII and making this their home. Din know how to appreciate when I was young... it was only later then I realise the meaning of 雾锁南洋 - "重重迷雾锁南洋 ". How appropriate to descibe the feelings they had when going thru the war.... Can the 3rd generation of Singaporeans make it? Can we be as strong and brave as our forefathers? 咱们得拭目以待了.........
All those patriotic feelings coming back le..... -_-"
生命中曾有几许无奈沧桑
雾起在南方 雾落在南方
朝阳可曾藏心坎
过去的记忆你是否已经遗忘
祖先的流离可曾使你惆怅
雾起在南方 雾落在南方
重重迷雾锁南洋
望远方天水茫茫
浓雾中何处是家乡
向远方冲过险滩
浓雾散见我新家乡
过去的记忆世代不可遗忘
祖先的流离使我生命更坚强
雾起在南方 雾落在南方
重重迷雾锁南洋
带希望努力垦荒
带理想开拓新家乡
用希望换取希望
用理想创造新理想
充满信心向前望 不必迷惘
黑暗到了尽头 就会出现曙光
雾起在南方 雾落在南方
朝阳一出迷雾消
Okie, listen to this song again... got a bit of feeling to write liao. This was the main theme of a chinese drama from Singapore, protraying how our forefathers came to this little island, undergoing the WWII and making this their home. Din know how to appreciate when I was young... it was only later then I realise the meaning of 雾锁南洋 - "重重迷雾锁南洋 ". How appropriate to descibe the feelings they had when going thru the war.... Can the 3rd generation of Singaporeans make it? Can we be as strong and brave as our forefathers? 咱们得拭目以待了.........
All those patriotic feelings coming back le..... -_-"
世界末日
Hmm..... Bali kana another bombing yesterday.. :( Just as they are picking up the pieces after the 2002 bombings. Who would have expected the terrorists will attack the same place after 3 years? Its gonna take a longer time for Bali to recover than the previous one.
With all the hurricans stoming all over the world, may makes you think the world IS coming to an end. Maybe its time. Look at what the human race has done to mother nature, look at how the humans are killing 1 another, look at how selfish and mighty the human race has placed themselves to be....*shrug* (So not having kids is the correct thing to do... :p)
While people in the affected countries are picking up where they left off before the disaster or preparing for the oncoming ones, we, safe in our own haven are busy minding our own biz and everyday life. Yea, my own 世界末日 is coming!!! In the form of Level 3.. :p Hiaz, anyway, like I said, I haven't been studying th whole week, let nature take its course bah, being too anxious might even hinder your performance..*shrug*
Been picking up crochet again after all these years, heee, gonna keep some to de-stress when I need it in Level 3. Tomorrow is the starting lor..... let me see how I'm going to nuah for today.....
With all the hurricans stoming all over the world, may makes you think the world IS coming to an end. Maybe its time. Look at what the human race has done to mother nature, look at how the humans are killing 1 another, look at how selfish and mighty the human race has placed themselves to be....*shrug* (So not having kids is the correct thing to do... :p)
While people in the affected countries are picking up where they left off before the disaster or preparing for the oncoming ones, we, safe in our own haven are busy minding our own biz and everyday life. Yea, my own 世界末日 is coming!!! In the form of Level 3.. :p Hiaz, anyway, like I said, I haven't been studying th whole week, let nature take its course bah, being too anxious might even hinder your performance..*shrug*
Been picking up crochet again after all these years, heee, gonna keep some to de-stress when I need it in Level 3. Tomorrow is the starting lor..... let me see how I'm going to nuah for today.....
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Nuahing
Tadda!! Guess what? I'm nuahing at home these few days... no studying of my medical textbooks!!! Then it seems like a lot of us are doing catching up with frends before all of us chiong for level 3.... which by that time, we won't have the time even to go toilet..hahaha....
Kay, meeting my sis to help her buy her ROM clothes. Come back and update later....bye!!
Kay, meeting my sis to help her buy her ROM clothes. Come back and update later....bye!!
Thursday, September 22, 2005
下半身是情人
从前，是女人问男人：「我是你甚麽人？」
今天，是男人倒转过来问女人：「我是你甚麽人呢？男朋友？」
不，不是男朋友，因为她已经有男朋友了。
无论她身边有多少男人，只有一个可以称为男朋友。或者，她并没有男朋友，但是，这个正在和她交往的男人，还算不上是男朋友，他还没到达那个境界。
「那麽，是情人吗？」男人问。情人的称号好像有点奇怪吧？似乎只是干那回事的朋友。
「那是情人知己吧？」男人又问。我们爱着并且和他一起生活的男人，又似乎永远不会成为我们的知己。「是好朋友？」男人一脸疑惑。好朋友又不会干那回事！
「难道我是你的儿子？」不！无论年纪多大了，我们还是喜欢做男人的小女孩！我们才不要侍候一个长不大的男人。
「那我到底是甚麽？」男人苦恼地问。现在竟然轮到男人想要名分。
这样吧，你的上半身是好朋友，下半身是情人。
LOL....
今天，是男人倒转过来问女人：「我是你甚麽人呢？男朋友？」
不，不是男朋友，因为她已经有男朋友了。
无论她身边有多少男人，只有一个可以称为男朋友。或者，她并没有男朋友，但是，这个正在和她交往的男人，还算不上是男朋友，他还没到达那个境界。
「那麽，是情人吗？」男人问。情人的称号好像有点奇怪吧？似乎只是干那回事的朋友。
「那是情人知己吧？」男人又问。我们爱着并且和他一起生活的男人，又似乎永远不会成为我们的知己。「是好朋友？」男人一脸疑惑。好朋友又不会干那回事！
「难道我是你的儿子？」不！无论年纪多大了，我们还是喜欢做男人的小女孩！我们才不要侍候一个长不大的男人。
「那我到底是甚麽？」男人苦恼地问。现在竟然轮到男人想要名分。
这样吧，你的上半身是好朋友，下半身是情人。
LOL....
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Last duty before the D day
Yo, last nite was the last duty I had before I go for my level 3 training. Yeah!! And guess what? The very last case was a collapsed case.... really wanna make me work before letting me off to relac *rolleyes*. Anyway, now I very scared of the "collapsed smell". Ever noticed that there is a stench emmitting from the patients?? Think recently too many collapse liao, just now when I went to SGH for my eye review, I caught a whif of that smell and it almost make me puke.. duhzzz.... glad that I can take some time off...
Yeah, can nuah at home from tml onwards liao, of cos must also read up along the way lar... can't wait for tml... :D
Yeah, can nuah at home from tml onwards liao, of cos must also read up along the way lar... can't wait for tml... :D
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Choices
I am typing here in the afternoon. Went for a KTV session last nite with Tam and the gers. They were celebrating for 2 of Tam's frend. Well, before the KTV, I was working out in the gym. Wah, this morning wake up whole body aching ar... but its good, that shows my mucles were being toned. But the catch was, after the gym session, I was snacking all the way in the KTV room.. -_-".. there goes the effort of my workout.
Sometimes I am very confuse. Shall I carry on being me and not change or shall I change cos that might be more acceptable and my original character is a bit difficult to survived in a community. Sometimes I really think ppl should not think so much, but like a lot of ppl say, no man's an island. You are still subjected to the community and the people around you. I also wish to be indiviual and do what I want. But I can't.
Why am I having this kinda conflict now? I used to be very sure of myself and have my own set of thinking. Izzit the older you are, the more you will think for ppl ard you? If I can managed to change my expectation, maybe I can go back to Charlie, cos no matter who you are with, these are still the fundumental issue that I have to deal with.
Sometimes having too many choices is no good too, you will be confuse. Being in the sales, we were taught you shouldn't give your customer too many choices, they will be confused. Select 1 or 2 or 3 that meets their requirement and leave it as that.
Guess its the same with people bah. No need say to have 3 lar, 2 is enough to give you a big headache liao *rolleyes*. Maybe that is why I am always in a r/s bah, cos I no need to headache abt this kinda thing. You just make sure you are faithful to that 1 person can liao. The rest can stand 1 side.
*Footnote: Just realised I have repeated "confused" quite a no. of times in the entry....hmmm.... I really am confused -_-"...
Sometimes I am very confuse. Shall I carry on being me and not change or shall I change cos that might be more acceptable and my original character is a bit difficult to survived in a community. Sometimes I really think ppl should not think so much, but like a lot of ppl say, no man's an island. You are still subjected to the community and the people around you. I also wish to be indiviual and do what I want. But I can't.
Why am I having this kinda conflict now? I used to be very sure of myself and have my own set of thinking. Izzit the older you are, the more you will think for ppl ard you? If I can managed to change my expectation, maybe I can go back to Charlie, cos no matter who you are with, these are still the fundumental issue that I have to deal with.
Sometimes having too many choices is no good too, you will be confuse. Being in the sales, we were taught you shouldn't give your customer too many choices, they will be confused. Select 1 or 2 or 3 that meets their requirement and leave it as that.
Guess its the same with people bah. No need say to have 3 lar, 2 is enough to give you a big headache liao *rolleyes*. Maybe that is why I am always in a r/s bah, cos I no need to headache abt this kinda thing. You just make sure you are faithful to that 1 person can liao. The rest can stand 1 side.
*Footnote: Just realised I have repeated "confused" quite a no. of times in the entry....hmmm.... I really am confused -_-"...
Friday, September 16, 2005
Shit happens ...
Confucianism: Confucius say: "Shit happens".
Buddhism: If shit happens, it's not really shit.
Islam: If shit happens, it's the will of Allah.
Judaism: Why does this shit always happen to us?
Hinduism: This shit happened in my last life too.
Protestantism: Shit happens cause you don't work hard enough.
Catholicism: Shit happens because you are bad.
Zen: What is the sound of one shit happening?
Episcopalianism: How Dare Shit Happen?
Calvinism: Shit that doesn't stink is a sign of being saved.
Moonies: Only happy shit happens.
Christian Science: Shit is in your mind.
Agnosticism: Maybe shit happens, maybe it doesn't.
Jehova's Witnesses: Let us in and we'll tell you why shit happens.
Rastafarianism: Let's smoke this shit.
Mormonism: Shit happens in both the old world and the new world.
Lutheranism: Have faith in shit.
Baptism: Say Hallelujah to the shit.
Scientology: Extraterrestrials brought the shit.
Hare Krishna: Shit Happens, Shit Happens, Shit Shit Happens Happens, Shit Happens, Rama Rama.
Atheism: No shit.
Taoism: Shit happens.
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Whahaha.... hmm... Shit Happens! :p
Buddhism: If shit happens, it's not really shit.
Islam: If shit happens, it's the will of Allah.
Judaism: Why does this shit always happen to us?
