Friday, August 31, 2007

Burn the Floor: FloorPlay

Yo, just came back from the dance performance. Heh, let's see, I've bought tics for 2 dance performances and 4 sessions of dance workshop for d:ance festival 2007. :p

Very nice performace, mainly introducing the types of ballroom dancing. I like! Seeing the performance makes me realise something. My true love is still Chinese dance. Although I am interested in all other dances, Chinese Dance remain as my 1 and only true love. So.... I've decided to go for Xiaofeng's performance tomorrow. Been battling as whether to continue with chinese dance. Will I be able to take it that I am back as a normal dancer? I think I missed the most important point. I like dancing, I like performing, I like to be on stage. If I can get all these, why should I mind what my part in the dance will be? I believed with my talents, I can do it! The only prob now is that I am already 30yrs old. How long more can I be a dancer? Would any troupe accept a 30+ year old dancer? =.=

Know what? Dancing is to immersed yourself in the music, flow with the music, surrender to the music. Any dance, any dance at all.

Saw another performance by a group of Jap artists while waiting to be admitted into the theater. Wow, chinese/korean/Jap instruments really can transport you to the nature... so soothing, so peaceful. The lady performing on the Koto, something like the guzhen, wah, so lady-like wearing a kimono and playing the instrument. I wanna be like her too.. :p Think I will pick up erhu,pipa or guzhen when older and have more time.

Was feeling rather aimless for the past few weeks. Well, I've got myself something. To be more filial to mum. I am ashamed to admit that I haven been the most filial daughter. Really should do something before any regrets. And of course to earn more money to support my hobbies... and perhaps a business venture..:p

kk, need to go back office in the morning to finished up the WITS project. Nite!

P.S. Passed my IPPT V^^

Monday, August 13, 2007

What is Marketing?

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, "I am very rich. Marry me!"
That's Direct Marketing

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl.
One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says, "He's very rich. Marry him."
That's Advertising.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and get her telephone number.
The next day you call and say, "Hi, I'm very rich. Marry me."
That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
You get up and straighten your tie; you walk up to her and pour her a drink. You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her a ride, and then say, "By the way, I'm very rich "Will you marry me?"
That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
She walks up to you and says, "You are very rich, I want to marry you."
That's Brand Recognition.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, "I'm rich. Marry me"
She gives you a nice hard slap on your face.
That's Customer Feedback

Muahahah....

29 ->30

hey hey.... 30 mins count down to my last few mins of 20+++. Sigh.... soon I will be in my 30s le. Wonder what is in store for me? What challenges will be waiting for me after this milestone? How much wiser and mature will I be? It's exciting and sad at the same time. So much to anticipate yet you know you have spent 30 yrs in this world liao. How long more will I be here? How should I live a more fulfilling life? Am I doing the right thing now? 好多的未知数.....

Read an article in a mag today. Its something abt listening to your heart on what decision to make. Something like listening to what your inner conscious yearn is what you really want and that shall be your best choice at that time. Things will pick up from there and you will give yourself a chance to live better. How I wish I can believe that. I have been making too much decision based on my gut feel.... but are they the best decison? I can't say for sure. Perhaps I should be more confident of myself.....

I shall make a wish once the clock strike 12. Pray my wishes will come true? ;)

A Very Happy 30th Birthday to ME!!! V^^

Friday, August 10, 2007

Happy National Day

Yo, its our Nation's 42nd Birthday! Eh... not too excited this year.. :(

Still missed all my uniforms, commands, duty, honour, country.... :p

May I wish Singapore

风调雨顺
国泰民安

World Peace! V^^

P.S. Am I showing calibre of a beauty pagent candidate? lolzz

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

House Keeping

Eh... did some housekeeping. Deleted those negative entries. Think I grumble and complain too much le. Its spring cleaning time!

当你能没顾虑的 delete 那篇记录时,你知道你已经放下了。

Saturday, July 14, 2007

From Ah Cheng IV

城市霓虹仍灿烂

照亮夜间的孤单

谁的故事将心绑

谁的往事不肯放

岁月流逝人迷惘

不闻不问锁心房

尘埃冰封的遗孀

何年何月才遗忘

十字路口人彷徨

不归之路是罪犯

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Too Many Choices

Too many choices, too many crossroads.
Too many thoughts, too many ideas.
Where do I go? What do I feel?
Is this the challenge that is being thrown to me this time round?
Will I be able to face the consequence of my choice?
Why do I have to choose?
What is the correct way?
Done too many major decisions.... I am scared.
Will this be another of my miscalculation?
Can I really live days as it is and decided based on my gut feel and what I am feeling right now?
I feel like crying....