Hinduism: This shit happened in my last life too.
Protestantism: Shit happens cause you don't work hard enough.
Catholicism: Shit happens because you are bad.
Zen: What is the sound of one shit happening?
Episcopalianism: How Dare Shit Happen?
Calvinism: Shit that doesn't stink is a sign of being saved.
Moonies: Only happy shit happens.
Christian Science: Shit is in your mind.
Agnosticism: Maybe shit happens, maybe it doesn't.
Jehova's Witnesses: Let us in and we'll tell you why shit happens.
Rastafarianism: Let's smoke this shit.
Mormonism: Shit happens in both the old world and the new world.
Lutheranism: Have faith in shit.
Baptism: Say Hallelujah to the shit.
Scientology: Extraterrestrials brought the shit.
Hare Krishna: Shit Happens, Shit Happens, Shit Shit Happens Happens, Shit Happens, Rama Rama.
Atheism: No shit.
Taoism: Shit happens.
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Whahaha.... hmm... Shit Happens! :p
Emily's Wedding
Yo, just came back from Emily's wedding. Whew, the first of our group to marry off liao, who will be the next? :p Wahaha... find that recently those frends ard me are all single. I was toking with Tam the other day that we should organise a party and invite all our single frends to come togther for a night of un... good idea rite?? Then is successful, we can even open a date matching agency... hahaha. Maybe can just make it happen.. really what, see Qingying and gang lar, Tam and gang lar, PMs and gang lar.. and their frends.. hmmm
Then today followed Ravinder for calls... hahaha.. guess what? The first call of the case is a collapse and imagine it.. at the polyclinic!! Sudden collapse, no medical history, just complaint of chest discomfort since last nite and after the polyclinic doc administer some medication to her, she collapse! Resus her all the way to hospital, attempted LMA, seems to go in liao leh, but oscillator cannot pass thru and no raise and fall of chest. Took out the LMA and lots of vomitters came out... though we already suctioned it a few times....
After that, another collapse case, but this time when we arrived, dead on arrival liao. Seems to notice and all collapsed patients opened their mouth and skin is damn pale. Sigh.......
Just another day...
Then today followed Ravinder for calls... hahaha.. guess what? The first call of the case is a collapse and imagine it.. at the polyclinic!! Sudden collapse, no medical history, just complaint of chest discomfort since last nite and after the polyclinic doc administer some medication to her, she collapse! Resus her all the way to hospital, attempted LMA, seems to go in liao leh, but oscillator cannot pass thru and no raise and fall of chest. Took out the LMA and lots of vomitters came out... though we already suctioned it a few times....
After that, another collapse case, but this time when we arrived, dead on arrival liao. Seems to notice and all collapsed patients opened their mouth and skin is damn pale. Sigh.......
Just another day...
Friday, September 9, 2005
What the @$%$
The interdependence relationship between people is really strange. On one 1 hand you dun wish to be involve in relationship, but you can't stop the nagging tots of looking for a companion. And like I always believed, there is very little chances of pure platonic friendship between the 2 genders. If you are always hanging around another person and getting very involve in each other's life, and it never crossed your mind to be romantically involved with that person, are you leading someone on? And to have to choose between 2 persons whom you might have feelings for, isn't it a very tough choice? 爱情,有了麻烦,没了也麻烦..... Haizzz. What the &#%^@ ..
My frend is rite. Maybe I should just wait for the guy who can accept my "strong" personality and not be intimidated by me. For someone to accept me for a challange, he should be quite strong in character too bah.... :p
My frend is rite. Maybe I should just wait for the guy who can accept my "strong" personality and not be intimidated by me. For someone to accept me for a challange, he should be quite strong in character too bah.... :p
Reflection
Went for a very meaningful dinner date with a frend. We toked abt somethings that makes me rethink abt myself and to confront my fears and doubts. Guess there are a few issues that I have to take up with myself and deal with it. I know what they are and where the problem lies. I just need to overcome them.... and most importantly, I must be able to cross my own barrier which is often the most difficult.
And I also realised something today, though it has been said over and over again... you must see a person with your heart. What you see may not be the whole truth......
And I also realised something today, though it has been said over and over again... you must see a person with your heart. What you see may not be the whole truth......
Tuesday, September 6, 2005
Miss.... your name?
Hmm.... was not very happy with my calls today, especially the chest pain one... so sad!! :(
Haizz... dun talk abt it liao.
Did I update that someone tried to hit on me that day when I was at National Library? Eh, well, he tried to get friendly with me and wanted my no. too... but nope, I am not one who will give my nos. freely, much less a stranger!! Not to mention he looks a bit old and not tall, dark and handsome...*rolleyes* If he were, I might consider.... :p
Got another episode today when I was taking MRT home from work. Someone came up from behind and commented that my bag is cute..hmmm. Eh, my bag is quite common lor... not need to find this kinda topic as a conversation starter bah... -_-". Anyway, introduced myself since he introduced himself and he started asking me if I am still schooling... (translate = I look like a school ger *YEAH* !!) I was huh? Eh... I working liao.. Is he thinking that school gers more guilible?!?!? Said he lived around here and never see me before.... what the duhzzzz.....but this 1 condition better than the other one..Oops.. :p
Hmm.... why am I getting all this unwanted attention recently while those that I wanted them to notice me din??? Its so fustrating!! >:(
Haizz... dun talk abt it liao.
Did I update that someone tried to hit on me that day when I was at National Library? Eh, well, he tried to get friendly with me and wanted my no. too... but nope, I am not one who will give my nos. freely, much less a stranger!! Not to mention he looks a bit old and not tall, dark and handsome...*rolleyes* If he were, I might consider.... :p
Got another episode today when I was taking MRT home from work. Someone came up from behind and commented that my bag is cute..hmmm. Eh, my bag is quite common lor... not need to find this kinda topic as a conversation starter bah... -_-". Anyway, introduced myself since he introduced himself and he started asking me if I am still schooling... (translate = I look like a school ger *YEAH* !!) I was huh? Eh... I working liao.. Is he thinking that school gers more guilible?!?!? Said he lived around here and never see me before.... what the duhzzzz.....but this 1 condition better than the other one..Oops.. :p
Hmm.... why am I getting all this unwanted attention recently while those that I wanted them to notice me din??? Its so fustrating!! >:(
Monday, September 5, 2005
阴魂不散的野鬼
阴魂不散的男人是最可怕的。
你和他分手已经两年零八个月了，他仍然每隔几天就打电话给你，求你跟他复合，每半个月，就写一封信给你点。1921年浙江图书馆出版二十四卷本，内容较少，1922年，求你回到他身边。
为了避开他，你不惜把工作辞去，搬家，更改电话号码和传呼机号码，然而而已”。第一次提出“辩证逻辑”的概念及其原则：自然界和，任你多么努力，他还是有本事找到你。
你找到一份新的工作，以为从此可以避开他，谁知道有一天，他的电话突然打到你的办公室来，吓了你一跳。神通广大的他的安排。，一听到你的声音，差点就喜极而泣，好像为再次逮着你而高兴。
你冷冷的问他找你有什么事，他竟然可以若无其事，忘了你已经和他分手，又再约会你，你拒绝跟他见面“安排”了世界的一切，“如果心灵是支配者，那末心灵将把，他楚楚可怜地说：“我迟些再找你，但是不要忘记，我仍然爱着你。”
这种男人，你即使跟他再说一千遍你们已经完了，都是没用的。你冷淡对待他，他会消失。你以为他从此消失，你就高兴得太早了。他蛰伏一段日子，又会扑出来，吓你一跳，像极了阴魂不散的孤魂野鬼。
你算算日子，已经和他分手三年零四个月了，他无论如何也应该死心吧？不，他依然阴魂不散。每年你的生日、圣诞、新年，你首先收到的，不是你男朋友的祝贺，而是这个阴魂酸溜溜的一句：“希望你快乐，我仍然是爱你的。”
他不会伤害你，你不用害怕。他不是厉鬼，不会跟你同归于尽。他是没气力投胎的野鬼，他会一直跟在你身后，躲一躲，然后又突然出现。
在他找到另外一个可以托付的肉身之前，他会不停乞求你收留他，你休想摆脱他。世上最希望他投胎的，大概就是你，只有当他找到爱情，再世为人，他的阴魂才会放过你。
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Hahahaha.... anyone kana that before??? :p
你和他分手已经两年零八个月了，他仍然每隔几天就打电话给你，求你跟他复合，每半个月，就写一封信给你点。1921年浙江图书馆出版二十四卷本，内容较少，1922年，求你回到他身边。
为了避开他，你不惜把工作辞去，搬家，更改电话号码和传呼机号码，然而而已”。第一次提出“辩证逻辑”的概念及其原则：自然界和，任你多么努力，他还是有本事找到你。
你找到一份新的工作，以为从此可以避开他，谁知道有一天，他的电话突然打到你的办公室来，吓了你一跳。神通广大的他的安排。，一听到你的声音，差点就喜极而泣，好像为再次逮着你而高兴。
你冷冷的问他找你有什么事，他竟然可以若无其事，忘了你已经和他分手，又再约会你，你拒绝跟他见面“安排”了世界的一切，“如果心灵是支配者，那末心灵将把，他楚楚可怜地说：“我迟些再找你，但是不要忘记，我仍然爱着你。”
这种男人，你即使跟他再说一千遍你们已经完了，都是没用的。你冷淡对待他，他会消失。你以为他从此消失，你就高兴得太早了。他蛰伏一段日子，又会扑出来，吓你一跳，像极了阴魂不散的孤魂野鬼。
你算算日子，已经和他分手三年零四个月了，他无论如何也应该死心吧？不，他依然阴魂不散。每年你的生日、圣诞、新年，你首先收到的，不是你男朋友的祝贺，而是这个阴魂酸溜溜的一句：“希望你快乐，我仍然是爱你的。”
他不会伤害你，你不用害怕。他不是厉鬼，不会跟你同归于尽。他是没气力投胎的野鬼，他会一直跟在你身后，躲一躲，然后又突然出现。
在他找到另外一个可以托付的肉身之前，他会不停乞求你收留他，你休想摆脱他。世上最希望他投胎的，大概就是你，只有当他找到爱情，再世为人，他的阴魂才会放过你。
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Hahahaha.... anyone kana that before??? :p
不对等的热情
感情的事很奇怪。你很投入的时候，对方很抽离。你很抽离的时候，对方又偏偏很投入。
你对这段情很投入，可是对方对你一直也有点保留。你很爱他，他却不知道他爱你有多深。你们的热情并不对等。最后，他离开了，你一个人伤心地过日子。
某年某天某地，你碰到另一个人，他爱上了你，他对你很好。这一次，却是你不够投入。你不是不爱他，只是你不知道自己爱他有多深。经过上一段感情创伤，你变得有所保留，你比以前冷静得多，你不再相信承诺，不再相信这个人会永远爱你，也不再相信他会给你幸福。他愈投入，你愈抽离。
你很清楚知道这样对他不公平，但你没办法。为什么在你未受伤害之前没有遇上他？为什么在你对感情百分百投入的时候，没有遇上他？为什么他偏偏在你不信任感情的时候出现？
刚好两个人都百分百投入，原来是不容易的。
每个人都有自己的一段历史，我们最好在适当的时候相遇。一个投入的人碰上一个疏离的人，结局只有分手。下一次，我希望我们和遇的时间会好一点。
That always happens.... doesn't it?
你对这段情很投入，可是对方对你一直也有点保留。你很爱他，他却不知道他爱你有多深。你们的热情并不对等。最后，他离开了，你一个人伤心地过日子。
某年某天某地，你碰到另一个人，他爱上了你，他对你很好。这一次，却是你不够投入。你不是不爱他，只是你不知道自己爱他有多深。经过上一段感情创伤，你变得有所保留，你比以前冷静得多，你不再相信承诺，不再相信这个人会永远爱你，也不再相信他会给你幸福。他愈投入，你愈抽离。
你很清楚知道这样对他不公平，但你没办法。为什么在你未受伤害之前没有遇上他？为什么在你对感情百分百投入的时候，没有遇上他？为什么他偏偏在你不信任感情的时候出现？
刚好两个人都百分百投入，原来是不容易的。
每个人都有自己的一段历史，我们最好在适当的时候相遇。一个投入的人碰上一个疏离的人，结局只有分手。下一次，我希望我们和遇的时间会好一点。
That always happens.... doesn't it?
Saturday, September 3, 2005
Something about feelings
Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for you're best friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else?
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid.... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie...the thing we fear grows stronger.
Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them...when the moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them?
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart ... but if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or that all Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had.
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Was thinking should I post this piece here...... still I did it. :)
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid.... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie...the thing we fear grows stronger.
Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them...when the moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them?
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart ... but if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or that all Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had.
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Was thinking should I post this piece here...... still I did it. :)
Decreasing Divorce Rate
Remembered there was 1 prev entry that I've read how a contract should be drawn as "Time Limited Marriage" so as to decease the divorce rate in Sinagpore?
Here's another 1 for you....
How to solve increase in divorce cases:
1. Don't get married.
2 . Make it difficult to get married.
3. Make it very costly and difficult to get a divorce.
4. Whoever wants to win in a divorce case, make that party lose.
5. Take back their HDB flat - don't allow them to sell at a profit.
6. Disqualify them from getting married again for at least 10 years.
7. If they want to remarry, they have to attend courses, and get a certificate to prove that they are now qualified to get married.
8. Make them lose their jobs - employers bar divorcees from jobs.
9. Take away their children, if any, and put them in govt hostels.
10. Make them become like a bankrupt.
Haaaa.... a bit extreme hor?? Hope they dun even think of implementing it.... :p
Here's another 1 for you....
How to solve increase in divorce cases:
1. Don't get married.
2 . Make it difficult to get married.
3. Make it very costly and difficult to get a divorce.
4. Whoever wants to win in a divorce case, make that party lose.
5. Take back their HDB flat - don't allow them to sell at a profit.
6. Disqualify them from getting married again for at least 10 years.
7. If they want to remarry, they have to attend courses, and get a certificate to prove that they are now qualified to get married.
8. Make them lose their jobs - employers bar divorcees from jobs.
9. Take away their children, if any, and put them in govt hostels.
10. Make them become like a bankrupt.
Haaaa.... a bit extreme hor?? Hope they dun even think of implementing it.... :p
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
My first trap case
Haaa... finally got a trapped case just before going to lvl 3. :p Though the patient was not exactly trapped lar, but he was stucked underneth the bus when his bike collide with the bus. Luckily patient still alive, just suffered some broken bones and abrasions. If not I sweat ar!!! So I went under the bus also and assessed the patient, calmed him all the way while the firemen moved him out from under the bus. A very good experience, but I din do very well for this call... :( I wasn't focused enough... anyway, do hope that I can attend a few more of these cases so as to better prepare myself...
Haizzz, I wish I could burn the whole protocol book and drink it down!!! ARGGG.... anybody got a way for the info to be diffuse into my brain (cos its from a region of higher concentration to lower concentration) :p duhzzzz......
Got a chest pain patient, shit, I din managed to diagnose it initally *wallbash* Gotta study and study and study HARD!!
Haizzz, I wish I could burn the whole protocol book and drink it down!!! ARGGG.... anybody got a way for the info to be diffuse into my brain (cos its from a region of higher concentration to lower concentration) :p duhzzzz......
Got a chest pain patient, shit, I din managed to diagnose it initally *wallbash* Gotta study and study and study HARD!!
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
精神粮食day
Went to watch March of the Penguins with Charlie yesterday. A very nice french documentry on the procreation of the Emperor Penguins in the Antarctic. It sure take them lots of pain and effort just to ensure the survivability of their species.
They have to brave through hunger, snow storm just to have that little glimpse of hope that their off-springs will developed alright. The witty narrations of the 2 penguins is entertaining... haaa. And you can't help but smile at the movement of the birds and the new chicks are soooo.... cute that you wish you could curdle 1 of them.... :)
A recommended show, even if you dun like documentry, this particular 1 is shot in such a way that you are looking at a story and not just a normal narration like your discovery channel...
Have been listening to Pink Martini's album these few days. Hmm.... really really nice..... :)
They have to brave through hunger, snow storm just to have that little glimpse of hope that their off-springs will developed alright. The witty narrations of the 2 penguins is entertaining... haaa. And you can't help but smile at the movement of the birds and the new chicks are soooo.... cute that you wish you could curdle 1 of them.... :)
A recommended show, even if you dun like documentry, this particular 1 is shot in such a way that you are looking at a story and not just a normal narration like your discovery channel...
Yesterday was a very happy day for me. Why? Cos I walked into 商务印书馆 and bought 2 张小娴 's 散文精选. Haaa... long time never feed my mind le. Yesterday was a day for replanishing of my 精神粮食! Somemore the book shop was playing chinese classical.....wahhh.... shiok siah. Guess I will also have to go to the library to pick up some classical CDs le. :p
Have been listening to Pink Martini's album these few days. Hmm.... really really nice..... :)
Saturday, August 27, 2005
女人和她妈妈
女人和自己的妈妈最投契的时候应该是在她嫁人之后。在反叛的青春期，女孩子觉得妈妈说什么都是错的。
妈妈说：“男人都是花心的。”
女儿就反驳：“你不能把你的经验套在我身上，我喜欢的男人是与众不同的。”
妈妈说：“选男人要选一个有经济基础的，不要嫁穷小子。”
女儿不满地说：“妈妈你太势利，我可以跟他一起捱。”
妈妈说：“这个男人靠不住。”
女儿说：“我比你了解他，你怎么狗眼看人低？”
妈妈说：“不要太早嫁人，一嫁了人，你就失去了自由。”
女儿说：“妈妈你不也是很年轻就嫁给爸爸吗？”
女儿告诉妈妈：“我要嫁给这个男人。”
妈妈劝她：“你不需要考虑一下吗？”
女儿说：“我现在就要嫁给他。”
女人做了别人的太太之后，终于明白妈妈从前所说的，原来都是真的。她发现丈夫和她爸爸竟然出奇地相像，他们都拥有同一堆缺点和劣根性。男人，原来都是同一个样子的。婚前婚后，完全是两个人。
于是，母女见面，各自数落自己的丈夫，数得咬牙切齿。母女两人，经过了那么多日子，终于心灵相通，十分投契。而旁观的爸爸和女婿，也终于发现，女人都是同一个样子，她们最终都会变成她自己妈妈或你妈妈。
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妈妈说：“男人都是花心的。”
女儿就反驳：“你不能把你的经验套在我身上，我喜欢的男人是与众不同的。”
妈妈说：“选男人要选一个有经济基础的，不要嫁穷小子。”
女儿不满地说：“妈妈你太势利，我可以跟他一起捱。”
妈妈说：“这个男人靠不住。”
女儿说：“我比你了解他，你怎么狗眼看人低？”
妈妈说：“不要太早嫁人，一嫁了人，你就失去了自由。”
女儿说：“妈妈你不也是很年轻就嫁给爸爸吗？”
女儿告诉妈妈：“我要嫁给这个男人。”
妈妈劝她：“你不需要考虑一下吗？”
女儿说：“我现在就要嫁给他。”
女人做了别人的太太之后，终于明白妈妈从前所说的，原来都是真的。她发现丈夫和她爸爸竟然出奇地相像，他们都拥有同一堆缺点和劣根性。男人，原来都是同一个样子的。婚前婚后，完全是两个人。
于是，母女见面，各自数落自己的丈夫，数得咬牙切齿。母女两人，经过了那么多日子，终于心灵相通，十分投契。而旁观的爸爸和女婿，也终于发现，女人都是同一个样子，她们最终都会变成她自己妈妈或你妈妈。
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Updates
Okay guys, hmm... let's do some updating.
Adolescent
Was doing some reading of other bloggers entries. Hmm... noticed 1 trend, how come we always like to give pet names and identities like Hubby, Wify, Daughters, Sons, Grandma, Grandpa etc etc to our frends leh?? That's what my sis did when she was in her teens too... Did I do that?? Hmm.... dun think so bah. Anyone can tell me the reason why??
Training
Lvl 3 is coming soon!!! Guess all of us are hugging the Buddha's leg....hahahhaa. Nothing special on my recent calls. Was thinking I long time never go RTA case le and guess what? I had 3 yesterday...haaa. But nothing serious. Samantha covered us and the case she got was also RTA, trapped case (I've never been to a trapped case before :( ) and it was a DOA case. She was describing to me how his whole leg was crashed.... I wanna go for it!! Hump....
Yesterday was counselling day, got a assualt case whereby the woman was hit on the nose by the boyfrend. Actually can refuse conveyance de, but dun know why it just never occurred to me to bring out the Refuse Conveyance Form, maybe it was due to the training bah, or something in that woman prevent me from doing that. So I just sent her and tried talking to her (I tried okay, but most of the time I dun know what to say so end up asking abt her injuries :p) en-route to hospital and she was crying the whole time. Wow... other than taking care of their injuries and illness, we must play Aunt Agony too....*rolleyes*. Then another was a psy case whereby he called the ambulance himself complaining of headache and difficulty in breathing. His mother was so surprised to see us at her doorstep. Check on the patient and tried digging some info from him. Found out that he was a psy patient and he was fustrated that nobody cares abt him. Played Aunt Agony to him and his family and whipped out the Refused Conveyance Form..... haizzz... there really is a increase in psy cases in Singapore liao. Remember when I was doing manpower posting, 1 batch of new recruits dun know how many got cases one. And mind you, they are usually the 'A' Levels students lor...