惜福

最近看了部连续剧,都是说男欢女爱。为何每每总是出现这种局面,你爱的人,和爱你的人是不一样的那位。这种情况大概就是我们凡人都面对过的吧!要找个相惜,相知,相爱的几率是少之又少吧!我真的像我妈所说的,不懂得惜福。被上天眷顾的我,4 段感情中,就有 3 段是哥有情,妹有意的安排。可能是我一直都这样幸运吧,就把两情相悦当成是理所当然的。等到我又回到局里,才发现这种缘份得来不易啊!终于懂得惜福了!

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

新兵小传

Damn! Missed the first 2 episode of the above mentioned TV series. For the benefit of those younger generation, this was the first drama series from the previous SBC (Singapore Broadcasting Corporation) before it was called TCS. I dun understand why they keep saying 雾锁南洋 was the first drama series when I clearly remembers it was the earlier. Anyway, I can still remember the theme song for the show... can you believe it? I only managed to catch the last 5 mins of the Sunday show... >:( Funni siah, toking abt the experience of young enlisted NSFs of that time. Wahaha! Seeing them remind me of my own training...heee. "枪就是你老婆" in our case "枪就是我老公". I really miss my M16 when we finished our Tri-service training. 20 weeks together leh...I still rem my M16 butt no. is 13.

Really, nothing beats the experience when doing national service. The comradeship, the bonding, the craping... you only get these with the guys especially the crapings wahaha. The kind of satifaction when you overcome the challenges and your limits....wow! 非笔墨可形容! Till now I am still very intersted in the new products for the SAF. For example the SAR21, the new SBO webbing.... yes, even the combat ration! :p I think my passion for the SAF might have started with this show..... hur hur.

I was thinking of going HK this aug during my bday. I actually have the opportunity as Mdm Ng's dance troupe is going over to take part in a competition. However after much deliberation, I decided not to go. First, I dun really like the company, second, clothes I bought last year are still sitting in my wardrobe, third, think I will save the money for a Europe trip! Yeah! One more reason, it is during the National Day period. Dun know why but I have this strong feelings that I should be in S'pore on her birthday.... -.-"

Okie, enough of my duty, honour, country.....;)

Monday, July 2, 2007

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Expectations

Went for the complimantry Personal Training session with a PT at CFC. Did the body content check, eh, I need to get rid of the excess fats ard my tummy.. heh. The rest of my body is just to build up muscle mass. Wah, my ideal weight is supposed to be 53.4kg leh. Of cos, mostly of muscle. So gotta push myself forward for better stamina, toner body and my ideal PR of < 70! Then gotta strengthen my knee muscle also cos of my injury. *Sob sob* how come I can increase 3kg without me knowing leh? Duh.....

While training and in steam bath, me got thinking again. Men used to (or still secretly hoping) that women will be sweet, loving, understanding, know when to be demure and when to be independent. When to come and offer co. or went to leave them alone. To share the burden of supporting the family, to take care of them like their mother (minus the nagging), take good care of the kids (plus the parents) and last but not least, able to satisfy them in the bedroom. Thank God that men finally came to realise their wives are not wonderwoman or freaks with numerous tentacles...-_-" and so they lowered their expectations (anyone not doing will be labled as MCP...hahaha) and even help ard the house. However, it seems like women nowadays are the ones having higher expectations. We expect our men to help with the housework and kids. Bring back the dough and to still have energy to show us T.L.C. Of cos not forgetting always getting them into the fix of guessing what is the real thing or action we want from them. Expecting them to read our minds.... Is that too much to ask for?

I guess each couple will have to find their comfortable and balancing point in order for the partnership to work. Communication is very very important. Do tell your partner what is that you need, what is that you feel and how he/she can make you feel better. If your partner loves you, they will definately make concessions and address your concerns. Marriage and relationship has to be build o mutual trust and respect and not taking each other for granted. Easily said, but how many of use fall into the trap ourselves? I dun know, by giving and not expecting anything in return... is this true love or unhealthy love? *shrug* I guess depends if you are with the old school of thoughts or the "instant glorification" generation bah.... think abt it. Where do you fall in? *wink*

HORROR!!! Its mid year already! Damn.... time really flies man....