After toking so much, I am still looking forward to passing my course and start running the ambulance. It's so exciting and scary at the same time.... :p
Belated Birdday Present
Haa... got a surprised yesterday when Donanvan and Shuan passed me a bag. It was my belated bday present! What a pleasant surprise.... it was a pair of OP slippers, just nice when I go for my sun tanning seesion next. It's hot pink in color and goes with my bikini... :p
Okie, guess this is quite a long entry..... pen off now. Chaozz..
Adolescent
Was doing some reading of other bloggers entries. Hmm... noticed 1 trend, how come we always like to give pet names and identities like Hubby, Wify, Daughters, Sons, Grandma, Grandpa etc etc to our frends leh?? That's what my sis did when she was in her teens too... Did I do that?? Hmm.... dun think so bah. Anyone can tell me the reason why??
Training
Lvl 3 is coming soon!!! Guess all of us are hugging the Buddha's leg....hahahhaa. Nothing special on my recent calls. Was thinking I long time never go RTA case le and guess what? I had 3 yesterday...haaa. But nothing serious. Samantha covered us and the case she got was also RTA, trapped case (I've never been to a trapped case before :( ) and it was a DOA case. She was describing to me how his whole leg was crashed.... I wanna go for it!! Hump....
Yesterday was counselling day, got a assualt case whereby the woman was hit on the nose by the boyfrend. Actually can refuse conveyance de, but dun know why it just never occurred to me to bring out the Refuse Conveyance Form, maybe it was due to the training bah, or something in that woman prevent me from doing that. So I just sent her and tried talking to her (I tried okay, but most of the time I dun know what to say so end up asking abt her injuries :p) en-route to hospital and she was crying the whole time. Wow... other than taking care of their injuries and illness, we must play Aunt Agony too....*rolleyes*. Then another was a psy case whereby he called the ambulance himself complaining of headache and difficulty in breathing. His mother was so surprised to see us at her doorstep. Check on the patient and tried digging some info from him. Found out that he was a psy patient and he was fustrated that nobody cares abt him. Played Aunt Agony to him and his family and whipped out the Refused Conveyance Form..... haizzz... there really is a increase in psy cases in Singapore liao. Remember when I was doing manpower posting, 1 batch of new recruits dun know how many got cases one. And mind you, they are usually the 'A' Levels students lor...
After toking so much, I am still looking forward to passing my course and start running the ambulance. It's so exciting and scary at the same time.... :p
Belated Birdday Present
Haa... got a surprised yesterday when Donanvan and Shuan passed me a bag. It was my belated bday present! What a pleasant surprise.... it was a pair of OP slippers, just nice when I go for my sun tanning seesion next. It's hot pink in color and goes with my bikini... :p
Okie, guess this is quite a long entry..... pen off now. Chaozz..
The 30 day game
Message: Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in the park one night....
Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world
Jasmine: I think so... All of my friends have boyfriends and we are only the 2 persons left in this world without any special person in our lives
Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: i'll be your girl friend for 30 days and you will be my boy friend
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact i don't anything to do for the following weeks...
DAY 1:
They watch their first movie and they both touched in a romantic film
DAY 4:
They went to the beach and have a picnic...
Daniel and Jasmine have their quality time together
DAY 12:
Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they rideon a Horror House....
Jasmine was scaredand she touched Daniel's hand but she touchedsomeone else's hand and they both laughed...
DAY 15:
They saw a fortune teller down the road and they asked for their future advice and the fortune teller said: "My darling, Please don't wastethe time of your life... SPend the rest of your timetogether happily" Then tears flow out from the teller's eyes
DAY 20:
Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor...
Jasmine mumbled something
DAY 28:
They sat on the bus and because of a bumbyroad Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident
DAY 29:
11:37pm
Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where theyfirst decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road
Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all
Daniel: Wait for me....
20mins later... a stranger approached Jasmine
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel and he is critical in the hospital
11:57pm
The doctor went out of the emergency room and he handed out an apple
juice and a letter
Doctor: We found this in daniel's pocket
Jasmine reads the letter and it says:
Remember that night when we saw a meteor, I mumbled something...
I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and never end this game.
Please don't leave me Daniel.... I love you!
You cannot do this to me!"
Then the clock strikes 12Daniel's heart stop pumping
THEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY........
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Too drama? But there is always this small part of us yielding for that bit of romance... :)
Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world
Jasmine: I think so... All of my friends have boyfriends and we are only the 2 persons left in this world without any special person in our lives
Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: i'll be your girl friend for 30 days and you will be my boy friend
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact i don't anything to do for the following weeks...
DAY 1:
They watch their first movie and they both touched in a romantic film
DAY 4:
They went to the beach and have a picnic...
Daniel and Jasmine have their quality time together
DAY 12:
Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they rideon a Horror House....
Jasmine was scaredand she touched Daniel's hand but she touchedsomeone else's hand and they both laughed...
DAY 15:
They saw a fortune teller down the road and they asked for their future advice and the fortune teller said: "My darling, Please don't wastethe time of your life... SPend the rest of your timetogether happily" Then tears flow out from the teller's eyes
DAY 20:
Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor...
Jasmine mumbled something
DAY 28:
They sat on the bus and because of a bumbyroad Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident
DAY 29:
11:37pm
Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where theyfirst decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road
Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all
Daniel: Wait for me....
20mins later... a stranger approached Jasmine
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel and he is critical in the hospital
11:57pm
The doctor went out of the emergency room and he handed out an apple
juice and a letter
Doctor: We found this in daniel's pocket
Jasmine reads the letter and it says:
Jasmine, This past few days, i realized you are a really cute girlJasmine crumples the paper and shouted:"Daniel ! i don't want you to die... I love you...
and i am really falling for you..
Your cherish smile your everything when weplayed this game.....
Before this game would end...I would like you to be my girl friend for
the rest of my life....
I love you Jasmine....
Remember that night when we saw a meteor, I mumbled something...
I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and never end this game.
Please don't leave me Daniel.... I love you!
You cannot do this to me!"
Then the clock strikes 12Daniel's heart stop pumping
THEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY........
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Too drama? But there is always this small part of us yielding for that bit of romance... :)
Salty Coffee
He met her on a party, she was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her,while he was so normal, nobody paid attention to him. At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to politeness, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me back home. Suddenly he asked the waiter: would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.
Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but, still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously: why you have this hobby? He replied: when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could felt the taste of the sea, salty and bite, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I will think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who were still living there. Saying that, tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart"A man who can tell out his homesick, he must be a man loves homhometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, he, cares about home, has responsibility of home," she thought.
Then she also started to talk, talked about her faraway also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continue to date. She found actually he was a man who meets all her demands: he was tolerance, kind hearted, warm, careful...he was such a good guy but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee. Then the story was just like every beautiful love story: the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life...And, every time she made coffee for hicoffee!m, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you, the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It's hard for me to change so I just go ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste..but I have the salty coffee for my whole life since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life.
If I can live for the second time, I still want to know you and have you as my whole life wife, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."
Her tears made the letter totally wet.
Someday, someone asked her: What's the taste of salty coffee? It's sweet. She replied
Got this from an entry of a fellow blogger http://hapsion69.ebloggy.com/
Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but, still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously: why you have this hobby? He replied: when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could felt the taste of the sea, salty and bite, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I will think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who were still living there. Saying that, tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart"A man who can tell out his homesick, he must be a man loves homhometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, he, cares about home, has responsibility of home," she thought.
Then she also started to talk, talked about her faraway also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continue to date. She found actually he was a man who meets all her demands: he was tolerance, kind hearted, warm, careful...he was such a good guy but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee. Then the story was just like every beautiful love story: the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life...And, every time she made coffee for hicoffee!m, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you, the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It's hard for me to change so I just go ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste..but I have the salty coffee for my whole life since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life.
If I can live for the second time, I still want to know you and have you as my whole life wife, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."
Her tears made the letter totally wet.
Someday, someone asked her: What's the taste of salty coffee? It's sweet. She replied
Got this from an entry of a fellow blogger http://hapsion69.ebloggy.com/
Friday, August 26, 2005
Service Culture & Education in Singapore
Our PM just delivered his National Day Rally Speech on 21 Aug 05. For myself, it is most heartening to know that our leaders are looking into the service sector and the education of our people. It is time for us to focus and remake Singapore.
Service Culture
Being in the service sector myself before, I know exactly how it was to be at the other end. It is so tiring to be rushing here and there and to stand ard (I was a waitress in a restuarant) and the least that you hope is a customer throwing abuses at you!
Actually the root problem for good customer service is the attitude. Like what PM has said, not only the employees must change, the employers and customers must also be prepared to have new perception of the service industry. The whole concept of service industry is of lower level should be corrected. Parents should stop discouraging their young abt how low level the service industry can be. And most importantly, to be courteous to anyone including those serving you. Though good customer service is important, the customers themselves will have to reflect on themselves too. Do they also view those serving them as 2nd class and throw their weight ard? It won't be so hard to show your appreciation by saying "thank you", "please" to those serving you rite? Good customer gets good service. Do what you expect of ppl by starting it yourself.
Education
I am also very glad that the leaders are looking into this problem after so long with so many children being the victims of this education system. Myself included. All along, those late developers are always looked down upon, many times not by themselves, but the people ard them. Children are susceptible to how people view them it is uptmost important to get acceptance from those ard them. I was lucky to be with the mass during my schooling time being in normal stream (note there was only normal, extended and 1 I couldn't remember in my time) in Pri school, Express stream in Sec school and I choose to go Poly after my 'O' levels. Luckily by the time I went poly, the peception that it is only for those who couldn't get into Junior Colleges has changed. Poly graduates are are much valued in the workforce. But my sister was not so lucky.
She is a late developer and in terms of academic, not as good as me or my bro, but.. she is very good with her hands. Being sent to Normal Technical stream after her PSLE further dampen her spirit in her studies. The teachers in her school were not helpful either, infact they pushed her further away from the main stream. Maybe the attitude of my sister played a part, but the fact that the teachers constantly speaking down to them, comparing them with the Express and Normal Academic stream is not helping in their self-esteem. As what my sis compliant to me before, the teachers just leave it to them to study, they are not even willing to put extra effort to explain the lessons to them at a slower pace and show more concern for them. Although there are teacher out there who will go all out for this group of children, just 1 insensitive soul is enough to send them into despair and cause them to discount their worth. This is in fact like the Yellow Ribbon movement for the ex-convicts. If people want to improve, shouldn't we encourage them, give them a chance rather than sending them down into the spiral of vicious cycle?
Not everyone has a strong might and determination to overcome adversities especially so without the support and encouragment from those ard them. By at least creating an environment and hope for them to find their worth, not necessary in terms of just studying is already a very good step towards increasing their self-esteem.
Service Culture
Being in the service sector myself before, I know exactly how it was to be at the other end. It is so tiring to be rushing here and there and to stand ard (I was a waitress in a restuarant) and the least that you hope is a customer throwing abuses at you!
Actually the root problem for good customer service is the attitude. Like what PM has said, not only the employees must change, the employers and customers must also be prepared to have new perception of the service industry. The whole concept of service industry is of lower level should be corrected. Parents should stop discouraging their young abt how low level the service industry can be. And most importantly, to be courteous to anyone including those serving you. Though good customer service is important, the customers themselves will have to reflect on themselves too. Do they also view those serving them as 2nd class and throw their weight ard? It won't be so hard to show your appreciation by saying "thank you", "please" to those serving you rite? Good customer gets good service. Do what you expect of ppl by starting it yourself.
Education
I am also very glad that the leaders are looking into this problem after so long with so many children being the victims of this education system. Myself included. All along, those late developers are always looked down upon, many times not by themselves, but the people ard them. Children are susceptible to how people view them it is uptmost important to get acceptance from those ard them. I was lucky to be with the mass during my schooling time being in normal stream (note there was only normal, extended and 1 I couldn't remember in my time) in Pri school, Express stream in Sec school and I choose to go Poly after my 'O' levels. Luckily by the time I went poly, the peception that it is only for those who couldn't get into Junior Colleges has changed. Poly graduates are are much valued in the workforce. But my sister was not so lucky.
She is a late developer and in terms of academic, not as good as me or my bro, but.. she is very good with her hands. Being sent to Normal Technical stream after her PSLE further dampen her spirit in her studies. The teachers in her school were not helpful either, infact they pushed her further away from the main stream. Maybe the attitude of my sister played a part, but the fact that the teachers constantly speaking down to them, comparing them with the Express and Normal Academic stream is not helping in their self-esteem. As what my sis compliant to me before, the teachers just leave it to them to study, they are not even willing to put extra effort to explain the lessons to them at a slower pace and show more concern for them. Although there are teacher out there who will go all out for this group of children, just 1 insensitive soul is enough to send them into despair and cause them to discount their worth. This is in fact like the Yellow Ribbon movement for the ex-convicts. If people want to improve, shouldn't we encourage them, give them a chance rather than sending them down into the spiral of vicious cycle?
Not everyone has a strong might and determination to overcome adversities especially so without the support and encouragment from those ard them. By at least creating an environment and hope for them to find their worth, not necessary in terms of just studying is already a very good step towards increasing their self-esteem.
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Bad Call
Duh.... kana a proceed call @ 2050hrs just outside Fire Station. What the f***? That call was a bad one...*sob sob*. Din managed to diagnose the patient's chief compliant and missed my IV twice!!! ARGGG!!! How can I? Must be long time never practise liao..... :( Met Tammy at NUH, she also mentioned that she missed her IV also! Then dun know what the f*** happen, so many cancellations on my case record form..... Though I am pretty satisfied with my calls 2day, I am pretty upset with my last call.... and guess what? My mentor actually try to make me feel better by encouraging me!! And he mentioned that I am ready for Lvl 3 liao. Hopefully what he said is true bah. :)
I look terrible these 2 days with all my dark eyerings and eyebags (I no need rings and bags to hold water for my eyes lor..*rolleyes*) I look like shit and guess must have scared the hell outta my patient 2day....hahaha....
Gotta go sleep liao lar, if not I do not dare to look into the mirror tomorrow liao....nite.
I look terrible these 2 days with all my dark eyerings and eyebags (I no need rings and bags to hold water for my eyes lor..*rolleyes*) I look like shit and guess must have scared the hell outta my patient 2day....hahaha....
Gotta go sleep liao lar, if not I do not dare to look into the mirror tomorrow liao....nite.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Happy reunion
Hihi, quite a happy day for me today...:) Let's see, went for a revision on 1 of the topics for our medical at Alex station before heading to Sentosa for a relaxing time by the beach. Played beach volley where most of the time I am just a vase standing there and only the guy in my team is running ard for the ball... sorry encik.. :p
Din get much of a tan cos of the weather today, rain, stopped, rain, stopped. Of cos as usual I was the target of suaning in the group since there isn't anyone ard for the guys to suan *rolleyes*. After the beach session. we went to AMk for a crab dinner.. yum yum... nice...:p
Today the red cross guys celebrate Roy's bday. Fun. I have to go cos I missed his and Shirley's wedding last Dec. Tsk tak.... *shake head*. Saw a lot of old frends whom I have not seen for a long long time.... have a very good laugh over some crap that Vincent said abt the naming of Roy's golden retrival...hahahaha.... it was a very long time since I had such good laugh and at ease with the environment. I missed those days where we crap ard and laugh like nobody's business....hahahhaa.... those were the days man.. :)
We even took a photo of all my batch born in 1977. Hahhahaa.... good brother and sisters... I shall post the pics once I got hold of them. Very glad that I went for Roy's bd celebration. A very good one........ :)
Din get much of a tan cos of the weather today, rain, stopped, rain, stopped. Of cos as usual I was the target of suaning in the group since there isn't anyone ard for the guys to suan *rolleyes*. After the beach session. we went to AMk for a crab dinner.. yum yum... nice...:p
Today the red cross guys celebrate Roy's bday. Fun. I have to go cos I missed his and Shirley's wedding last Dec. Tsk tak.... *shake head*. Saw a lot of old frends whom I have not seen for a long long time.... have a very good laugh over some crap that Vincent said abt the naming of Roy's golden retrival...hahahaha.... it was a very long time since I had such good laugh and at ease with the environment. I missed those days where we crap ard and laugh like nobody's business....hahahhaa.... those were the days man.. :)
We even took a photo of all my batch born in 1977. Hahhahaa.... good brother and sisters... I shall post the pics once I got hold of them. Very glad that I went for Roy's bd celebration. A very good one........ :)
Friday, August 19, 2005
The Best Break-up Letter Ever!
This is funny !!!!
A Marine stationed in Afghanistan recently received a "Dear John" Letterfrom his girlfriend back home.
It read as follows:
The Marine, with hurt feelings, asked his fellow Marines for any snapshotsthey could spare of their girlfriends, sisters, ex-girlfriends, aunts,cousins etc.
In addition to the picture of Becky, Ricky included all the other picturesof the pretty gals he had collected from his buddies.
There were 57 photosin that envelope .... along with this note:
A Marine stationed in Afghanistan recently received a "Dear John" Letterfrom his girlfriend back home.
It read as follows:
Dear Ricky,
I can no longer continue our relationship. The distance between us is
justtoo great. I must admit that I have cheated on you twice since you've
beengone, and it's not fair to either of us.
I'm sorry.
Please return the picture of me that I sent to you.
Love, Becky
The Marine, with hurt feelings, asked his fellow Marines for any snapshotsthey could spare of their girlfriends, sisters, ex-girlfriends, aunts,cousins etc.
In addition to the picture of Becky, Ricky included all the other picturesof the pretty gals he had collected from his buddies.
There were 57 photosin that envelope .... along with this note:
Dear Becky,
I'm so sorry, but I can't quite remember who the fuck you are. Please
takeyour picture from the pile, and send the rest back to me.
Take Care, Ricky
A Clear Piece Of Paper
Love is like 2 people filling up a piece of paper... A relationship starts off as a clear piece of paper. A guy and a gal agrees to write on that piece of paper.When it starts, both r excited as it's their first time working together.
They fill up the paper with the best of things they can think of. Sometimes the guy writes more, sometimes the gal writes more. Some people writes without thinking much, some writes after some thought.
As the writing carries on, it gets more and more tiring. The couple have to be motivated to keep on writing. This is the commitment and responsibility of a relationship. As long as the urge to write continues, the writing will never end. It will carry on paper after paper until one pen's ink run out. This is eternal love till death do us apart...
Some couples prefer to write together, some write their own and combine the efforts. Neither side should be the only one writing, else ink may get blocked for the party who writes non-stop. Too tired...
The character of a person is like the handwriting on the paper...Everyone has his/her handwriting. It is very difficult to change one's handwriting. Not impossible but it takes a lot of time and hard work.
The outcome may not be desirable.It is also difficult to imitate the handwritings of another person. The most one can do is to be tidier or more untidy in their handwritings.
Sometimes, to make the writing on the paper look more presentable, it could be necessary for either side to slightly alter the style of his/her handwritings...
A mistake in love is like a smudge on the paper... Whether purposely or accidentally a smudge is a smudge. No matter how well the writing has gone.
So far or how lovely is the content, a smudge will leave a mark no matter how well u cover it (eraser, liquid paper, etc.). Whether to keep on writing will depend on the perception of the couple. Whether they mind the content more or the outlook of the piece of work more.
Worst case is when the paper is torn. It'll leave a very ugly mark. Well, the decision lies with the couple...
To break-off is to stop writing... Many reasons can lead to this ending.
One party could be the one writing non-stop and really too tired to carry on anymore. One party or both could be unsatisfied with the content or really dislike what each other is writing(it takes time to know the writing style of someone, it could be halfway through the paper before it is known).
Or a smudge exists and either one or both mind (depend on their level of perfectionism). Or it could be what they r writing r contradicting each other. It can also be the case where one party finds another partner to write with...
Other analogies... Pen users r serious lovers. Those who use pencils like to test things out first. Some even write drafts with other people (many-timers). After a breakup, a photocopy of the writings so far is made and this is given to a party while the other keeps the original (for memories).
Or it could be either or neither will keep the writings. It could also be the original work lies there waiting for the original writers to be back. A well-done masterpiece could be bound into a book and kept forever. Likewise in some cases, it may be pieces of paper lying around.
Different people writes different things and have different outcomes. In the case of people going through many relationships, it's just like changing partners to work with. Some may write things according to past experiences or have new ideas.
While writing, the couple may exchange their pens. In a new relationship, one party might mind that his/her partner's pen has been used by other people before.
Personally I believe this also applies to friendship right? It also requires both parties to play their part to keep the friendship forever lasting.
You only live once. What do you really want to do and achieve in life?
Let's think, learn & share. It is a meaningful journey.
They fill up the paper with the best of things they can think of. Sometimes the guy writes more, sometimes the gal writes more. Some people writes without thinking much, some writes after some thought.