Moodles 涂画库

干杯

红色的魅…
香醇珍贵…
保存那年那日,过往的美。
滴滴流逝,品尝时光的韵味。
时间雕琢青涩的心扉,
渐渐酝酿成熟的思维。
就慢慢把人生体会,看透醉人的酒杯。





哈啰!长夜

良药不需要太苦,梦境或许会变模糊。
微笑就在不远处,向我挥手打招呼。
没哈欠、挺郁闷、待入眠。
又见月光划破长空的一幕,悠悠等待清晨的脚步。
没故事、挺怀念、盼催眠。
睡美人得到了幸福,夜猫子陆续归途。
我还徘徊在那灯火阑珊处



禁止搁浅


悲伤不应该聚集。
美丽和谁在一起?
冷却的心躺卧在温热的沙粒。
大浪冲掉心潮的泪迹, 小浪泡出温柔的图形。
日落时快回去。
回到最初的自己。




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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Communication

Haiz, got into another "discussion" with Y. Well, something about toking without thinking and sensitivity issue. Story went someone overheard some comments we made about another person/group of people (not good ones, of cos) and guess Y heard abt it from this someone too. Well, I admit we were insensitive abt the situation and the person then. Haiz, but tt's what happen, and I can't blame anyone if the story was added with seasoning and most likely will reach the person ears. I too am guilty of these kinda things lar, like you tot someone said something or do something whose real intention might not even be what you percieve it as and relay the news or the injustice you've just came to know about. Human nature lar huh....

I always have prob communicating with others. Maybe its the way I put across, maybe I just dun care if they misunderstand me. I mean I always believe "说者无心,听者有意" some people are just more sensitive than others and might think more into the words than its intented menaing so I can't stop ppl from thinking what they are thinking. Unless they are people I'm very close to, then I will make sure my real intention gets across. Sometimes my choice of words is also the culprit. 用词不当。Sometimes I just wanna irritate the hell out of people... hahaha. A bit pervert lor..:p I speak my mind abt what I think, even if its harsh. Most of the time I just speak my mind. So tiring to edit, filtrate before putting it across....*rolleyes* so I dun expect ppl to know what I mean everytime. But of cos I will be responsible for the things I've said and if the person confront me, I will apologise if I was wrong. I did reflect on my reactions if the same actions were done on me and I came to this conclusion. I will be angry, i will be upset, I will whine and complain, but unless it is something I really care about (in this case, I will confront the person), I'll just brush it off.

Frankly lar, I dun mind ppl say if my promotion was not due to my capability but because I am "due". It is a fact what. I din perform superbly well as compared to some others. I know, those working with me knows, my bosses know, cannot run one mah how I handle and go about my work. Whether I deserve it or not. People can say all they want lar, I can't be bothered, and I dun care. "Those who matters dun mind and those who mind dun matters". If ppl decided to have certain perceptions about me based on the few things they know or hear or percieve, nothing much I can do. You never really know a person unless you increase interactions with the person. Those who knows me will know what kinda person I am and they can form their own opinions about me. Humans like to think they know everything mah.....Whoever say the world is fair?

My stand is pretty clear, ppl can say anything about you but it is up to you how you take it. If I choose to be angry and upset or bothered by it, then it is up to me how I deal with my emotions. And I half expect others to be the same. If you cannot take it, it is your biz (exceptions for love ones untill they piss me off :p). Individualistic way of thinking I know. However, no man's an island. I've learnt to bend my rules and factor in elements of social interactions. Can't expect everybody to behave like me ya? And humans being humans.... well, I dun want to go to tt again. So.....I've learnt to be more sensitive to other people which is better for me too...I dun wanna become the public enemy also lar. I've also learnt to hold my tougue...sometimes too much. Too lazy to comment since everyone is entitled to their unique characteristics. Of cos me being a human, there are also instances when I just let go without much tots. Anyway, my stand is... I will try to be more sensitive with regards to what I say but the bottom line is, it is still up to them how they wanna handle it. It all depends on how you wanna face your life....Understand what I've written? Lolzz....

Raining very heavily...I love it. Time to sleep...hmmmm... Zzzzzz

Life's a struggle

Check this out....

Life's a struggle

A rap by this guy 宋岳庭. This song was inspired by his own life story. Have always like the lyrics. 刻画了人对人心寒,与人性坏的一面. So true......

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Whatever...Anything...You decide

Whatever

Men: What to have for dinner?
Women: Whatever..
Men: Why not we have steamboat?
Women: Don't want, eat steamboat later got pimples on my face
Men: Alright, why not we have Si Chuan cuisine
Women: Yesterday ate Si Chuan, today eat again?
Men: Hmm..... I suggest we have seafood
Women: Seafood not good also, later I might got diarrhea
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women : Whatever..