As the writing carries on, it gets more and more tiring. The couple have to be motivated to keep on writing. This is the commitment and responsibility of a relationship. As long as the urge to write continues, the writing will never end. It will carry on paper after paper until one pen's ink run out. This is eternal love till death do us apart...
Some couples prefer to write together, some write their own and combine the efforts. Neither side should be the only one writing, else ink may get blocked for the party who writes non-stop. Too tired...
The character of a person is like the handwriting on the paper...Everyone has his/her handwriting. It is very difficult to change one's handwriting. Not impossible but it takes a lot of time and hard work.
The outcome may not be desirable.It is also difficult to imitate the handwritings of another person. The most one can do is to be tidier or more untidy in their handwritings.
Sometimes, to make the writing on the paper look more presentable, it could be necessary for either side to slightly alter the style of his/her handwritings...
A mistake in love is like a smudge on the paper... Whether purposely or accidentally a smudge is a smudge. No matter how well the writing has gone.
So far or how lovely is the content, a smudge will leave a mark no matter how well u cover it (eraser, liquid paper, etc.). Whether to keep on writing will depend on the perception of the couple. Whether they mind the content more or the outlook of the piece of work more.
Worst case is when the paper is torn. It'll leave a very ugly mark. Well, the decision lies with the couple...
To break-off is to stop writing... Many reasons can lead to this ending.
One party could be the one writing non-stop and really too tired to carry on anymore. One party or both could be unsatisfied with the content or really dislike what each other is writing(it takes time to know the writing style of someone, it could be halfway through the paper before it is known).
Or a smudge exists and either one or both mind (depend on their level of perfectionism). Or it could be what they r writing r contradicting each other. It can also be the case where one party finds another partner to write with...
Other analogies... Pen users r serious lovers. Those who use pencils like to test things out first. Some even write drafts with other people (many-timers). After a breakup, a photocopy of the writings so far is made and this is given to a party while the other keeps the original (for memories).
Or it could be either or neither will keep the writings. It could also be the original work lies there waiting for the original writers to be back. A well-done masterpiece could be bound into a book and kept forever. Likewise in some cases, it may be pieces of paper lying around.
Different people writes different things and have different outcomes. In the case of people going through many relationships, it's just like changing partners to work with. Some may write things according to past experiences or have new ideas.
While writing, the couple may exchange their pens. In a new relationship, one party might mind that his/her partner's pen has been used by other people before.
Personally I believe this also applies to friendship right? It also requires both parties to play their part to keep the friendship forever lasting.
You only live once. What do you really want to do and achieve in life?
Let's think, learn & share. It is a meaningful journey.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Happy 28th Birthday to me
Wow.... okie, so I've been on earth for 28 years liao. Let me count what are the things I have done and have not done.
1. Finished my studies
2. Has good track records of leadership when in school
3. Been thru OCS and in SAF for 5 years. Still feeling patriotic to fight for the country
4. Been in the job that most gers will not go thru. Chiong sua, chiong hai, handle weapons, throw grenades, rough out together with the guys
5. Be my own boss
6. In the sales line
7. Saving other peoples lives
8. Been thru 4 long-term relationships
1. Have not gotten my degree
2. Have not found the love of my life
3. Have not a car
4. Have not a house
5. Have not found peace with myself (though I am learning and trying very hard)
6. Have not been a good daughter
Things that I should do in the near future
1. Get my degree
2. Save for retirement and house
3. Learning to be free and live the true meaning of life
4. Spend more time with mum
Hope the years to come will be bright bah....
1. Finished my studies
2. Has good track records of leadership when in school
3. Been thru OCS and in SAF for 5 years. Still feeling patriotic to fight for the country
4. Been in the job that most gers will not go thru. Chiong sua, chiong hai, handle weapons, throw grenades, rough out together with the guys
5. Be my own boss
6. In the sales line
7. Saving other peoples lives
8. Been thru 4 long-term relationships
1. Have not gotten my degree
2. Have not found the love of my life
3. Have not a car
4. Have not a house
5. Have not found peace with myself (though I am learning and trying very hard)
6. Have not been a good daughter
Things that I should do in the near future
1. Get my degree
2. Save for retirement and house
3. Learning to be free and live the true meaning of life
4. Spend more time with mum
Hope the years to come will be bright bah....
Saturday, August 13, 2005
The Oxford Dictionary
The Oxford Dictionary's latest definitions of the following words:-
Divorce : Future tense of marriage
Cigarette : A pinch of tobacco rolled in paper with fire at one end & a fool on the other
Lecture : An art of transferring information from the notes of the Lecturer to the notes of the students without passing through the minds of either
Conference : The confusion of one man multiplied by the number present
Conference Room : A place where everybody talks, nobody listens and everybody disagrees later on
Committee : Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to decide that nothing can be done together
Office : A place where you can relax after your strenuous home life
Yawn : The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth
Compromise : The art of dividing a cake in such a way that everybody believes he got the biggest piece
Tears : The hydraulic force by which masculine will-power is defeated by feminine water power
Dictionary : A place where success comes before work
Classic : A book which people praise, but do not read
Smile : A curve that can set a lot of things straight
Etc. : A sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do
Atom Bomb : An invention to end all inventions
Philosopher : A fool who torments himself during life, to be spoken of when dead
Diplomat : A person who tells you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to the trip
Opportunist : A person who starts taking a bath if he accidentally falls into a river
Optimist : A person who while falling from Eiffel Tower says in midway - "See I am not injured yet."
Miser : A person who lives poor so that he can die rich
Father : A banker provided by nature
Criminal : A guy no difference than the rest, except that he got caught
Boss : Someone who is early when you are late and late when you are early
Politician : One who shakes your hand before elections and your confidence after
Doctor : A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills you with his bills
Divorce : Future tense of marriage
Cigarette : A pinch of tobacco rolled in paper with fire at one end & a fool on the other
Lecture : An art of transferring information from the notes of the Lecturer to the notes of the students without passing through the minds of either
Conference : The confusion of one man multiplied by the number present
Conference Room : A place where everybody talks, nobody listens and everybody disagrees later on
Committee : Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to decide that nothing can be done together
Office : A place where you can relax after your strenuous home life
Yawn : The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth
Compromise : The art of dividing a cake in such a way that everybody believes he got the biggest piece
Tears : The hydraulic force by which masculine will-power is defeated by feminine water power
Dictionary : A place where success comes before work
Classic : A book which people praise, but do not read
Smile : A curve that can set a lot of things straight
Etc. : A sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do
Atom Bomb : An invention to end all inventions
Philosopher : A fool who torments himself during life, to be spoken of when dead
Diplomat : A person who tells you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to the trip
Opportunist : A person who starts taking a bath if he accidentally falls into a river
Optimist : A person who while falling from Eiffel Tower says in midway - "See I am not injured yet."
Miser : A person who lives poor so that he can die rich
Father : A banker provided by nature
Criminal : A guy no difference than the rest, except that he got caught
Boss : Someone who is early when you are late and late when you are early
Politician : One who shakes your hand before elections and your confidence after
Doctor : A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills you with his bills
Thursday, August 11, 2005
The Mysterious thing called LOVE
If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.
If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her, feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.
How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.
If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.
Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.
There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love.
They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying.
You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.
Love always has been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.
"If you want to be happy, be." -- -eViL hiAmJiO®- aka DaRReN"
"ashita nante mou iranai kara"
translated as "We've got no use for tomorrow anymore"
If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her, feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.
How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.
If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.
Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.
There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love.
They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying.
You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.
Love always has been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.
"If you want to be happy, be." -- -eViL hiAmJiO®- aka DaRReN"
"ashita nante mou iranai kara"
translated as "We've got no use for tomorrow anymore"
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Tuesdays with Morries
Finally finished the last few pages of the book. Well, I was pretty lazy lar, to tell the truth, lazy to read, lazy to write. What the heck? That's the prob with self-improvement or inspiring books. Humans are forgetful animals, you need to re-read to refresh your memories. Okie, this time round, only 2 topics
"WE TALK ABOUT REGRETS"
Hmmm.... what if today is your last day on earth? What regrets would you have? What would you have done but have not done? Will you be statisfied with what you have achieved so far? It is always so easy to say "SIEZE the day" , "Live like its the last day of your life" . But really..... how many of us can do it? I have been trying to do that. At least I've said whatever I wanted to say to those I want to say it to.. so far. (What a mouthful :p) What else have I not done that I want it to be done? Hmm.... dun think so I have. Oh, okie, at least that shows I'm living in the present! :)
Have I been very demostrative of my emotions? I dun care, this is me and this is how I want to present to the world. Did a very funni thing yesterday. I sent out an sms to a few of my frends "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! I LOVE YOU *MUACKS* " 1 frend responded " you are stressed ar? " Haaa.... ermm... nope, I was just feeling very happy and great and I wanna share the happiness and warm feelings around.. :p
Charlie told me he will be going over to Ache for 6 mths on official biz and its a high risk trip. Well, din really think much of it until he describe to me the nature of his role there. Then it striked me that there really is some sort of risk involved. So I spent the whole afternoon with him yesterday. He will be flying off on the 14th, my birthday. Haa.. such concidence, Junqing was enlisted on my birthday that year too... hmm.. Have I told him all I wanted to say? Did I missed out anything?
As for the latest adventure..... we'll see bah
"WE TALK ABOUT EMOTIONS"
Morrie was discussing handling emotions with Mitch Albom on 1 of the Tuesday. We all have emotions, fear, anger, happy, sad, how do we handle them? In Morrie wise words, it is natural to not know how to handle emotions. When we are not in control, we tend to be blinded by our emotions and that might drove us into doing irrational acts. Fear, greed, sad, anger are the few emotions that will make us lose our feet. How do we handle that then? By allowing ourselves to acknowledge and feel the emotion totally. Only when you immersed yourself totally into the feeling, will you be able to detach yourself from it. Acknowledge you are feeling that particular emotion and let it seep through, once you exprienced it, tell yourself "okay, I've been thru it, now its time for me to let go". Easier said than done. However, I've been to a coaching class previously, it teaches us to acknowledge our feelings and thots and to find out where they come from. Usually its formed when you are little. The experiences you encountered actually shaped you in doing whatever you are doing now or how you handle a situation. I wanted to let the feelings seep thru me especially when I'm feeling fearful ,lost or guilt. But it does take time and practise to detach yourself from those feelings....... and I am still learning.
Okie, let me see what other books I'm gonna re-read again...
"WE TALK ABOUT REGRETS"
Hmmm.... what if today is your last day on earth? What regrets would you have? What would you have done but have not done? Will you be statisfied with what you have achieved so far? It is always so easy to say "SIEZE the day" , "Live like its the last day of your life" . But really..... how many of us can do it? I have been trying to do that. At least I've said whatever I wanted to say to those I want to say it to.. so far. (What a mouthful :p) What else have I not done that I want it to be done? Hmm.... dun think so I have. Oh, okie, at least that shows I'm living in the present! :)
Have I been very demostrative of my emotions? I dun care, this is me and this is how I want to present to the world. Did a very funni thing yesterday. I sent out an sms to a few of my frends "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! I LOVE YOU *MUACKS* " 1 frend responded " you are stressed ar? " Haaa.... ermm... nope, I was just feeling very happy and great and I wanna share the happiness and warm feelings around.. :p
Charlie told me he will be going over to Ache for 6 mths on official biz and its a high risk trip. Well, din really think much of it until he describe to me the nature of his role there. Then it striked me that there really is some sort of risk involved. So I spent the whole afternoon with him yesterday. He will be flying off on the 14th, my birthday. Haa.. such concidence, Junqing was enlisted on my birthday that year too... hmm.. Have I told him all I wanted to say? Did I missed out anything?
As for the latest adventure..... we'll see bah
"WE TALK ABOUT EMOTIONS"
Morrie was discussing handling emotions with Mitch Albom on 1 of the Tuesday. We all have emotions, fear, anger, happy, sad, how do we handle them? In Morrie wise words, it is natural to not know how to handle emotions. When we are not in control, we tend to be blinded by our emotions and that might drove us into doing irrational acts. Fear, greed, sad, anger are the few emotions that will make us lose our feet. How do we handle that then? By allowing ourselves to acknowledge and feel the emotion totally. Only when you immersed yourself totally into the feeling, will you be able to detach yourself from it. Acknowledge you are feeling that particular emotion and let it seep through, once you exprienced it, tell yourself "okay, I've been thru it, now its time for me to let go". Easier said than done. However, I've been to a coaching class previously, it teaches us to acknowledge our feelings and thots and to find out where they come from. Usually its formed when you are little. The experiences you encountered actually shaped you in doing whatever you are doing now or how you handle a situation. I wanted to let the feelings seep thru me especially when I'm feeling fearful ,lost or guilt. But it does take time and practise to detach yourself from those feelings....... and I am still learning.
Okie, let me see what other books I'm gonna re-read again...
Why We Love Who We Love
Got this from an unknown authour...
Why We Love Who We Love
Have you ever known a married couple that just didn't seem as though they should fit together--yet they are both happy in the marriage, and you can't figure out why?
I know of one couple: He is a burly ex-athlete who, in addition to being a successful salesman, coached Little League, was active in his Rotary Club and played golf every Saturday with friends. Meanwhile, his wife is petite, quiet and a complete homebody. She doesn't even like to go out to dinner.
What mysterious force drives us into the arms of one person, while pushing us away from another who might appear equally desirable to any unbiased observer?
Of the many factors influencing our idea of the perfect mate, one of the most telling, according to John Money, professor emeritus of medical psychology and pediatrics at Johns Hopkins University, is what he calls our 'lovemap'--a group of messages encoded in our brains that describes our likes and dislikes. It shows our preferences in hair and eye color, in voice, smell, body build. It also records the kind of personality that appeals to us, whether it's the warm and friendly type or the strong, silent type.
In short, we fall for and pursue those people who most clearly fit our lovemap. And this lovemap is largely determined in childhood. By age eight, the pattern for our ideal mate has already begun to float around in our brains.
When I lecture, I often ask couples in the audience what drew them to their dates or mates. Answers range from 'She's strong and independent' and 'I go for redheads' to 'I love his sense of humor' and 'That crooked smile, that's what did it.'
I believe what they say. But I also know that if I were to ask those same men and women to describe their mothers, there would be many similarities between their ideal mates and their moms. Yes, our mothers--the first real love of our lives--write a significant portion of our lovemap.
When we're little, our mother is the center of our attention, and we are the center of hers. So our mother's characteristics leave an indelible impression, and we are forever after attracted to people with her facial features, body type, personality, even sense of humor. If our mother was warm and giving, as adults we tend to be attracted to people who are warm and giving. If our mother was strong and even-tempered, we are going to be attracted to a fair-minded strength in our mates. The mother has an additional influence on her sons: she not only gives them clues to what they will find attractive in a mate, but also affects how they feel about women in general. So if she is warm and nice, her sons are going to think that's the way women are. They will likely grow up warm and responsive lovers and also be cooperative around the house.
Conversely, a mother who has a depressive personality, and is sometimes friendly but then suddenly turns cold and rejecting, may raise a man who becomes a 'dance-away lover.' Because he's been so scared about love from his mother, he is afraid of commitment and may pull away from a girlfriend for this reason.
While the mother determines in large part what qualities attract us in a mate, it's the father--the first male in our lives--who influences how we relate to the opposite sex. Fathers have an enormous effect on their children's personalities and chances of marital happiness.
Just as mothers influence their son's general feelings toward women, fathers influence their daughter's general feelings about men. If a father lavishes praise on his daughter and demonstrates that she is a worthwhile person, she'll feel very good about herself in relation to men. But if the father is cold, critical or absent, the daughter will tend to feel she's not very lovable or attractive.
What about opposites? Are they really attracted to each other? Yes and no. In many ways we want a mirror image of ourselves. Physically attractive people, for example, are usually drawn to a partner who's equally attractive.
In addition, most of us grow up with people of similar social circumstances. We hang around with people in the same town; our friends have about the same educational backgrounds and career goals. We tend to be most comfortable with these people, and therefore we tend to link up with others whose families are often much like our own.
Robert Winch, a longtime sociology professor at Northwestern University, stated in his research that our choice of a marriage partner involves a number of social similarities. But he also maintained that we look for someone with complementary needs. A talker is attracted to someone who likes to listen, or an aggressive personality may seek out a more passive partner.
It's rather like the old, but perceptive, saying on the subject of marriage that advises future partners to make sure that the holes in one's head fit the bumps in the other's. Or, as Winch observed, it's the balancing out of sociological likenesses and psychological differences that seems to point the way for the most solid lifelong romance.
However, there are instances where people of different social backgrounds end up getting married and being extremely happy. I know of one man, a factory worker from a traditional Irish family in Chicago, who fell in love with an African-American Baptist. When they got married, their friends and relatives predicted a quick failure. But 25 years later, the marriage is still strong.
It turns out that the woman was like her mother-in-law--a loving and caring person, the type who rolls up her sleeves and volunteers to work at church or help out people in need. This is the quality that her husband fell for, and it made color and religion and any other social factors irrelevant to him.
Or as George Burns, who was Jewish and married the Irish Catholic Gracie Allen, used to say: his marriage was his favorite gig, even though it was Gracie who got all the laughs. The two of them did share certain social similarities--both grew up in the city, in large but poor families. Yet what really drew them together was evident from the first time they went on stage together. They complemented each other perfectly: he was the straight man, and she delivered the punch lines.
There are certainly such 'odd couples' who could scarcely be happier. We all know some drop-dead beautiful person married to an unusually plain wallflower. This is a trade-off some call the equity theory.
When men and women possess a particular asset, such as high intelligence, unusual beauty, a personality that makes others swoon, or a hefty bankroll that has the same effect, some decide to trade their assets for someone else's strong points. The raging beauty may trade her luster for the power and security that come with big bucks. The not-so-talented fellow from a good family may swap his pedigree for a poor but brilliantly talented mate.
Indeed, almost any combination can survive and thrive. Once, some neighbors of mine stopped by for a friendly social engagement. During the evening Robert, a man in his 50s, suddenly blurted out, 'What would you say if your daughter planned to marry someone who has a ponytail and insisted on doing the cooking?'
'Unless your daughter loves cooking,' I responded, 'I'd say she was darn lucky.'
'Exactly,' his wife agreed. 'It's really your problem, Robert--that old macho thing rearing its head again. The point is, they're in love.'
I tried to reassure Robert, pointing out that the young man their daughter had picked out seemed to be a relaxed, nonjudgmental sort of person--a trait he shared with her own mother.
Is there such a thing as love at first sight? Why not? When people become love-struck, what happens in that instant is the couple probably discovers a unique something they have in common. It could be something as mundane as they both were reading the same book or were born in the same town. At the same time they recognize some trait in the other that complements their own personality.
I happen to be one of those who was struck by the magic wand. On that fateful weekend, while I was a sophomore at Cornell University, I had a terrible cold and hesitated to join my family on vacation in the Catskill Mountains. Finally I decided anything would be better than sitting alone in my dormitory room.
That night as I was preparing to go to dinner, my sister rushed up the stairs and said, 'When you walk into that dining room, you're going to meet the man you'll marry.'
I think I said something like 'Buzz off!' But my sister couldn't have been more right. I knew it from the moment I saw him, and the memory still gives me goose flesh. He was a premed student, also at Cornell, who incidentally also had a bad cold. I fell in love with Milton the instant I met him.
Milt and I were married for 39 years, until his death in 1989. And all that time we experienced a love that Erich Fromm called a 'feeling of fusion, of oneness,' even while we both continued to change, grow and fulfill our lives.
Why We Love Who We Love
Have you ever known a married couple that just didn't seem as though they should fit together--yet they are both happy in the marriage, and you can't figure out why?
I know of one couple: He is a burly ex-athlete who, in addition to being a successful salesman, coached Little League, was active in his Rotary Club and played golf every Saturday with friends. Meanwhile, his wife is petite, quiet and a complete homebody. She doesn't even like to go out to dinner.
What mysterious force drives us into the arms of one person, while pushing us away from another who might appear equally desirable to any unbiased observer?
Of the many factors influencing our idea of the perfect mate, one of the most telling, according to John Money, professor emeritus of medical psychology and pediatrics at Johns Hopkins University, is what he calls our 'lovemap'--a group of messages encoded in our brains that describes our likes and dislikes. It shows our preferences in hair and eye color, in voice, smell, body build. It also records the kind of personality that appeals to us, whether it's the warm and friendly type or the strong, silent type.
In short, we fall for and pursue those people who most clearly fit our lovemap. And this lovemap is largely determined in childhood. By age eight, the pattern for our ideal mate has already begun to float around in our brains.
When I lecture, I often ask couples in the audience what drew them to their dates or mates. Answers range from 'She's strong and independent' and 'I go for redheads' to 'I love his sense of humor' and 'That crooked smile, that's what did it.'
I believe what they say. But I also know that if I were to ask those same men and women to describe their mothers, there would be many similarities between their ideal mates and their moms. Yes, our mothers--the first real love of our lives--write a significant portion of our lovemap.