Anything

Men: So what should we do now?
Women: Anything
Men: How about watching movie? Long time we didn't watch movie
Women: Watching movie not good, waste time only
Men: How about we play bowling, do some exercises?
Women: Exercise in such hot day? Don芒鈧劉t u feel tired?
Men: Then we find a caf脙漏 and have drink
Women: Drink coffee will affect my sleep
Men: So, what you suggest then?
Women: Anything!!!


You decide

Men: Then we just go home lo
Women: You decide
Men: Let's take a bus, I will accompany you
Women: Bus is dirty and crowded. Don't want la
Men: Ok we will take Taxi
Women: Not worth it la... for such a short distance
Men: Alright, then we walk lo. Take a slow walk
Women: So hungry, empty stomach how to walk?
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: You decide
Men: Let's have dinner first
Women: Whatever...
Men: Eat what?
Women: Anything

(Look around....if no one is there, just kill her...)


Wahahahaa

Challenges

Eh, recieved a call from school to notified that I will need to repeat the failed module. WTF! I mean I only never finished my exam mah, all my TMAs I scored leh. Somemore already sent in my MC for the exam panel. Sent an email to them regarding this. If there is no compromise, then I shall stop my degree le. I mean why waste another semester and money to repeat? You dun need a degree to suceed. So, I am okay. If can appeal for just an exam resit, I will continue, if not, then tt's it lor. At least I have more savings to spend....heeee

Okie, this isn't so bad. I'm worrying abt another issue. There is this mole at my chest area that seems to be growing darker and bigger in size. Then I see another one coming up too. Hmm... what are they leh? Are they any indication of an ailment... namely cancer? Read from some reports that changing in color or size of a mole may be an indication that something is changing in your body. Well, think I better go see a doc first before jumping to any conclusion. Heh, even if it really is cancer, I dun think I am afraid of death bah. Somemore I already got myself covered for the critical illness. Just have to make sure I have enough to cover for my living days. Of cos I will continue working if I can lar... Maybe tt is the good thing abt being single, at least there is not much worries that you need to leave behind. Heee.... shall see how bah.

Went to Kuan Yin temple today. Got 2 lots, a good one for my health and a medium one for my love life. Something like I will have to fight for my rights? *scratch* Anyway...

Did I mention my weight is now 51kg!!! OMG, went to measure at the gym the other day and today. Tot the scales malfunction the first day..-_-". Damn! Increase by 4 kg leh.... what did I do? Nvm, I shall work it back... though need lot of self discipline lar...haiz. But for the sake of my figure...I must endure!! Haaa.. the things women do for beauty..:p

Wanted to change my blogskin... shall do it my next off day.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

MRT pledge

Something from an email....


you've heard of the Singapore pledge. The following is the MRT pledge:
We, the passengers of MRT,
poised ourselves as one kan cheong people,
regardless of old folks, kids or pregnant women,
to rush for unoccupied seats,
based on pushing and shoving,
so as to achieve rest. slumber and sleep for our comfort.

Hahahha

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Possessive

Yeah, I know I am actually a possessive ger and I am right. Although I gave alot of freedom to my bfs (including time out with their female frends), I will still be jealous if they spend time with their friends more than me! I will also get jealous if they talk a lot about a new female friend that they just met. I am only human.I already know I can't share, I should have known.....

无题

往日欢笑绕耳边,昔日温柔印唇间
暗自叹息夜未眠,懊悔再也回不了....... 从前

与我遨游

解读沉默

我的沉默,
成为理所当然。
不想解释,
不要多说。

沉默是封闭也好,
是隔离也罢。
不希望你会了解。
我没对你说...
心有灵犀,
确实用不上。

解读沉默,
只会让你更难过。
阻塞的思绪,
静静在时间里躺着。

沉默者...
还是沉默。

戒爱

手中的烟烧尽,我该如何是好。
早已习惯,对你的依靠。
杯中的酒变淡,我全身发烧。
这毒瘾,把我逼进了墙角。

如烟似酒,无可救药的煎熬。
腐蚀了灵魂,已无路可逃。

如梦似幻,世界已经变老 。
沉沦已久,只剩寂寞缠绕。

戒爱,不再烦躁。
从此以后,离开思念的牢。

戒爱,时间可以慢慢治疗。
找回自己,人生的目标。

“... 或许我太个人化,爱自由,爱情变成一种牵绊。 或许我太情绪化,放纵情感,因此别惹我也罢。 或许我太理想化,眼里容不下一粒沙。 或许两性的偏差,我不了了解它。”

与我遨游