When we're little, our mother is the center of our attention, and we are the center of hers. So our mother's characteristics leave an indelible impression, and we are forever after attracted to people with her facial features, body type, personality, even sense of humor. If our mother was warm and giving, as adults we tend to be attracted to people who are warm and giving. If our mother was strong and even-tempered, we are going to be attracted to a fair-minded strength in our mates. The mother has an additional influence on her sons: she not only gives them clues to what they will find attractive in a mate, but also affects how they feel about women in general. So if she is warm and nice, her sons are going to think that's the way women are. They will likely grow up warm and responsive lovers and also be cooperative around the house.
Conversely, a mother who has a depressive personality, and is sometimes friendly but then suddenly turns cold and rejecting, may raise a man who becomes a 'dance-away lover.' Because he's been so scared about love from his mother, he is afraid of commitment and may pull away from a girlfriend for this reason.
While the mother determines in large part what qualities attract us in a mate, it's the father--the first male in our lives--who influences how we relate to the opposite sex. Fathers have an enormous effect on their children's personalities and chances of marital happiness.
Just as mothers influence their son's general feelings toward women, fathers influence their daughter's general feelings about men. If a father lavishes praise on his daughter and demonstrates that she is a worthwhile person, she'll feel very good about herself in relation to men. But if the father is cold, critical or absent, the daughter will tend to feel she's not very lovable or attractive.
What about opposites? Are they really attracted to each other? Yes and no. In many ways we want a mirror image of ourselves. Physically attractive people, for example, are usually drawn to a partner who's equally attractive.
In addition, most of us grow up with people of similar social circumstances. We hang around with people in the same town; our friends have about the same educational backgrounds and career goals. We tend to be most comfortable with these people, and therefore we tend to link up with others whose families are often much like our own.
Robert Winch, a longtime sociology professor at Northwestern University, stated in his research that our choice of a marriage partner involves a number of social similarities. But he also maintained that we look for someone with complementary needs. A talker is attracted to someone who likes to listen, or an aggressive personality may seek out a more passive partner.
It's rather like the old, but perceptive, saying on the subject of marriage that advises future partners to make sure that the holes in one's head fit the bumps in the other's. Or, as Winch observed, it's the balancing out of sociological likenesses and psychological differences that seems to point the way for the most solid lifelong romance.
However, there are instances where people of different social backgrounds end up getting married and being extremely happy. I know of one man, a factory worker from a traditional Irish family in Chicago, who fell in love with an African-American Baptist. When they got married, their friends and relatives predicted a quick failure. But 25 years later, the marriage is still strong.
It turns out that the woman was like her mother-in-law--a loving and caring person, the type who rolls up her sleeves and volunteers to work at church or help out people in need. This is the quality that her husband fell for, and it made color and religion and any other social factors irrelevant to him.
Or as George Burns, who was Jewish and married the Irish Catholic Gracie Allen, used to say: his marriage was his favorite gig, even though it was Gracie who got all the laughs. The two of them did share certain social similarities--both grew up in the city, in large but poor families. Yet what really drew them together was evident from the first time they went on stage together. They complemented each other perfectly: he was the straight man, and she delivered the punch lines.
There are certainly such 'odd couples' who could scarcely be happier. We all know some drop-dead beautiful person married to an unusually plain wallflower. This is a trade-off some call the equity theory.
When men and women possess a particular asset, such as high intelligence, unusual beauty, a personality that makes others swoon, or a hefty bankroll that has the same effect, some decide to trade their assets for someone else's strong points. The raging beauty may trade her luster for the power and security that come with big bucks. The not-so-talented fellow from a good family may swap his pedigree for a poor but brilliantly talented mate.
Indeed, almost any combination can survive and thrive. Once, some neighbors of mine stopped by for a friendly social engagement. During the evening Robert, a man in his 50s, suddenly blurted out, 'What would you say if your daughter planned to marry someone who has a ponytail and insisted on doing the cooking?'
'Unless your daughter loves cooking,' I responded, 'I'd say she was darn lucky.'
'Exactly,' his wife agreed. 'It's really your problem, Robert--that old macho thing rearing its head again. The point is, they're in love.'
I tried to reassure Robert, pointing out that the young man their daughter had picked out seemed to be a relaxed, nonjudgmental sort of person--a trait he shared with her own mother.
Is there such a thing as love at first sight? Why not? When people become love-struck, what happens in that instant is the couple probably discovers a unique something they have in common. It could be something as mundane as they both were reading the same book or were born in the same town. At the same time they recognize some trait in the other that complements their own personality.
I happen to be one of those who was struck by the magic wand. On that fateful weekend, while I was a sophomore at Cornell University, I had a terrible cold and hesitated to join my family on vacation in the Catskill Mountains. Finally I decided anything would be better than sitting alone in my dormitory room.
That night as I was preparing to go to dinner, my sister rushed up the stairs and said, 'When you walk into that dining room, you're going to meet the man you'll marry.'
I think I said something like 'Buzz off!' But my sister couldn't have been more right. I knew it from the moment I saw him, and the memory still gives me goose flesh. He was a premed student, also at Cornell, who incidentally also had a bad cold. I fell in love with Milton the instant I met him.
Milt and I were married for 39 years, until his death in 1989. And all that time we experienced a love that Erich Fromm called a 'feeling of fusion, of oneness,' even while we both continued to change, grow and fulfill our lives.
Monday, August 8, 2005
Updates/ Happy Birthday Singapore
Okie, haven been writing for the past few days... hmm... let me see. Okie, met up with a frend on Fri and guess what?? I spent money again, this time on a blusher and eyeshowdow from Red Earth. How come I always spend money went I go shopping with him???? The last time I bought 2 tees while out with him to... hump...
But okay lar, the colors looks nice on me. :p Then I also bought a pair of white pants from U2 on Sat before heading for my sis bday chalet. Hahahah... there is no need for any reason when a woman wants to shop... :p
Sis chalet was okay, most are her frends and I dun know them anyway. But just be there for her bday lor.
Then yesterday went to Kallang Bahru to help distribute the first iad boxes for the single elderly and to demostrate on how to use the items in the box. Too nervous, my cantonese 1 piece 1 piece de.... :p But bottomline they understand can liao...heee. Its been quite a while since I did volunteer work, good to get back to it again :)
Haa....went to Mdm Wong yesterday with Charlie. Finally!! After abt what..... 8 mths?? Haa.... really very happy, can dance again! YEAH! Hmmm.... saw 2 bartop dancers yesterday nite. Hope to see sis perform 1 day. Maybe I can ask her to get me in to moonlight? Whahahaha..... think my thigh too fat liao, patrons vomitted not cos of the alcohol but....... then my poor collegues will get a call sheet "case of someone fainted due to a scary sight". Whatsmore its the 7th month of the lunar calendar! Haaa.... This reminds me of a ger I saw yesterday at MW. She was long-haired, wore a dress and the way she danced and swing her head/hair, under that kinda lighting was like..... was her head intact????
Then today went our and study with Tammy. Joyce was busy at the marina introducing the new ambulance to our fellow countrymen. And pengkanging there too.....wahahaha... :p She brought along the fireman jacket that I wanted all along for me and Tammy when we met just now! Wow! Huggzzzz..... thanks Qi! I really liked that jacket.... *beaming*
Tomorrow is our nation's 40th Birthday. I was on MRT the other day when it suddenly striked me real hard, the slogan "Singapore, my home". It occured to me that YES! Singapore is my home, where I belong and where I can always comes back to no matter where I go. Its not perfect and the govt might not be the best. But whatever, they still want the best for its people and if we dun protect our HOME, then who does? Oh shit! All those Duty, Honour, Country thingy are flooding back to me liao! Sigh.... the feeling of fighting for the country.... you can never feel the adrenaline rush if you never feel it. How can I describe? Nvm... its always the feelings that you can put down in words that got you real deep and hard.. :)
Well, you might think its very naive of me to talk abt protecting Singapore, fighting for her and such. Some ppl will think that Singapore won't go to war and that if anything happens, migrating is the way. Maybe.... *shrug* Each for his own. Maybe for me, my existence is not that important anyway, so dying for a good cause will at least makes me feel useful.......
Anyway, its not a very easy road for Singapore to come such long way since our independance and we should really be thankful for all the peace and prosperity that we are enjoying now. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! Many more happy returns to come! :)
But okay lar, the colors looks nice on me. :p Then I also bought a pair of white pants from U2 on Sat before heading for my sis bday chalet. Hahahah... there is no need for any reason when a woman wants to shop... :p
Sis chalet was okay, most are her frends and I dun know them anyway. But just be there for her bday lor.
Then yesterday went to Kallang Bahru to help distribute the first iad boxes for the single elderly and to demostrate on how to use the items in the box. Too nervous, my cantonese 1 piece 1 piece de.... :p But bottomline they understand can liao...heee. Its been quite a while since I did volunteer work, good to get back to it again :)
Haa....went to Mdm Wong yesterday with Charlie. Finally!! After abt what..... 8 mths?? Haa.... really very happy, can dance again! YEAH! Hmmm.... saw 2 bartop dancers yesterday nite. Hope to see sis perform 1 day. Maybe I can ask her to get me in to moonlight? Whahahaha..... think my thigh too fat liao, patrons vomitted not cos of the alcohol but....... then my poor collegues will get a call sheet "case of someone fainted due to a scary sight". Whatsmore its the 7th month of the lunar calendar! Haaa.... This reminds me of a ger I saw yesterday at MW. She was long-haired, wore a dress and the way she danced and swing her head/hair, under that kinda lighting was like..... was her head intact????
Then today went our and study with Tammy. Joyce was busy at the marina introducing the new ambulance to our fellow countrymen. And pengkanging there too.....wahahaha... :p She brought along the fireman jacket that I wanted all along for me and Tammy when we met just now! Wow! Huggzzzz..... thanks Qi! I really liked that jacket.... *beaming*
Tomorrow is our nation's 40th Birthday. I was on MRT the other day when it suddenly striked me real hard, the slogan "Singapore, my home". It occured to me that YES! Singapore is my home, where I belong and where I can always comes back to no matter where I go. Its not perfect and the govt might not be the best. But whatever, they still want the best for its people and if we dun protect our HOME, then who does? Oh shit! All those Duty, Honour, Country thingy are flooding back to me liao! Sigh.... the feeling of fighting for the country.... you can never feel the adrenaline rush if you never feel it. How can I describe? Nvm... its always the feelings that you can put down in words that got you real deep and hard.. :)
Well, you might think its very naive of me to talk abt protecting Singapore, fighting for her and such. Some ppl will think that Singapore won't go to war and that if anything happens, migrating is the way. Maybe.... *shrug* Each for his own. Maybe for me, my existence is not that important anyway, so dying for a good cause will at least makes me feel useful.......
Anyway, its not a very easy road for Singapore to come such long way since our independance and we should really be thankful for all the peace and prosperity that we are enjoying now. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! Many more happy returns to come! :)
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